In a funk. Political days like yesterday take the wind out of my sails so much that it’s hard to get out the bed sometimes. I get up though because that’s exactly what the haters want.

Got rid of cable news last year and now I read most of my news online. This way I have more control over the news I take in, but of course even that didn’t help yesterday.

I’m already thinking of how I will get out of this funk, but I know the only way is to sit in it for awhile without concern of “getting out’ of it.

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Sickened because I am sure, even though there are various charges that could be imposed, that none will against Trump, Trump Jr, or Rudy!

There aren't even any charges being imposed on the rioters. Despite the bizarre request by the FBI for help identifying the terrorists and despite numerous videos and pics of these people, some where they actually identify themselves and confess their crimes, no arrests of these people have been made. Law enforcement has become strangely inept at handling rioters all of a sudden.

Angry. Sickened.

This is from the head of the Chicago Police Union.

“Do I support the Capitol attack? I wouldn’t have partaken in it. They’re individuals. They get to do what they want. Again, they were voicing frustration. They’re entitled to voice their frustration."

They're frustrated? So they get to do what they want? Seriously? BLM protestors they're not frustrated? They're not entitled to voice their frustration? Those protestors you meet in full riot gear.

Before much more time passes they will water down what has happened at the Capitol and make it sound like some good people, good and special people, because of being so frustrated and incited by Trump and some others made some poor decisions but overall they were just misguided patriots trying to do the right thing.

One thing I can thank Donald Trump for is showing us all what the heart of the US really looks like.

Disheartened and sickened. I really, really want to believe that this is not what most Americans are like. I really want to believe that most Americans are not sheeple, who will go along with T***p's Hitleresque propaganda. I really want to believe that America is a great experiment where with hard work, though not perfect and not played out yet, and though unfortunately with a lot of blood and grief, people are learning to live together happily and productively in one multicultural society.

I could adopt a more cynical viewpoint, and I do at times. But it makes me feel hopeless and sad about the world. I can't go through life in despair. So I'll keep taking my antidepressants, striving to live with compassion, looking at all sides of the situation as much as possible. I need the inspiration of people like Martin Luther King, Jr., the Buddha, Gandhi, and Jesus of Nazareth in my life. Because I simply can not live like this, with the crappiness of what we have been through for the past day (or the past 500 years of America).

I'm reminded of these lyrics from a song by Nancy Griffith. I suppose you might take them with a grain of salt.

"I was a child in the sixties
when dreams could be had through TV
With Disney, and Cronkite, and Martin Luther
And I believed, I believed, oh I believed.

". . . It's a hard life wherever you go
And if we poison our children with hatred
Then, a hard life is all that they'll know."

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I have been having massive panic attacks (PTSD) over my six figure debt to US D. of Ed....and over the daily assault by the sex perp in the WH. I just read two minutes ago that he plans to pardon himself.


That is what a narccisist does: they jerk you around daily, nightly, a never ending hirricane of bullshit and threats and (....).

Me too#
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I totally get where you are coming from. And I too have hopes and dreams for my country. I agree with what you are saying and the words to that song are meaningful. It is always best to keep a positive attitude.

However in some cases if you don't drag certain things out into the light they slither around in the dark and their power grows and grows. You can't defeat something you can't see. White supremacy is woven deeply into the fabric of the US. It's in our DNA. Systemic racism is the other side of that coin. There is a great deal invested in keeping this status quo. There always has been. A black Metro D.C. police officer who was on duty yesterday said in a public Facebook post that off-duty police officers and members of the military, who were among the rioters, flashed their badges and I.D. cards as they attempted to overrun the building. “If these people can storm the Capitol building with no regard to punishment, you have to wonder how much they abuse their powers when they put on their uniforms,” the officer wrote.

In a poll released by YouGov this morning, almost half of Republicans support the pro-Trump protesters who stormed the Capitol. A lot of these people who are Trump supporters are police, retired police, ex military. Which explains why over and over you hear witnesses of yesterday's debacle marvel how these terrorists were not at all afraid of the police. How can we expect any change when law enforcement is so invested in maintaining a white supremacist ideology unless we shine a light in the dark. How can we really change if we never even examine the truth of who we are because it makes us feel uncomfortable. You have to start from where you are at. Otherwise it's just more lies and God knows we have enough of those. It's better to look at the truth painful as it is because the truth has the potential to set you free.

Thank you Cin. I totally agree with everything you say here. Of course it is important to continue to fight the good fight, deeply examine our flaws as individuals and a nation and a planet, and bring the dregs out into the light. There is some pain involved in doing so, but it's a good pain that accompanies healing ultimately. I was really just talking about how I _feel_ right now, in the spirit of what this thread is about.

That is interesting about the D.C. Metro police officer. I had not heard that viewpoint yet. It confirms what we already know, that many police officers and military personnel seem to have a sense of entitlement to one-sided violence. It also explains why some Capitol Police were opening doors for the protesters and taking selfies with them. I strongly hope that those cases that were captured by social media will be dealt with appropriately.

Oh ya. This IS the "And how are you feeling thread?" Sorry about that. :bunchflowers:

I'm feeling a tad silly at the moment. But at least I'm thread compliant this time.:)

Better. Not feeling as paralyzed or “stuck” this morning as I did yesterday.

i’m feeling extremely blessed! 2020 was quite the year, my beloved cat Mickey ran away but in spite of that the year was a good year for me. I got sober and have been sober for 9 months now, I got married to the most kind, patient and understanding butch who loves me as much as I live her, and I figured out a way to retire within the next 1.5 years. I’ve become closer than ever to my parents, and my husbutch is close to them too... and what really amazes me is that my parents love her! My parents have NEVER cared for my choice in butches I’ve had relationships with...usually with good reason.

This year I have a list of 20 intentions and have started on 3 of them already. I feel great physically and I love working from home. Hopefully within the next year I’ll be moving south to be with my husbutch, we have a beautiful home on an acre of land. I’ll have a craft room/office and I love the kitchen.
Life has never been better and I feel truly happy and extremely blessed.

No need to feel silly. It was an overwhelming day for most people. Thanks!

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OREMA - ^5! Good for you!

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I'm no longer feeling so overwhelmed, either. Let's get back on the horse!

Right back atcha, GeorgiaMa'am! Back on the horse, indeed!

Frustrated. Pretty sure one of my co-workers is about to test positive. Her partner tested positive this morning. I had like four meetings with her yesterday and one this morning before her partner got their results. She ate lunch in my daughter's office yesterday- obviously not with a mask on. I know she and her partner travelled for Christmas and I've been extra careful wearing a mask around her but this is probably going to mean I have to quarantine, as will my daughter. She's also a counselor here so she's potentially exposed dozens of residents.

A little bummed because my unemployment pay was discontinued but I’ll manage.

I'm feeling frustrated. Could use some advice.

How do you know when someone is really guarded and needs love and care to open them up versus when someone truly just has the emotional depth of a toothbrush? How much time should I invest in this process?

I guess you just have to weigh how much you like them already versus the value of your time. I would suggest that you keep in mind that your personal brand of "love and care" may not be what is required to "open them up". And try not to fall in love - yet - because betting on changing a person into someone you want them to be is usually a losing bet. Good luck!

I'm feeling overstuffed and sleepy because I had quite a large breakfast. I'm also feeling accomplished because I finally tried a recipe that I found on TikTok.

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Restless! i

And it can't be "cabin fever" because it WAY too early in the season for that right....:|

Emotionally whipped and we're not even halfway through January!

I think we've all got cabin fever due to isolating. I keep dreaming of running away to a beach vacation . . . then I remember that people are isolating and social distancing on the beaches, too.

I'm tired of juggling the horrifying and the devastating.

I'm with Randy Rainbow and I wish the horrifying assault on democracy would end so I can get back to my devastating pandemic.

After Wednesday's Capitol event, I think I'm going through the stages of grief. At first I had disbelief, and now I'm just angry. Bargaining - meh, I don't see it happening any time soon. And I don't think I'll ever make it to acceptance, but I don't want to hang around in depression forever, either.

Feeling disappointed and a little depressed. I didn't hear back about Reddy, so I guess she found her forever home with someone else. I expect the right dog for me will come along - they always have a way of finding me. I had such a good feeling about Red though. <sigh>

:moonstars:Calm...introspective...tired

You can't win for losing...:|

Yup. Me too. They are like... well well well early bird, we're not ready for you!



I'm feeling relieved to be home. The snow is horrible right now and our city sucks at keeping up with the streets. While I was making my commute home I knew my daughter was making her commute in to work so it was double stress. What is normally a 10 minute drive took both of us 45 minutes. Now I have to deal with waiting until after 1am to hear that she made it home.

I'm also feeling hungry now that the panic from driving has let go of my stomach.

Feeling
 

Feeling pretty good. My brother is on his way here its been a while. He and I only go shopping for groceries and don't see anyone else so I think it is ok. If not, I would rather share his virus than a stranger (not) LOL.

I'm feeling restless & trapped!
 

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I think it's mainly due to travel restrictions but who knows!

I'm also sick of this place where I'm plunked, out in god's country on green acres, with no chance of any excitement happening whatsoever!

I've mostly been a "glass half full" type, but it's getting harder and harder to remain so... :|

Feeling
 

Not feeling too bad but would feel a lot better if it was warmer than 17 out there in that warm "looking" sunshine".

I keep feeling this sense of dread and doom I just can't shake. Like whatever it is, I better hurry up and duck before it flies straight at me and hits me in the face.

Feeling good. Things are going well and better than planned. I should be in a hotel on Lake Michigan this time next week anxiously waiting to see my new place.

This coming week will be a blur with final packing, hauling, movers, cleaning, traveling, hotels, goodbyes.

Thank goodness for the good girlfriends I have who are helping me through this transition. From talking me through my anxieties to helping me decide on renovations (no one has anything good to say about popcorn ceilings!) to packing, helping me organize and research quotes, and reminding me of what I need and need not do.

I have taken organization to a new level, at least for me. My packed boxes are color coded and numbered. I am taking inventory before and after the move, and before signing off on anything. Hopefully this will help. We’ll see. I on’t have it in me to take the movers to court if things dont go well, but I’ll do what I can to prevent anything bad from happening.

So, I’m feeling good, excited, sentimental. Life is good.

Nope.

Sounds like you have it all under control, and like an auspicious beginning!

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I am feeling sore all over, like I've been sat on by an elephant. I understand this can be one of the lingering symptoms from Covid though - hopefully it is temporary. It is supposed to be mostly sunny with a high of 56*F tomorrow, so I'm planning to walk outside with my rollator in the driveway. Hopefully, that will help me shrug off whatever this is.

OK what powers that be are annoyed with me? Yesterday I thought it would be nice to be a little warmer than 17 and mother nature was listening. Today it is changed and it is now 10. Consequently I need to watch who I am making requests from eh.