A longtime friend isn't doing well health-wise. She's been in and out of the hospital and been seeing specialists....so far, no answers.

A woman who is a member of an online group that I am in committed suicide. So sad.

my typically stoic stepfather....

he became very emotional when he described a very vivid dream he had about my late cousin....

I'm really enjoying my time off; however, I can't help but to have thoughts of someone very dear to me and whom I am missing a great deal. This time would have been even more special if we could have shared some of it.

finding my late dog Cricket's hair in my car.....still....after2 months without her....wow 2 months....

and

knowing at some point I wont find them at all any more.....and thats as close to touching her as I can get now.....

i am fortunate enough to have a supervisor that i admire and consider a mentor...she has been pre occupied for the past 19 months caring for her father who was battling pancreatic cancer...after working with her for almost 10 years and her brother for about a year...i see that it takes a special man to create this "family"...this is why it makes me very sad that their dad passed on tuesday...rip...the legacy of great fathers are seen in their children :)

Most holidays make me sad but the 4th is usually not one of them until this year. It saddened me bcs I am currently living with my bio-family and while we had dinner together, I had to cook after all, when it got dark enough for the fun part of the holiday I came out of my room to discover that everyone was gone. I think it bothered me the most bcs they didn't ask or tell me that they were going out to do a family thing which I would have understood. So of course today I had to torture myself all day with every 4th that my family celebrated without me for whatever reason when I was a lid and things like that mattered more than anything.

Another death in the family. Another road trip home...Another season of mourning...this one hurts like hell.

I am so sorry LoyalWolfsBlade. That was hurtful and they should be ashamed of themselves.

My ex-girlfriend broke up with me today. She said I was too emotional to be the 'man' in a relationship....

It is a shame
 

It isn't often that you can find a partner who can express emotions. I am sorry that this wonderful trait was used against you.

Sounds like someone didn't realize how hard it is to come by a great trait. Wearing your heart on your sleeve isn't gender specific.

Having to pack and drive home for the funeral. Alone.

I can do it.

I'm just not motivated enough right now to get it done. I usually love the drive...

my friend who only had a few months to live...then a few weeks....passed this morning

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Two little brothers from a foster home - one 2, the other 5. Watching them eat as much food as they can get, as fast as they can get it, everyday at school. Hearing the other teachers comment on how much weight the 2-year-old has lost. Listening to the 2-year-old tell me, "Mommy is in jail all day." Finding out that when the little brother gets in trouble, the older brother says, "Now you're not going to get food." Wondering what all really goes on in these foster homes.

I had to say goodbye to my laptop. It has always been good to me. Never crashed, was a constant companion. Off warranty:readfineprint:

took it into bestbuy and the motherboard died. left it there for them to recycle. I have learned to put everything of importance these days on either dropbox or One Drive.

Finding out that my half sister's dad is in the hospital, has a slow bleed in his brain.

Missing my half sister, we have formed a good bond and I miss hanging out with her

My Dad would have been 74 today, hard to believe he has been gone 15 years.

Miss you Dad:rrose:

At our VA hospital. we have 36 foot flags. This morning I had to lower them to half mast. as I lowered the American Flag I thought about where and what i was doing that day. Hotel Sous Chef and stunned as we all were glued to the television in horror, as I lowered the Texas lone star flag. I thought how I missed my Hawaiian flag, but still honor my home now. God Bless America :vigil:

I miss my girl and her dog. I miss hearing her laugh, and I miss her companionship. I still carry her in my heart, but its pretty lonely in there.

This spot was run once after 9/11 by Budweiser, very touching
 

The way the story of the local 2 y/o missing since July is unfolding. It's starting to read like a page straight out of Casey Anthony's playbook.

So much sadness remembering 9/11...very emotional

The remains of a local 2 y/o boy missing since July were located today. From the beginning it didn't sound like there would be a favorable outcome, but being the optimist I am, I had hoped they would find him safely in the hands of someone that does what adults are supposed to do, protect children. I'm glad he's been found, but it breaks my heart to know that the one person that should have fiercely protected him seems to be involved. Lets hope his mother and whomever else is involved don't escape justice like Casey Anthony did.

RIP Colton :rrose:

For the last month I have been watching a man with alzheimers for a few hours a day while his wife worked. She came over this evening because he passed away in his sleep and she didn't know what to do.

God bless him and God bless her aching heart.

Rip Estevan

I miss a good friend and a great boss its hard to believe she been gone for over a week
.. and this has been a rough week.. . I lost a horse that was born 4 months before i was because someone else didn't listen or care. Why do ppl insist on thinking they know everything when they never even lived the life or went to school to know how to do the things that need to be done.

No one thing...
 

Just an underlying turquoise washed in a soft dove grey.

Coming to terms with the fact someone I care about never really liked me at all I guess. Feels that ways after 4 months of trying to get together and being supportive of her dealing with a psycho ex causing her problems and even some physical abuse. And me attempting to show her how much I care , always trying to cheer her up when she was down....for me to have one off week. One week where my old anxiety came back for a visit. Spurred on by stress and aggrivating my Ocd a bit for her to just drop me. Been two weeks since I heard anything. No goodbye no nothin. Like I never existed in her life at all.

And I come to the realization this isnt the first time. Ive been dropped a few in the same manner. I give everything and Im treated like nothing in the end. I also see that my inexperience is a huge turn off for everyone i try to have a relationship with...they hear it and just leave. Like i have no feelings at all.

When I try to explain why Im a 30 yr old virgin with no relationship experience due to severe social anxiety disorder /depression most of my 20s. They immediately judge me or discard me. . Thank God ive over come it for the most part and can date....if someone would ever give me a chance. I truely think Im cursed sometimes. Just like when you cant get a job due to no experience but cant get experience without getting a job.

Just tired of getting treated like i have no feelings or im some kind of monster.

Very sad. Wish I could travel to PA to be with my best friend. Just found out her sister died very unexpectedly. My heart hurts for her.

My sister was discharged from hospital after stroke on Saturday and had another event today and is back in hospital. This makes me sad. :(.

However, there are always more than one emotion floating around in me. I am feeling fortunate to have a person in my life who is there to listen and care.

Having just read on FB that a local high school football coach died of a massive heart attack this afternoon

Realizing how physically weak Daddy is.