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Hahahahahaha. Okay. Best laugh of the day so far. Love.
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A lot of good that does! :sunglass:
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Most of 'em, the one in Space was stupid... The Buzz is yummy... Anyways -cough- It's my Mothers birthday today{yay, Leos!!} , what to do, what do what to do....? I figured I'd give her a "whatever u want, I do, within reason" card.... besides silly balloons and pancakes with candles{cough} :sunglass: |
I am worried about my best friend and her unborn baby. This is the second time in two days that they have sent her to the hospital and this is the first time they have admitted her.
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thinking about the trip up to the cabin in the Smoky Mountains in 3 days...
on my mind is the hope that the time spent there renews faith, hoping it will be everything that I deserve it to be.... and that it fixes everything and brings my mind and spirit, and us..... back to good. :praying: and I hope that we get to spend the whole day at Ripley's Aquarium too! :cheesy: |
The doctor managing my weight loss programme suggested I see a counselor for weight related issues, etc. - something I resisted but finally agreed to a few months ago and I am glad I did.
She has been giving me writing assignments lately - she wants me to write down things I remember from the past and try to relate it to what is going on in my life right now. This isn't something I was looking forward to and in my own little rebellious way I wasn't really doing this...facing bad/ugly/negative/painful things is just something no one (especially me) wants to do. My way of handling things like this has been to push is back/down/aside and plod on. Unfortunately that strategy has done more harm than good over the years. The other day when I came in from work I was completely unsettled - from overload not from work stress. I sat down and did an hour of free writing. OMG, talk about word vomit! Have not gone back to read the 6 pages and will not for a while because I know the temptation to tear it out of the book and throw it away will be great. Still I am glad I did this because it opened part of me to something else. We all have our own special head trash - those negative thoughts/memories that suddenly appear for whatever reason during the day. Being no exception there are days I have way more of these moments than others. The old way of dealing with them has been the old push back/down/aside. Yesterday I decided to write them down as they waltzed through my brain. Am including the source/cause of the item too. Geez, some of that stuff sure is stupid, petty and minor. But they certainly have had their effect over the years. I gave them so much power over me...Perhaps by writing them down they will leave my brain - you know like in Harry Potter when they collect memories... or I will learn how to deal with them in a healthier way. It will be interesting to see what my counselor has to say about some of this stuff. Doubt any of it will be new to her. Don't have any conclusions about this - too soon - but it has been interesting. |
That it's Friday. That change is in the air. That as scary as it is, I'm also ready for it and the new challenges it will bring. That I used a lot of "that" in this post.
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Looking forward to this weekend with my family.
I've been feeling a bit off lately - - - the summer got off to a promising start (romantically and healthwise) but now it seems things have just gone totally south. My nephew got a job that he enjoys. The problem? I drive him to and from work each day - he works about 1/2 hour away. The drive is no problem - it is the getting up at 4:30 or 5am. I'm either dragging for the rest of the day or else I just crash and sleep the day away - - repeat for 6 days. OMG - I'd dead tired and I'm not even the one working! My job hunt has been put on hold. As have been my workouts. And I'm feeling very blah because of this. I'm trying not to get down on myself about it but it does bother me - - even though the scale shows no difference I feel the pounds trying to creep back on. I want to go to the Reunion!!! Financially things are tight. There is a slim chance I can go - but the waiting is so difficult. Romantically? I always laughed when a friend said he was bad boyfriend material - it sounded like an excuse of him to behave badly or just not try. I try.....but.....it seems that I am bad boyfriend material. *sigh* So I'm really looking forward to the family time this weekend. My sister and I will be hanging out with a brother and a SIL and some friends. I got to visit with some of them last weekend - - - but not long enough. This weekend will be a longer visit. Which is just what I think I need. I felt so better - - it seemed my energy was renewed and my mood was better. Maybe I'll be able go get some advice (or even a kick in the behind would be good at this point!) - - advice, insight, pity - - I don't know but being able to just talk and laugh and not worry about stuff for a couple days is very welcome at this point. |
i've done a lot of soul searching today
some good, some not so good.. but, it's all a moving forward process, and that in itself is a very good thing.. ♥ |
about where my life is going and how people I thought were my friends are not my friends, my family, money issues and so much more.
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How much I love pancakes
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As unimportant as it is...that I really need to go in for a hair cut. I keep putting it off, but now it's starting to rest weirdly/annoyingly on the back of my neck. In the summer, in this heat...niet goed :blink:
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Wondering what I was thinking...wait...is that a senior moment? Oh my goodness! Hot flashes and now this!:praying:
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a tiger.... and a key...
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not a fuckin thing
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I could well be the luckiest and most loved butch dyke on this side of the pond ...
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Old and Grouchy
After pulling four double shifts, with four more to go...what isnt on my mind.
I'm cranky and cant sleep...someone is racing..squealing tires and revving their engine somewhere in the neighborhood and now the cat is on a rip-roaring tear. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr:fastdraq: |
Not only does my sore throat feel better today,
but we have more pressure for hot water than we've had since we moved here Showers are much more enjoyable now :) |
On my mind is getting Myra and Ivan's big frog house cleaned, finishing the packing and getting a fresh :buzz cut:.
Tomorrow...... :flying: I'm going to be missing my :frog:'s. :( I should take them with. :| No, they'd get airsick. :( Better let them stay with Pop. :winky: ~Theo~ :bouquet: |
On my mind this morning are things I need to accomplish and how to find the time to do that.
OH, and tea. I've been thinking a lot about tea lately. |
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