a kind heart

Cuddling on my own bed with my own pillows... I missed them, even for just one night.

An understanding kind hearted soul.

My most recent joy
 

The scent of our grass after the first spring cutting.

Life in general :)
But today, especially that my God daughter and her new husband are coming to visit

Finding a guy who is parting out his old Mercedes and is willing to sell me all the remaining parts I need to restore mine for only $130!!!!

Being in my element...

Seeing Jacques happy and hiking...then sleepy on the ride home :)

The views...endless rolling blue tinged mountains..

Hearing only the sound of my footsteps for a long while..

Spending the day with Ms Cricket. Celebrating the one yr anniversary of my moving to Texas. What a great yearWhat.

Getting to hold my kid today.

Getting supportive texts from my friends.

Eating a really tasty egg sandwich.

A cozy, relaxing Sunday together.

The full moon on a quiet night over the lake...

Getting to spend the day with family and close friends.

Finding a FANTASTIC little, classy Tavern in a cute little town that's certainly worth visiting again.

Hearing Mawmaw in good spirits, out enjoying her day for the first time in weeks after surgery.

A trip out on open water right at sunset...

Finding out that my son did find time to call his gramma while she was in the hospital.

Laughter and HEALING, HEALTHY, PEACEFUL Energy and Communication between the best of friends.

It doesn't get any better than this.

We sat on the patio and watched a thunderstorm roll in. It was quite an impressive light show with lots of loud rumbles of thunder in the distance.

The little things.

Joy!
 

Losing my head and a bustling beehive.
Spicy tea.

Taking my Mom to lunch and just talking. Sharing memories.

A stranger saying "I love you" for no reason at all......

Had Easter egg hunt at my father house for all the kids!
Shared memories.

A very small thing...

Making breakfast this morning and eating it at my KITCHEN TABLE...in my very clean (now) kitchen...

Truly...it was wonderful...

Cool crisp morning
sunshine on the lake
the smell of campfire cooking
Helping hands
a text conversation with someone I haven't heard from in nearly a year

Coloring Easter eggs.

Friends, family, laughter, and fun.

My girlfriend, my dogs, my friends, my job and fried chicken :-P

Family
 

Brunch today with my ex and our daughter, her husband and their two babies.

GF and I met up with her daughter w/her boyfriend and her mother at Ballard farmers market then went to Portage Bay for brunch. Later won $1400 at the slots! Beautiful day! :cheer:

Yesterday
 

I took a long, meandering drive through the countryside beneath an impossibly blue sky that was lit up by a sun so brilliant it was almost incomprehensible.

As I cruised along, I noticed a small "not-quite-a-swamp-but-not-quite-a-pond-either" at the northern edge of a cow pasture. All the other cows were hanging around together in the meadow (catching up on the latest cow gossip and weighing in on all the pressing bovine social issues of the moment, in my mind) except for one that was standing alone, as still as a statue, knee-deep in the standing water. She had her face lifted to the sunlight and I could literally feel her contentment all the way out to the road.

She was probably just trying to cool off, but what I loved the most about the whole scene was that she was doing precisely what she wanted to do and for her, nothing else existed in all the world at that time save her, the cool water, and the sunlight.

I think cows are beautiful, peaceful creatures and this one brought me a lot of joy. She wore her serenity painted all over her face as a light that rivaled the radiance of the sun.

A gift basket of beautiful, colorful, cheerful yellow and purple Calibrachoa flowers.
My hummingbirds are gonna love them.
It made my day.

Joy? Today?
 

Buttercream frosting bitches!

Bringing someone comfort and laughter

Ice cream!

Picking out garden flowers for Mawmaw and how pleased she was with them.

Going fishing and finding a bunch of the tiniest, itty bitty, squiggly little tadpoles I've ever seen. A whole batch of them would fit on top a dime. When I see healthy critters like frogs and tadpoles, it makes me think the ecology and area are healthy and not polluted. My son and I also have an affinity for froggies...they always remind me of him.

Spending my day in good healthy ways gave me joy.

Also...at the end of my day, I felt joy from thinking/ knowing that I AM human...I allow myself to love and be loved. I feel pride and share pride with those I care about. I feel pain and process pain in healthy ways. I fall down and pick myself up. I feel genuine compassion and an important part of my personality is putting other's needs before my own. ....etc etc...I AM human with a very strong will to overcome adversity. This brings me joy.

Adventures!! I can't wait to post pictures!!

1 WEEK: NO ANXIETY
 

That is what made me Happy. I have not had a panic attack in a week!

I read a pamphlet on How to Stay Calm while I was in the grocery checkout line. I read all of it.

Reclining on the patio in the glow of the setting sun - a tad chilly at 68* in the shade, but absolutely perfect temp for lounging in the sunlight - shirtsleeves - Tiny Dog by my side, pushing her head up under my dangling hand for loves