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on the eve of DragonCon I am sad that I have to keep my excitement level in check... I can't just let it all go like others can... sucks sometimes.
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I'm really so very scared, but so badly want to be happy about it all. :seeingstars: I want to share my "news", but feel that if I do it will make it real and it will really happen (even though this could not be more real)!!! :blink: I miss you my sweet friend, but trying so hard to respect the decision to "seperate". I miss my D and always will. (w) I'm happy ... So happy, on some levels ... But people that matter to me have noclue ... This makes my heart hurt ... I feel an ache for those that are "just gone" from my life. :heartbeat: you. |
Watching someone I care about make a fool out of himself. He always says the wrong things when he is angry. He apparently can't see how badly he contadicts himself, but the rest of us sure can. I know he is very unhappy, it's got to suck, it's sad. But it sure makes me grateful for my life.
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Someone very near and ear to me is angry with me and won't call me back or text and I am not really sure what I did and I can't stop crying.
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A very brief thought of what "could have been" and how happy I "would have been." I bounced back to reality very quickly, realized and became so thankful for my current happiness ... and how good I have it today.
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Another teen suicide. Yes, a young gay teen. The stories never vary from one another much at all- always bullying going on and not a damn adult (professional or otherwise) recognizes how bullying can and does push a teen over the edge. Often, the latest episode turns into the very last straw in a young mind that is so unfinished and afraid. Hell, I'm 60 and remember the emotional roller coaster of adolescence- these people can't?
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just missing
thinking of my daughter 's dearest :candle:big brother for he was conceive this month 32yrs ago
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sending the children off with their father for Christmas holidays, today.. This house sure seems so quiet now.. It will be difficult, not having them here .. & was SO hard to send them off with a smile.. i want them to have an amazing Christmas with their father & his family .. i just miss them so terribly much.. They'll be home after New Years.. i will call and harrass them lots every chance i get, of course.. it's what nagging moms do! *smiles*
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Missing them...
The first holidays without a dear buddy.
My first holiday without a long time companion. |
So sad today
My dog Tuesday is a 15-17 year old American Eskimo Dog. I believe today will be his last, Friday we went to the vet for what we thought was a soft tissue injury of his neck and or shoulder. Last night we made a trip to the emergency vet at 2:00 AM because he was having difficulty breathing and was a bit cyanotic. His O2 sat rate was only 91%. They put him on oxygen for an hour and he improved. Unfortunately I could not afford to hospitalize him in a oxygen cage nor start him on IV fluids. I took him home and he doesn't seem in pain but his respiratory effort is disturbing either much to hard or much too shallow and quick. He will not take water so I need to force it, he will not take food, and I let that go. Ms Lily, my American Bulldog, is glued to his side. He is laying on my bed, looking out the window at the squirrels and the birds and breathing the nice cool air. I am so heart broken, he is such a good dog. I love him.
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I'm so sorry Venus
I'm so sorry Venus to hear about your dog. They say the last show of love is to put them down. To not let them suffer, they loved you unconditionally and we should love them back even doing this last show of love. I know that doesn't make it any easier for you right now but I'm sure you would agree it is the thing to do.
I will be thinking of you and the baby today. Give him a hug for me please. Warmest Regards Musicman |
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I'm so, so sorry you are going through this....sending you, Lily and Tuesday much love and hugs {{Hugs}} |
This WHOLE day made me sad... But tomorrow is another day and the new year is just around the bend. Looking forward to starting over again.
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Always being alone.
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There has been absolutly no joy in these holidys this year...
I know it will be better next year, but this year? I'm glad that it's mostly done... I am actually looking forward to the first, so 2011 can be over with.. |
today is wonderful but...
my mind goes back in time,a few years ago, on a Christmas day, when a warm, sweet, much understood and lonely man died in a fire that consumed his house as he lay sleeping. He had such a softness about him, and wanted only for people to give him time and some attention, for her felt abandoned in life due to circumstances that well, were so sad and tragic. I will never forget this man, and I can still see his smile and his eyes that beamed when anyone made him happy by just conversing with him.
this is a sadness mixed with joy...I am so sorry he is gone, but oh David, my life is so much better having known you...god and goddess bless and may you have finally found the absolution and compassion you so sought here... |
Most of the holidays have been ok,I did celebrate some with folks before the weekend started.Then it started raining and is either raining or misting heavy wich has made the last two days bleary,cold and drab ...not what I expected for a Christmas weekend.All this crapy weather has kicked in a major arthritis issue that im barely keeping in check,this hot spot in my back has effected my left hip and leg but I have managed to get things done anyway....its just the way its goes.I hope the next week is better than this one has been so new years will at least be a dry weekend.
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I always have a sad twinge this time of year. My maternal grandfather passed on Christmas Day and, though I didn't know him well enough to grieve his loss, it hurt me to see my mom grieve for him. Now that mom's gone, it's like a double dose of sadness. Even though she didn't pass on this day, I remember them both. Some years it hurts more than others. :rrose:
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Not a thing in this world.
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Each year during the holidays I see how much my brother-in-law has declined due to Alzheimer's. Also, how stressed my sister is in her caretaking of him. They actually have it much better than so many other couples/families dealing with this disease because they do have good pensions and healthcare and adult children ready to help out, yet, it is very difficult. Families without resources dealing with this long-term illness and it's consequences go through more hell. My sister goes to a support group and although she gets a lot from sharing this experience with others dealing with a loved one with Alzheimers, she gets really upset with what so many others do without because of their lack of support and resources. These groups do engage in pooling resources and lending a hand, but fergoddessakes, these folks are going through such an emotional roller coaster. The whole damn thing is just plain sad.
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Letting go :-(
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Having to make the decision to let my BearBear pass on to the other side.
He was always healthy, never sick a day in his short life, then on Christmas Eve he dropped. Refused food and would just stay on his bed, no energy whatsoever and that was not like him. Turns out he had developed a rare form of anemia that does just that; take a healthy animal and drops them. This anemia caused his immune system to attack his red blood cells, killing them off as his body struggled to make more. The treatment choices were not good and his chances of survival so slim that I had to make the choice to have him put down today. Those who know me, know he was my right arm and my heart as he was also my medical alert service dog. I am lost without him. |
How things can change in a blink of an eye...
Disclaimer: has nothing to do with ANYONE or ANYTHING here |
Stupid Packers. :(
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I wouldn't say so much sad, but rather disappointed.
Some information has come to light recently that has just left me kinda feeling disappointed. |
The fact that I'll be 45 in a couple of weeks and I'm starting over in every way. :(
*walks off grumbling...I'm too old for this shit* |
It's not bad, really, I turned 45 in August!
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One of my Scottish cousins’ being so insensitive earlier when we spoke that he reduced me to tears. I didn’t feel like going to my stitching group tonight as I still feel a little tearful, so I’m curling up with a good book and a pot of tea. :tea:
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That my girl was more intrested in other things than being with me and getting some sugar ..
I may be butch but it hurt me a bit .. We still aren't talking because I told her and she didn't like hearing the truth. |
Joe Paterno died this morning. :(
I hope the fuckin' Penn State trustees feel REAL good about themselves now. Bastards. |
It's coming up on that time of year again...the 5th anniversary of my Mom's death.
i'm sad but in a different way. A peaceful way... Last year i was finally able to grieve. With the help and support of my most patient very best friend i was at last able to say Kaddish at her grave and cry from the depths of my soul... |
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Writing an email today and it got read the wrong way and mistaken. A whole line of miscommunication comes from just scanning over emails and not throughly reading them. :vigil:
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my father & stepmother - they deliberately set out to hurt me, as often as possible.. & while i don't take on that anger anymore, because well - i just don't want to and simply won't play their dirty games back to them.. i am mature & do care and have love for them, as people who have been in my life for well.. my whole life.. But, what makes me sad, is their need to do this to me.. & need to ridicule and to try and lower my esteem.. They're not being supportive of the positive changes i am making..& when i think about this deeply, i realize it's because they're unhappy in their own lives. Not an excuse, of course. But, no matter how mean spirited they can be, i'll continue to wish for happiness for them, some peace & to be gentle with themselves.. i distance them for my own well-being - but still want well for them.. |
Hearing the news of a Virginia Paramedic Line of Duty Death.
RIP AFD Medic Weissman |
The death of an elderly client...working on his estate...he was such a sweet gentleman...
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