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On my mind :
A Co Worker: Last Friday she and I had a long conversation about the death of parents, and how when your mom dies it rips out a piece of your soul you never get back. And I was sharing with her, how it changed me for both good and bad. With tears in her eyes, she stated she and her mom were great friends and how she couldnt imagine losing her. She would lose her mind. I said, " " I hope you never have to find that out. But when you do, you find within yourself as I did a strength you never knew you had. But also when you do you will know the kind of hollow emptiness I am talking about. Sure, you live your life. But you are never the same... Then, I received sad new from my boss to day in regards to her. She lives between her grandma and her parents house taking care of her mom and grandma. Young girl. After work the other night, she went to the grocery store for her grandma. When she got home, she found her mom and dad shot to death from murder/suicide. Her dad shot her mom and turned around and shot himself. :( http://www.star-telegram.com/2010/11...r-suicide.html Im so heartbroken for her. At this time of the year. In this season when its about family. |
Actually going to put my Christmas tree up this year. Didn't put it up last year. Wasn't in the Christmas spirit as all. Hoping to have a redneck tree this year. With a John Deere theme.
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Still haven't figured out a birthday gift for the woman who asks for nothing and deserves everything -- my mom.
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I am debating if I should put one up. Every year I put my Christmas tree to see how long it takes for my cats to climb,play with the ornaments and knock the tree down. Lol They are still so adorable and well loved! |
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Tree... Tree... Tree... (even if it is the kitties play toy) :smileyXmasTree: |
was kinda blu yesterday.. yikes!!! good nites sleep and already having a better day... sure am glad for my friends on here... i can dump, i can laugh, and sometimes even help others and make them laugh when there are down!
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I get to drive to the mountains in the rain this morning...rats!
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laughing...yeah I've experienced all of that too. About 17 yrs ago I bought a tree and new ornaments and all that stuff. Was Bladie homemaker picking out all things that I thought matched for my tree. Had Apples instead of balls, red and gold beads and garland. Red and white and green candy canes and lights. Put it up Sunday night after Thanksgiving and when I got home from work Monday evening the tree and every apple on it was in the floor.:| and that is what a 4 month old kitty will do for a Christmas tree
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7am it was 70 degrees and now it's raining with a whole lotta wind and the temperature is dropping
I knew the weather was going to change, supposed to drop to 40 soon and overnight in the mid 20's As long as the rain doesn't freeze and we don't get snow here, I could live with cold and windy |
two cats, huge half blind demented dog, one revolving tree. LOL...
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"You've met your match" :|
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I have???? where????:|
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I'm thinking, when you go to someone else's home for a holiday, you dont have leftovers to munch on later.... when you're hungry..... and there is no food...... and it kinda sucks. |
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That's just wrong. If anyone is a gracious host, they would offer you a plate for later. Now, if you were at my house today, you would have taken home a couple of plates. |
I miss Oreo. She was the best cat ever. She watched us put up the tree and investigated the ornaments, but never pulled any down. She would whiff at the icicles and watch the lights blink and change directions but she never climbed the tree when it was decorated. Now, when it was naked...that was another story. We pulled it out a couple days before we put it together and left it up naked a couple of days after the glitz was taken down. She loved to hide in it then. :)
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How lovely it was to have my son and his sister both under our roof..
Then the added bonus of my son's platonic life partner.. grin... the one who would have been my daughter in law if only my son would cooperate and be gay.. lovely.. just lovely |
That it's 2:30am and my Butch is out shopping the Black Friday sales with me...
Clearly, I have an amazing Butch. And I love him with all my heart. |
I'm thinking about how cold it is outside and how my family wants to venture off to cut down a live tree. One that will no doubt be the largest, heaviest, and furthest from the car on a path hampered by stumps, tall sticky weeds, and mud. Oh what the heck, it's only once a year.Off to find my boots!
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I'm thinking I seriously need to shut this &&^%^&* computer down and open a book!!
The inner Lola is screaming....."get a life woman!!!" :blink: |
why does my back hurt every morning when I wake up? It works itself out shortly after I get up so why even bother to hurt to start with?
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Was woken up this morning by a coyote trying to play with my dog, Max, through the sliding glass door. I sorta knew that they had a casual aquaintence but don't want them to get too close. That poor coyote has fleas and gosh know what else. On the bright side, I'd rather have him talking to the coyote than the resident skunk.
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My body got all stupid on the jetplane; it seems to believe 12hours of sleep every 36-48hours is sufficient. My brain does not agree.
It is 50degrees colder than where I left. :| I do not like this one bit. My dog is ecstatic that I am home; but he rolled in poo & proper stinks; a bath is in our gay-agenda today. Should I make coffee and face this day OR pull the duvet up higher and hope for more sleep? |
that im only going to answer my phone every other day
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My Hide-Away....
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My Mom is on my mind today. It is her birthday today. We lost her to cancer 16 years ago. Miss you Mom, but you're always in our hearts. |
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I would live in one of those in a heartbeat |
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LOL, heck no, a little compact hatchback Are you saying I need to bring things with me? Looks like it may be furnished and all I need is my clothes and cats |
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I know when I hit my 40's I started to feel every aches! :seeingstars: |
Back to work on MONDAY:( Countdown to Christmas vacation begins NOW!
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I just watched the movie "Eat Pray Love"....OMG, loved it! That movie really makes you think.
So now I am all up in my head about love, relationships, and all the worms that are in that can.....that I wish had not been opened in my brain!! OY! Now, where is that switch so I can shut off my mind for the evening!? |
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That this has been the 24 hours from hell and I don't ever want to do this again...
In the last 24 hours... Our mr. poodie was hit by a car and killed... I didn't want Mitmo to see what happened to her baby, so I took care of him before I even told her what happened... I can't get the pictures out of my head... I took him over to our new house and buried him this afternoon... There was a lil trama to add new pictures in my head... I can't talk about it with her because I need to keep her safe and let the last picture of him in her head be him going to sleep in her arms the night before this all happened... My storage unit was tampered with... Everything was locked up, but things are missing... Like all the fucking boxes that my son's toys were in... The damn barbies that I collect are still there... But my christmas stuff and my son's toys are missing... My desk was knocked over and the wood splintered and goudged to the point that I just tossed it... My son's best friends car was broken into and his stero stole... In my parking lot... My son is packing up his room... what to donate, what to keep, what to take... It's as it should be, but it's feeling like he is leaving all over again.. (which he is)... This new house will be the first house in almost 20 yrs where he doesn't have a room with all his stuff set up... Then.. my mother has issues with my son's status on his facebook and she calls ME... ugh... Please tell me that our three is done for awhile... Please? |
I haven't been in for quite some time, but I just wanted to come in and ask everyone to keep my nephews, their dad and grandparents in their thoughts. My nephews (ages 8 and 11) live with their dad and grandparents. Thanksgiving evening we got a call from the grandparents saying the house was on fire and the fire department was there. The kids were with us that day, thankfully. They ended up losing everything. HERE is a link to the pictures. Thankfully a lot of people are stepping up donating clothes and such. There is a benefit dinner Monday night for the family and my son is a cage fighter and they are doing a fundraiser on Dec 10th for them. It's been stressful, and we have 5 adults, 2 kids and 9 animals all crammed into this tiny house. Monday the grandparents are meeting with Salvation Army to get help for housing, etc and with some agency that deals with family emergencies like this where a family is left homeless and with nothing but the clothes on their back after fires, etc. Hopefully they'll be back to normal soon.
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For those who aren't in the best place right now, it's always darkest before dawn. Just hold on :)
I am thinking about love or what we perceive as love. How some days I want to run away and start anew. Don't be afraid to be myself . Do things how I want to do them. Sometimes the door unlocks, but I am too shy to push it open. I am glad I am surrounded by family this holiday season. It has been a rough year. 2011 has to be better ! Much love and thanks for reading this mini vent . :praying::deepthoughts::twitch: |
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