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Ok, so I'm on day 8 of giving up a poison for my body. I'm tired and cranky and just gonna say it as I see it. No offence is intended, just honesty. Sometimes I think tough talking is needed!
OS...again!! You had non-smoking friends over and you chose to keep the only smoker company? At least you recognise that it was just an excuse, a justification. A good guest, knowing you were giving up smoking, would not have let you go out with her, nor would she have let you have smokes. Simples! Glad you're back on that wagon again mate...same for you, just another day and the nicotine is outta your body, it's just the compulsion left in yer head you have to conquer. It's hard, I know, but you can do it. Put yer tinfoil hat on and gerron with it. May the force be with you too OS :tinfoil: |
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Thanks so much for keeping the motivation going..I mean everyone! I am on day 3 and still not smoking! Yippieee!!! And yes..my inner voice is speaking loud..ha But the other voice is truely trying to fight it..trust that. One day at a time..or minute at a time..ha |
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No kicking yourself in the butt! Good to see you got back on to ride! Good for you! Keep it going. Suggest that those who smoke, smoke outside and you do not follow. I have had to do that for now. |
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Day 3 NO SMOKES!
You know, I am so proud of myself. I have this demon on my shoulder telling me I want one, I need one, it will taste so great, it will ease my nerves etc etc etc.
But I have talked my way through this everytime time. Sometimes minute to minute litterally. And no, I am not tooting my own horn,,just stating that as of this moment, this day, I am proud of myself! I have brought my sisters litterally to tears of happiness over this. That truely has shown me something on a deep level. Anyway, the day is young and my intent is strong..as of this moment..I AM SMOKE FREE THREE DAYS...smiles And having your support here has truely helped..thank you so much! |
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Actually, I know I can do things very hard..But yes I am suprised I have made it 3 days..ha Thanks for the support. |
Day 4 smoke free..and I am being truely challenged today!!! Grrr
However my daughter comes to visit from Arkansas today till the 14th so I am sooo excited...Trying to hold strong..minute by minute...Hand a mini meltdown..maybe that will help..ha Keep strong ya all...smiles Have a great day! |
Go you LadyP...there will always be challenges to our quitting anything but we can overcome - sounds like some sort of song there huh? ;)
May the force be with y'all :tinfoil: |
One of the reasons I do keep coming back after I mess up is your honesty, Incubus. I don't take offense at all for getting barked at for my lack of will power.
Excuses, seems I have a load of them. I could have not mentioned it and made me look good, that just isn't me. I am accountable for all my actions, especially the bad choices for my health. I certainly hope to be successful! Thanks Dude! Quote:
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Great job. You are an inspiration! Keep it up. |
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Thank you so much...And you can do it too..trust me if I can beat this...ANYONE CAN! ...lol Way to go for keeping it going. |
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It's only you that suffers; it's rough when you have to keep starting all over again, knowing how rough it's gonna feel for those first days and weeks. I'm real glad you felt able to come tell us slipped up again...and if it happens again, come lemme bark at ya again ;) Keep the faith y'all :tinfoil: here's an extra one for you OSB :tinfoil: |
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Barking only means you give a shit..and that you want to support and also be supported back. It is great to have someone you feel you can depend on and also be honest with. No matter what...Ya all have been there for me..thanks so much! Btw...day six and SMOKE FREE STILL...It is lessoning some with the turmoil..but so not a safe point yet. And oh how life has challenged my quitting process..ha . |
Day six
Smoke free 6 days and feeling my air in my lungs better.
Tastes are getting better. My nose is off the hook with every smell around. And I actually ran a little without thinking I was gonna die...lol Still a strugle and a gained some weight but I am still doing it. BTW, Weight is an issue for me as I struggled many years with anerexia..so it is very hard. But I don't care. I will pass through this and then loose the weight. Btw..I am healthy not skinny now so it's all good...smiles One addiction at a time..smiles I will finally be where I am suposed to be. |
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Day 6....woooohooooo...the force is working it's magic. :tinfoil: Tis true, I do give a shit. I am <that> ex smoker; a walking advert for what can happen to you if you don't give up in time and if asked I will evangelise about not smoking til the cows come home or they walk away, which ever comes first! :cheesy: Lemme tell you I was somewhat manic for a while after first quitting. It took a few weeks/couple of months or so to calm down and finally *know* that this time I'd cracked it. Quote:
Ok, so the weight thing is an issue for me too. I spent 20some years with eating disorders but even as I recovered from that I remained very slim. I was used to being around 100lbs all my adult life. I purposely didn't substitute my oral fixation with cigs for food, I was well prepared for that one. Then, double whammy happened, I got hit with full on (peri)man-0-pausal symptoms. Hoody on-hoody off...jebus I'm going mad but it's great not to bleed every month shyte. Well it appears that nicotine sorta helps speed up your metabolic system. This combined with the above hormonal stuff led to an exorable increase in weight which is the hardest thing I've found to deal with. It's relative because if I told you what I weigh you'd laugh but I have flesh that I've not had since I was a teenager. However, I'd rather be a small winnebago with 48% lung function left than a racing bike with rapidly decreasing lung function. May the force be with ya :tinfoil: eta...Day 10 |
You all are doing so well! Addiction is terrible because it teaches us to lie to ourselves and to find ways to justify our behaviors. There is a professor at George Mason University, Dr. Robert Smith, and he has done research on nicotine and the adolescent brain of rats vs adult rats. He found that the adolescent rats were much more sensitive to the nicotine and developed many more receptor sites for the nicotine, whereas the adult rats had little change. I bet most of us, if not all of us, started smoking while still a teenager. Our brains are wired for addiction. Unfortunately, his study showed that we would also be wired for other addictions as well. So, this is one of the most difficult things to overcome.
We are all amazing individuals to be this serious about quitting and making it through these struggles. Dr. Smith said his wife smokes and he doesn't think she will ever quit because of how addictive smoking is. I think I recall him saying (but this was years ago) the only way to really quit an addiction is to substitute it for something else. I'm not sure I agree with him on it being the ONLY way, but I think it does make it easier if we substitute the smoking habit for a healthy habit. It has been 2 weeks since I quit smoking and I have been nicotine free for one day. I was worried last night because after a LONG week at work, I drank a couple glasses of sangria. I was worried that would trigger me to smoke. My son's boyfriend smokes...so I know I could easily get one, but I didn't and I didn't even have the craving. I know I have to be really careful...drinking is a huge trigger for me...luckily I don't drink often! |
Cake and ice cream later.
Good Luck to everyone. Just a drive-by in support of what I have been told is the hardest addiction to kick.
Congrats to those that r turning the corner. :rrose: Never a smoker, but seeing and feeling the side-effects, My Mom was able to give up drugs, alcohol, and rl, etc., but could not give up smoking. |
Just got back and thought I would say..Still going strong..on day 9 today and soon that will be doen.
I have had some hard moments but old habits die hard sometimes..smiles Congrats to everyone for keeping on keeping one..smiles..tty all tomorrow. night |
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May the force be with y'all :tinfoil: ps. Day 13 :tea: |
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I think it depends on the person. For me, a brief period of time around non smokers was helpful. I was in enough angst while quitting, why make it more difficult by having the sweet smell of a ciggie nearby? It is interesting how different things work for different people. |
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Tis true different things work for us all Dapper and we all develop our own strategies. I was just saying what worked for me as I've seen the staying away from smokers suggestion more than once. I still kept the last of a pack of rolling tobacco and papers too. That worked for me. I knew I wasn't 'denying' myself as such but making a positive choice not to have that ciggie that I could easily have if I chose. I've kept the last beer I bought too for exactly the above reason. It makes my resolve stronger somehow, knowing that I can have what I want if I really want to, except I choose not to. It's just the knowing that I can that gives me comfort somehow. Yeah, I know, I'm weird! :tinfoil: |
smoke free day 10...smiles
Hangin in there..woke up and dang near forgot I wasn't a smoker anymore..sheeeesh..ha
But no, my brain kicked in and I didn't smoke. Today I have lots to do so that will help..check in later. Have a great day everyone! Keep on going on..and thank you all so very much for showing up for me as well. . |
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I thought that way at first, I will know I am not without incase. But it really has built me much stronger knowing I have turned them away by choice....way to go everyone! |
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a COUPLE TIMES IT HAS BEEN HARD BUT FOR THE MOST PART HONESTLY, it has been empowering because I have to choose and be strong. Ya know? I am so happy to have such honest people on here. It really helps. Also to have people who truely do care and want to share. Thank you everyone. May your days be full of confidence to achieve all you want to be! . |
That is great that you all can be around smokers and not smoke. I am not strong enough yet. My dad used to always tell me 'if you stay in a barber shop long enough, you're going to get a hair cut'. If I'm around smoking, eventually I'm gonna smoke. I have some will power, but also moments of weakness...should the smoker and my moment of waekness meet...I'll be smoking again. LOL
So...like I said to a friend...I can't date a smoker, even of she's smoking' hot :-). LOL |
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I took a walk to get the urge to go away..I will be damned if every person I walked by that walk....was smoking...ha! Bout killed my butt..ha It has only been the past few days it has been possible...But...Do I still have that voice that says..SMOKEEEEEE...hell yes I do...ha Even a voice that tried to tell me ..ohhh that smells sooo good...lol ha Now that I have a nose back, I can tell you..an ash tray truely smells horrid...ha Keep on keepin on..smiles |
The biggest one for me is having a glass of wine. I did not smoke much, mostly at the end of the day, a few but i had developed a habit. I purposely did not drink because i knew I;d want to smoke. So after 2 weeks i had a glass and wine and had a smoke. :( but I only had one and the next day didn't have another.
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day 11
Day 11 smoke free
All is well currently...but it comes and goes. Will check back in in a few. Keep it up everyone..it may be hard but ohhh so worth it..smiles |
Day 12 smoke free
Having a very difficult day today..Having an extremely hard time not smoking. My daughter left today which made me sad. And others I love have been challenging my emotions all day. People need to stop!!! Sorry bitching! I haven't smoked but I am telling you, today is truely testing my limits. . How is everyone else on this ride? |
Well done you Lady Pamela.
It's those sorta days that really test our mettle and prove that we're really on the course to success. You're doing it. You're dealing with a crap day without a ciggie. How amazing is that? Have you done that in the last few years? May the force continue to be with you :tinfoil: ps. Day 15 |
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No I haven't done that in many years...And thank you so much...smiles Its rewarding when I look back but during it..it still doesn't feel to great..ha go figure...lol Thanks for the encouragement..Here for you and everyone else as well. Keep going strong. And if by chance you fall..Climb back on! |
I don't know how I didn't do it today. I was near smoking and I actually stayed in my car for awhile because I knew if I got out of the car and passed my son's boyfriend smoking, I would have asked for one. I don't know what it is about today, but it was rough...probably stress and I may be coming down with a cold :(...anyway, I didn't smoke, but it was hard as hell not to! :)
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old habits die hard...keep it up for real...smiles |
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No-one said it was gonna be easy, they did say it would be worth it though. Remember there are no reasons to smoke only excuses. May the force be with y'all today :tinfoil: ps. Day 16 sobriety |
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