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I'm wondering why I'm not allowed to view page 263 of this thread.
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I do not like my landlord's gf this morning.
She has buggered up my work-flow-plan by starting a load of laundry and then leaving for the day. She does not live here. She does not pay for the utilities that run the laundry. She wins the 'rude' award. I have 3 loads of laundry that must be done today. Now I am going to have to seriously contemplate starting with the vacuuming, this makes me treble dislike her. She also has one of those ever-so-feeble limp handshakes. :P |
that my television is almost always on A&E when i am watching television..
between Dog the Bounty Hunter, Criminal Minds & CSI, Intervention & Hoarders and everything else on this fab channel, there's always something on i'm lovin'! there's a new show coming on Monday called Heavy which i'm interested in seeing as well.. A&E addict! |
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the awesome thoughts, that will start with memories
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Greedy. :eyebrow: |
Ever hear Jimmy Wayne's song "Stay Gone"? Please, take his advice. You never did a damn thing for us when we were together, do this for us now. |
6am.. and my mom is already getting me stressed......... why cant we just wake up 1st?? she just woke up.. took 2 sips of coffee and is runnin around here , wanting to move stuff around.... for what i dont know.. i want to leave. *sigh* |
Why do weekends have to pass so quickly and weekdays take forever?
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I am trying to like oatmeal. Really, I am.
I made a pot of steel cut oats (less mushy) and loaded it with jamaican all spice & cardamom & a touch of tahitian vanilla & raw almonds on top (less bland). And the consistency is still "weird" to me. Le sigh. Must persevere. |
Reminding myself of my 10 Commandments.. This was from a self esteem course i took back in 2008.. Very fitting for the journey i've recently taken on.. MY TEN COMMANDMENTS 1/ Thou shalt not worry, for worry is the most unproductive of all human activities. 2/ Thou shalt not be fearful, for most of the things we fear never come to pass.. 3/ Thou shalt not cross bridges before you get to them, for no one yet has succeeded in accomplishing this. 4/ Thou shalt face each problem as it comes. You can handle only one at a time anyway. 5/ Thou shalt not take problems to bed with you for they make very poor bedfellows. 6/ Thou shalt not borrow other people's problems. They can take better care of them than you can. 7/ Thou shalt not try to relive yesterday for good or ill - it is gone. Concentrate on what is happening in your life today. 8/ Thou shalt count thy blessings, never overlooking the small ones, for a lot of small blessings add up to a big one. 9/ Thou shalt be a good listener, for only when you listen do you hear ideas different from your own. It's very hard to learn something new when you're talking. 10/ Thou shalt not become bogged down by frustration, for 90 percent of it is rooted in self-pity and it will only interfere with positive action. |
I need some new friends - or should I just say friends. Trying to figure myself out before dragging others into the chaos. I sometimes wonder how I would have turned out without all the bullying, rejection, and pain that I have endured - I know they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but just how strong does one person have to be?
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I'm thinking about alarm clocks. And how much I dislike starting my day with them. But I've signed up for overtime for the next 3 days so it's my own damned fault.
Well at least the money will be nice. Eventually. Today I'm just :( |
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American Idol comes back on Wednesday.
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Yayyyy!! And with J-Lo. :cheer: |
6:15-ish tomorrow evening...
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Balls
Yes, exactly the sort you think I mean. Which in general slang, indicates bravery and integrity. Neither of which is gender specific, but the idea of which I just slapped my ex with anyway. Sigh.
Man the fuck up. Whether you be a woman or a man, a femme or a butch, have some god damned integrity and own up to your own truths, whether you like them or are proud of them or not. They are yours to own. Stand up and speak them and don't blame anyone else for them. If you can do that (no matter how it effects me), you will earn my respect forever. |
I am thinking I may officially be out of this funk Ive been in. Starting new and NOW (yes NOW) am ready to just take everything one day at a time. I mean it this time!!! lol Ready for a positive change :)
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I am one of the strongest, most enduring women you will ever meet. Wanna bet? PM me and we'll match story for story. Manning up is an expression I use, not to denigrate women, but to elevate men. To invite them to step the fuck up. Will anyone? Who knows. Did my ex? Nope. Not in the least. That is all. |
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We've all had to step up be strong it's got nothing to do with male. I'm Femme they don't make 'em any ballsier, tougher, stronger than that. ;) |
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courage is on my mind.. i need the courage to be myself.. picking out some of the things that are important for 'me' .. - to embrace my strengths - or even be aware i have some.. - to get excited about life - to live, laugh & love - to face & transform my fears - especially the ones that hinder me - to ask for help when i need it the most - it's not a weakness - to get free of trying to be supergirl for everyone, all the time - to trust myself , especially my gut instincts - to talk as nicely to myself as i do my plants..or my cat..they get more self respect than i do with myself. - to honor my own needs, or at least embrace them some, and feel my worth. - to love the little girl within me ♥ - to overcome my addiction to approval - to grant myself permission to play - i deserve it.. - to nurture others because i want to, not because i have to.. - to set limits & boundaries and stick by them.. - to take risks and accept change - to always be completely honest with myself. - to plan for the future but to live in the present.. - to value my intuition and wisdom.. - to develop healthy, supportive friendships that are positive for me.. - to make forgiveness a priority - to accept myself, just as i am.. |
I'm thinking that Ricky Gervais' scathing Golden Globe performance reinforced everything I adore about that man... :D
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errands to do this morning, thinking about my sister in law passing away friday morning, and waiting for news on how or why. working today staying warm, its freezing out there jumping in the shower |
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Dixie, On Thursday night, 9pm, on CNN, Piers Morgan will be interviewing Ricky Gervais. I wonder if he will be a no show. Regards, Andrew |
Boots and not mine either...:eyebat:
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things i need to do tomorrow morning...
tonight when i get home, i'll get everything prepared, and then tomorrow marks my big day! building myself up to this moment has been an incredible process, and feeling 100% ready to take it on , is the best feeling ever.. i don't think i've ever anticipated something for myself, so much... and yes, i feel worthy. *smiles* |
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