Patient, there's a lot to be said for being able to wait.

I am fighting off some melancholy...must be the rain...

I think I am fighting off a bit of a depression. I am taking steps to combat it- cannot keep this old guy down for long. Other than that- content.

My frame of mind is not great right now. I have an all day training session tomorrow and just before I left work today, I pulled up the email to see who else will be attending.

There will be two asshole men I cannot stand there. I know one will approach me at some point and try to chit chat. We were sort of friends about 10 years ago. Tomorrow may become HIS DAY to find out why I want nothing to do with him ever again.

I am trying so hard to demobilize my head and my thinking tonight. It is not serving any useful purpose. This task is turning into a real quiz.

Feeling ok. A work in progress, as always. However, I put up one helluva fight. ;)

Today was a really good day. I am hopeful for some things to come to fruition next week. (crossing all I can- well except maybe My legs..*thinks)

back to Gemme
 

It went about like I thought it would but I did not act the ass.

The one that I thought would come over and try to be chatty did so and I ignored him. I really wanted him to press me so I could tell him the problem I had with him. At one point, I was thinking to tell him anyway but did not.

To be.honest, I did not want to spoil my day. I have had this one trainer before and she just puts you in a good mood, makes learning lots of fun. She is a retired local college professor. Everyone laughs like they are at a party.

I deliberately intimindated the other one a couple of times. I could not help myself. He does not realize I do this intentionally. This one is truly a pig! I don't know if you remember me talking about a guy that moved near my cubicle and snorted snot no less than 3 times a minute for months ... drove me insane. I called him the pig snorter. I think someone heard me tell my supervisor I planned to kill the pig snorter and relayed it to him. I would go over to his cubie, put a wad of Kleenex on his desk right in front of him and say,"our employer does not mind one bit if we get up, stretch our legs, walk around, go to the bathroom and blow our noses." He was moved to another area to sit near his team when a cubie was vacated.I was so happy!

Thanks for asking. :)

Very tired

Stressed

Contemplative

Better than I have for the past couple of days. Watching the Kavenaugh trial wrecked me. I can't even get into it but it dragged me and kicked me around hard. I took yesterday off as a mental health day and I really needed that. I didn't really get functioning until I got together with some girlfriends in the evening. We all were shellshocked. Today I feel like my energy is back from the drain that happened and I feel focused and ready to get back into the fight.

Feeling
 

I feel a little tired. There is so much pressure on me from work and home that I just want to escape. I have been thinking a lot about my lovely friends in New England and NYC and how nice that it would be to spend time with them. However, I am chained to work and home with mom. Ugh I miss my freedom.

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can you bring a companion along w/ your mom ? or would it be too hard for her to travel ?

Great idea ocean, I would love for mom to meet my friends. However, I don't think that she has the stamina to make that trip. She is a bit wobbly. I am trying to find a way to take her to Brazil where my son is working. I am not sure that will work either. I may need to have my cousin take care of her while I travel. Ugh.

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((((( chad )))))) keep up YOUR strength ! I'm sure you have the right technology to share with her when your away with your cousin. soo important to remember yourself, when your taking care of others.

Feeling pretty damn good today. Cannot shake a stick at that.

I just want you to know that I am sorry my friend. I am sad that you were sad. My thoughts are with you.

Thank you, are you in New England? Let's have a coffee and some laughs my next trip up.

CIJS Cats are the cutest thing?

CIAJS I am really feeling my blessings today.

Oooops, pointed out to me I am posting in the wrong thread!

I have a horrendous stomach ache

Im way beyond tired and sleepy, I cant relax enough to sleep

I am feeling terribly annoyed and aggravated. I bought some Autumn Blaze Maple trees and have been up since daybreak measuring, checking spacing ... laying out where I want to place each one in general.

I tapped all my stakes in the ground, turned around and my youngest pooch, Jeffrey Alan, went along behind me, pulled up every stake.

At a year and a half, Jeffrey is still so full of puppy traits. I will be so thankful when he matures. I think my next dog will be at least a year old when I adopt her. Later on, Jeffrey will be getting a play pal. He has just about ran Jennifer Avery into the ground. She is a stout little pocket pittie - a bit chubby.

Really awesome! Enjoyed our trip to the Sunday market where I scored 2 antique solid wood doors for $20. Had a great lunch made by my roomie. Love getting projects done with my workshop. Picked out the perfect exterior color for my front doors, hopefully to be finished by this evening. And maybe I'll have time to hang my antique metal milk crates (upcycled shelves).

Relieved and happy. I woke to good news, my youngest and his wife are now first time home buyers. Before they were living in a 2br single wide trailer, on a rented lot. It was an older mobile home that couldn't be moved. It wasn't in a bad area, just one that left a lot to be desired for a young couple with small children. I worried about the the roof on that mobile. The new place needs some work, but it's in much better shape than where they were living, and it's in an excellent school district. His brother is helping them move today.

Like a bright spot on a rainy day.

Feeling
 

I hope to feel better soon. I have been coughing to the point of throwing up. My coworkers pushed me to go see my doctor and sure enough I have allergy induced asthma.

That makes sense because molds have been in the 1300's.

Now I have more allergy meds and inhalers.
I look forward to breathing easy again soon.

a little tired, a lot hungry ... I may eat shelves 2 and 3 from the fridge ;)

unloaded the truck soon as I got home ...
- 14 bags top soil
- enormous bag of peat moss
- 6 bags cow manure
- some high nitrogen tree fertilizer
- cutest pair of pruners, really little but look like loping shears

Better than I felt earlier. A nap after work and late-night dinner did the trick!

Annoyed with sudden onset of very blurry eyesight both near and far, for 2 days now. Even my glasses don't fix it.

I feel better than I did yesterday, so look out world! :hangloose:

A bit out of sorts. A friend of mine died, one of my old crew- we are like cousins we've known each other for so long because we grew up together - and his memorial is being planned.
I'm not good with this kind of thing. People are talking and sharing memories and such and I just can't do that.
Its made me feel even more tired than I already feel with school and mum stuff. I'm sleeping in a lot and I desperately need it.
To be honest, I need a day or two on the couch watching crap TV drinking soup with a quilt.

Mum stuff ends on the 17th when it just becomes weekly visits with a monthly health care meeting tacked onto the end of a visit.

School ends on Oct 31st.

The Memorial is on Oct 21st.

I am SO going to fucking take a few days off in November and SLEEP/rest.

Pretty numb. Too much to let it all in.