not what....

.... but who!

Good luck Wolfy,crossing my fingers for ya.

Decisions..... big ones.

:deepthoughts:

Hope you get the job!

you can get a spliter from radio shack or a hardware store.. just make sure where you plug in the cable from your wall that it goes into the input on the splitter. you can get splitters with many outputs.. but you do not want to leave any of them "open" or unused. is this the type of thing you asking about? or are you looking for more of a wireless feed?

Buy a wireless stick to put into your USB port and you won't have to run a long cable. It's what I have in my desktop because I didn't want a cable sticking out where someone could trip over it.

Someone in Russia told me they bought one ounce of marijuana for $350.00. Back in the sixties, I bought a whole pound for $250.00.:|

around here the kids give sometimes 40 a gram! remember 15$ lids??? and... they name it now... cuz that makes it better... shrug?

what is on my mind
 

i made my coffee, i was drinking it and now i've lost it.

--wondering if one of the dogs is enjoying a cuppa.

I want to go out on a date so badly. And then have a second and a thrid date with that person. But its impossible to find someone who can overlook that I'm battling cancer and will continue tp do so until it takes me down.
This makes me want to punch holes wallas ansd cry for days.
I need the holidays to be over. I find them such a huge reminder of this hole in my life.

don't feel bad, my life is gone. because of what i am dealing with i will probably never date again. everything, and i mean everything-my person is gone.

He is...

... in a million ways... and I just have to get them out...

... for too long I have thought I wanted the instant relationship. I was wrong. I was only scared of being alone. I'm not afraid anymore. I know who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I know I can do it, even if its going to be hard, and long, and stressful. But, I want all that... FOR ME, not for anyone else.

So, what exactly do I want out of a partner? I want date nights, outings with my children, someone to go to when all the stress and strain get to me, someone to support when the same happens to them. I want... "Your place or Mine?" and "Are you free this weekend?". I want anticipation and excitement, passion and contentment. I want to be with someone else and still be myself. I want flowers and candle lit dinners. I want a true courtship...


... and yes, I think that is what He wants too. It makes me excited to think about. I can look at the future and wonder what possibilities are ahead of me, without wondering how much I am going to need to adjust to accommodate it.

That's a very big deal to me.

My co worker still... :( I saw her on Friday and again today at work she was back up there letting us know she would still be out awhile...

Wishing there was some way I could help her... And the only way to help is just be there to listen..

Still worried about one of the cats who is acting quite out of sorts...keeping an eye on her...
Hoping we get the tree up tomorrow
Excited for Xmas, but miss my parents and younger brother and aunts and uncles and cousins..
Wondering if I can get the girl to trim my hair tomorrow...it's way too long and it's bugging me!
~SAB

I spent the night at a sleep clinic last night because I have had months of problems not being able to fall asleep. Once asleep. I can sleep well, but falling asleep is a problem. I stay awake until 8, 9, 10 AM. So I go there and the dr gives me ambian.I explain I have been prescribed this before but it doesnt work. He says to just take it. I shrug.

Next thing I know I am waking up and the nurses are looking at me warily and asking me if I know where I am and who I am. Puzzled I answer appropriately and wonder why they are backing up as I climb out of bed.

hmmm...seems I hallucinate in my sleep. And what I think of as not falling asleep is me actually hallucinating. I go "elsewhere". Its like a blackout. I didnt know where I was nor why I was there. I pulled all the wires off of me several times. I was not combative nor violent, just difficult but in a playful giggling way. THey said it was like I had been drinking or the life of the party. I was dancing and saying "I bet you never saw anyone dance like THIS before". Trust me..I NEVER dance..I am very very shy about dancing. But there I was, bellydancing around the room! When they got close to put the wires back on I was wide eyed and amazed that the figures on their scrubs were moving and telling a story. I also reached into their pockets and took out their personal possessions. Sighing...so not me. I ran down the hall, skipping sideways. I sang to them, pressed my face against the windows, tried to undress, and did all kinds of similiar uninhibitive kind of things. It took them quite some time to get me to settle down in the bed. Eventually, I left the wires on, got quiet and did do the normal sleep.

funny thing is...my brain wave patterns showed NO difference between those times and the sleep time.

My Dr has to get the report and then I have to go see him. No one has ever told me I behaved like this when I sleep. To be honest, it sounds very similar to who I acted like when I relapsed. If this is what happens to me when I sleep, no wonder I dont want to fall asleep!

I am so unnerved....and wonder how if at all, this plays into my breathing problems...

This is interesting and alarming at the same time
Do you think the Ambian has something to do with it?
Would you do the sleep clinic again?