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*shrug* I'm not a sports person, so I can't really say. |
There is not enough NyQuil in the world to solve my issue.
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((((((((((( Diva)))))))))))) I hope you feel better soon!!!!! |
From my meditation this morning:
"If an individual has a calm state of mind, that person's attitudes and views will be calm and tranquil even in the presence of great agitation." ~HH the Dalai Lama My counselor has been helping me work my way through things from my childhood. Most recently we worked with something that happened when I was about 7. It was the first (and by far the worst) incident of abuse experienced at the hands of my Mom. Since Thursday evening I have been extremely unsettled; having flashbacks and nightmares. Feeling a lot like a child trying to make its way through one of those Halloween haunted houses - never knowing what was going to pop up around the next corner or in the next room and the exit nowhere in sight. During my meditation I was once again reminded of the owls who remained calm and steadfast as they waited for the strong winds to pass. Also of the bison in Yellowstone that stand patiently, belly deep in the snow as a blizzard rages around them. Then I saw a stream of water winding its way along in that typical "S" flow pattern. Floating atop the water was a small feather. When it encountered obstacles the water stopped and pooled. The water only remained there long enough to accumulate the exact amount of energy it needed to surpass each obstacle, resume its course and carry the feather along. How I wish I could say I was suddenly filled with some sort of instant peace/immediate resolution and now all is well with my world but that is simply not the case. Rather there is a lesson to be learned. The water represents my life, the feather is me and the obstacles are my past, present and future. The obstacles will always be there and must be faced but are only temporary delays on my journey. For the moment my life is in one of the "pooling" phases and soon will move along. The feather remained afloat and so shall I. |
A lovely Lei, sigh...
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my list of things to do today.........hmmmmm where do I begin.................
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Cowboy game today
Long hours at work this week My friends committment ceremony in July How happy I am to see all my friends happy with partners living a full complete life... |
Wasting time....in a great way :)
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Memories ... good and bad
Lessons in my life Embracing it all Knowing in the end it will be ok That we are ALL the same |
had to double check during half time that i still lived in az... looked out the window and there snow on the mtn down the road.. sheeez and right now my outside thermometer says its 37... and the wind is blowing like crazy!
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the Holidays......I really dislike them.........
I can feel that old familiar feeling starting to haunt me. |
That some things are better left unsaid.
That sometimes the best things for a person are what hurt the most. That I am stronger today than I was yesterday. |
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chuckling....thank you Ma'am, I know I can always count on you in a pinch
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BTW -resistance is futile... :eyebat: |
...that some just need to be the center of attention
...that I should never allow myself to get that tired again ...that feelings count...mine too ...that I've never dealt well with anger, but that my "recovery time" is getting longer rather than shorter ...that some think they've done a great job when they haven't....while others take things as criticism that aren't meant that way ...that my sister (who I have cut out of my life for good reason) just tried to hack my Facebook account...it's amazing what they can tell you about the location of a would-be hacker ...that just when I can stop worrying about my mammo results, I start worrying about Scoote's ...that diabetes sucks, period |
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Thinkin about putting my black boots on and shaving my head:sunglass::byebye:
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Never, ever underestimate a determined femme!:eyebat: |
This has been on my mind off and on all day , a friend of mine who has helpped me through my time of need her brother of 60 years of age passed away last week and she called me on my cell phone wanting me to come by her place that she wanted to give me a painting that it was her brother , I had only known her for a year but she had seen me wear a t shirt with wolves on the front and that was the picture of wolves she gave me, I told her I was sorry that her brother passed away and that I couldnt be there physically for her but I prayed we both hugged each other and I placed the picture in the truck and left. I know this sounds crazy but I feel for every life that passes away theres another one being born.
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If it wasn't so chilly out tonight... I think I'd take a LONG walk to enjoy the moon light. After breaking the shower, I feel cabin fever coming on!
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Wanting to enjoy the night!!!!!!! I rarely get the time off...and it feels wonderful outside!!!
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Mucinex is good.
It dries everything in Your sinuses right up. And everything else, too. And I mean EVERYthing. :| |
wondering how does Diva do it?? up so late and then up so early?? lol ..
hmm i tend to do the same thing at times..... hehe.. |
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Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:
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GOIN TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!!...Yes I am a total nerd for Harry Potter, even read all the books! My excuse to go is that I "have" to take my little brother! SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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What is on your mind?
My mom and dad saw a Facebook picture of me getting a kiss on the cheek from a pretty femme and gave me a very hard time about it. I didn't intend for them to see it but my Father was spying on my Facebook account and saw it.
My family is very homophobic. I'm butch and my Mom & Dad and one of my brothers just hates it; they're always giving me a hard time about the way I look and dress. My Mom calls me "ugly" all the time and my brother says, "why do you have to look like that?! You're embarrassing me!" I'm supposed to go to Colorado for Christmas but I'm nearly sick on my stomach about it. I love my family but they put me down and make me feel pretty bad about myself. Stress!! I can't decide on what to do. Should I just go and suck it up or should I cancel my plane ticket and stay home. I hate the idea of losing nearly $600 on a non-refundable plane ticket but I'm beginning to think it's better than spending 10 days with my family and having a lousy Christmas. |
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I dont even know who Justin Bieber is. But I am glad the entertainer of the year did not go to the antics of Charlie Sheen. :blink: |
spent the day here yesterday goofing off and flirting .. but today the suns out and i need to go spend some energy!!
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Just finished 2 more online job apps.........staying upbeat and hopeful
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I put up lace curtains in my LR and DR. It makes my house more mine. I never lived anywhere that was Mine that didnt have lace up in those rooms. It reminds me of homes where I didnt have them and realize now how significant it was that the lace was missing.
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Wondering at what age one is considered a grown woman by the in-laws.
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I got EVERYTHING done on my to-do list this past weekend! I LOVE being so productive like that....makes for a great weekend that consisted of no social interaction...except with the dude that helped me load up the water heater that I had to install.
Short work week then a 4 day weekend! One final tomorrow...two next week, then off to start the 4th quarter! I am REALLY hoping either Jennifer Gray or Kyle Massey wins DWTS tonight! Oh, and one of my best friends here in KC had a baby girl today...Sophia Paula....with a head full of hair and all her fingers and toes! I can't wait to meet her tomorrow night! I am thankful for all the blessings in my life! |
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