HIGH - I got to leave the house today! And go to the grocery store, which was surprisingly uncrowded and where people were _mostly_ practicing social distancing and wearing PPE. And I found everything on my shopping list.

LOW - I nearly passed out after walking a short distance. I mean that literally. I'm concerned about my oxygen saturation and I have ordered a pulse oximeter.

The Low: Gosh, I ordered a fabulous Mother's Day prezzie for my mother weeks ago, and supposedly today, five weeks later, it will be delivered but I have big doubts about that because I've gotten e-notices daily about how Amazon is SO SORRY (not really, tho), and that hopefully it will be here by sundown tonight (sarcasm alert).

The High: I got a bunch of stuff done today; plus I trimmed and colored my curly locks, and I am doing my laundry also, so I've pretty much gotten all my chores crossed off my list for today. Tomorrow will be a better day because I can justifiably be super couch-loving lazy. :tease: :cheer:

High: Scheduling to get a day off this week when it will be the sunniest warmest day of the week.

Low: Being cold all day at work and then getting caught in a rain storm. Soaked through.

High again: Getting home and into warm dry clothes.

High: sunshine. Lots of sunshine.

Low: I shipped a package to my son last week, 2 day express. But it hasn't been delivered.

High: Still waiting for it
Low: Finding out I sent out two inaccurate emails to 1000 people

Yesterday’s High: Getting a “no harm done” email from my manager
Yesterday’s Low: Telling some co-workers I’m leaving in June

Yesterday high: My daughter graduated from college. Obviously no ceremony. We had a "drive by" party for friends and family to love on her from afar. My cousin's son drove almost three hours to get here. He is a nurse on a Covid ward. Just graduated last year from nursing school. It was so good to see him and we put together boxes of snacks and treats for him to help him through his overnight shifts. My sister in law and nephews came and parked out front for a while to talk through the window. I haven't seen them in person since March. We facetime but that's not nearly the same. It really hammered in how much things have changed. It was so good to see their sweet faces, even when it was sad to see them struggling with the masks. My older nephew has a new big tooth that I got to take pictures of from afar.

Low: Seeing my nephews. I was already really missing my brother who would have been so damn excited to be at my daughter's graduation. Even if it was a weird drive by event instead of what it should have been. He had been her educational cheerleader since birth. Not being able to hug my nephews. We are always hugs and snuggles and piggy back rides. My youngest nephew kept reaching for me through the window and just looking at me not understanding. They both called me Mama and asked for time together, asked me to take them to the playground we go to. After my brother died they of course continued calling their mom Mommy but I became Mama because I normally take care of them so much. It broke my heart to hear them calling for me like that and not be able to scoop them up and love on them.

High - talking on the phone with my aunt while taking a walk around the neighborhood

Low - running out of time to do all the chores I had on my to do list for today

High: my day with friends.
And on my way home, thinking how much I'm enjoying everyone's Christmas lights much more than I've enjoyed in the past (hard to explain but it's related to grief in previous years)

Low: stressed out about my upcoming spine surgery to fuse my lumbar and remove/clean up 2 disks. Last year I had a bad reaction to anesthesia. Makes me scared now.

High: Hanging my new set of Nightmare Before Christmas ornaments on the Christmas tree and watching Christmas shows with my boy.

Low: Lying in bed, bored, coughing, wondering when will I ever be over this nasty virus?

High - I'm am definitely better, and barely even coughing any more. My arthritis isn't as bad either.

Low - Being reminded that I can't be everything I want to be.

High: going to a food pantry and bringing back holiday groceries for some of my very low income senior and disabled residents. I couldn’t believe how much they gave them! And they gave them grocery store gift certificates, and blankets! I almost cried…

Low: I’m trying my best to get gloves for some of my residents before the snow hits. Doesn’t look like I’m gonna be able to until after Christmas. Right now some of them are using mismatched gloves or they only have one glove. Sickens me the disparity I see daily on my job.

High: Sunny outside and no rain for our trip to the vet today.

Low: Listening to Brittany moan and groan miserably because her injection spots hurt.

High: End-of-year purge of file cabinet papers/documents. Boxed up things to be tossed out on the 1st.

Low: Looking for a condolence card for my bestie and her family.

Delighted by good news, yet sad about what will happen next
 

High: a crown on my front tooth broke yesterday and my regular dentist was able to repair it today.

Low: My regular dentist said the crown actually needs to be replaced and to go to the Doctor who originally fixed it 6 years ago and have him redo the crown. I don't have money trees in my proverbial back yard, so I'm saddened by the fact I don't have money trees to get the crown fixed on my front tooth.


* I need a financial miracle *