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It's been 2 years and 8 months and I still want one.
It seems to be worse on vacation. Kind of like since we are doing something special we should be "allowed" to smoke. Since we are away and on vacation it shouldn't "count" or something. We should be given a reprieve from the addiction part of it/hell that will ensue if I pick up again, and just enjoy the cigarette, without consequence. So odd. Magical thinking. Anyway, it happened this past week when we were away at the beach. I said to tantalizing...."lets buy cigarettes!" (she quit when I did). Of course we didn't, but.... My point is, for me it never changes. If I could "get away with it" (meaning, if smoking didn't cause health problems"), I'd be the first in line! |
i have an addictive personality. cigarettes, i am totally addicted. it has been a month since i've had one. june 4th, quit date.
the very sad part is it took a heart attack to get me to quit. and a triple bypass (june 5th). i am only 45. but, i'm doing well. it's been hard. the depression. trying to forgive myself for the heart attack. my family history is heavy with heart disease, but smoking played a bigger part. i'll always want a cigarette, surely i will lol. but waking up in icu, ... all the pain, being on a ventilator, etc. ... i'll never smoke again. i'll never put another in my mouth. i won't go there. i hope all of you quit forever. i give you love and support. |
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HA! Way to go on not getting them...And even better, WAY TO GO ON THE HONESTY PART...smiles I so want one still that is no lie...Just is easier to say no. And I as well look at the health issues now. TIMES TO SHORT!. |
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I found out after I stopped that I have emphysima and copd...really is a kick in the ass when you are responsable for your damage huh. It has taken me months to forgive myself honestly. Not for me but what I have cheated my children and grandchildren out of. And possibly what I may be putting them through in years to come. I am still deciding if relationship ..for me..is going to be a true option...we shall see. It hurts me to think I may put someone else through rough times due to this. I so love the honesty on this thread...smiles |
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lady pamela, i understand exactly what you are feeling. thank you for the reply. i need to write all these feelings down, sort it all out. i just want to stay away from the pity pool. keep going forward. my niece and nephew, ... seeing me go through the surgery was emotionally difficult for them. i hope my living helps them. i'd like to say that i quit smoking for those that i love. but i don't think that i did. for now, i just remember the fear. thank you. |
5 months is wonderful news!
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Good for you LP!! I hope you are daily able to give yourself kudos for your accomplishment. It is no small feat to put that friggin pack down and leave it, (hopefully soaking in water....LOL) not just by determination...but by your WILL that carries your own personal reasons for quitting.......sometimes it is not an option to regress. Imagine the strength you invoke to maintain your choice. As well this applies to all of "the quitters" here.....continued success and to those who are still struggling to begin, never give up if it is what you desire. |
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And most definately I remind myself everyday many times a day...ha. |
I am 7%
Today I am celebrating my One year smoke free anniversary today. I am loving it! Freedom!!!!!!!!!!
I am 7% :happyjump: Statistics tell us that approximately 5 to 7 percent of those people who quit smoking without support are still smoke-free one year later. The key to changing those odds involves support. People who quit smoking with a strong support network around them improve their chances for long-term success considerably. http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:A...8envcx_400.jpg:cheerleader: |
Congrats Doll! :thumbsup:
I celebrated 1.5 years on June 5th! I quit without support, as in cold turkey. |
...I do not want to smoke, I do not want to smoke, I do not want to smoke...
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I just had a QuitNet Anniversary email pop up!
It has been exactly one year since I quit forever! :) I'm so proud of me. I started quitting in 2006...usually at the prompting of someone else...and even though I would quit with the best intentions, subconsciously I knew it wasn't forever. Last spring I went to my doctor to start a course of anti-depressants for the first time, I finally admitted I couldn't pull myself up and out of it on my own this time. It was the best thing I could have done for myself. It took awhile to find the right medication but when I did so much fell in to place, I had the energy and the desire to get up and out and do things. And I had the personal, internal motivation to start making more changes in my life. I decided to start the C25k running program and I decided to start quitting -for good, for me. The two activities went nicely together because as it happens: I can't smoke AND run. After nearly 2-decades of smoking it was physically impossible for me to carry on smoking and have the lung capacity needed to run for more than a minute. Coincidentally the medication I ended up taking for depression, Welbutrin, has also had clinical success helping with smoking cessation. It was a perfect storm, in a great way. And I am so happy for having quit. And I know this time it is forever. |
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Can't wait till I have atleast that under my belt. That is soooo awesome...keep it up!!! |
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I am so excited for you. Congrats!!! |
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I am excited to get to that point. Still amazed it was even possible to stop at all..ya know? smiles Anyways, keep it up! |
I won't be back from work untill way late tomorrow and leave at 5 am,
so I had to post tonight... I AM OFFICIALLY 1/2 A YEAR...OR...6 MONTHS...OR ..182 DAYS.. SMOKE FREE TODAY!!!! WAHOO!!!!! Keep up the good work everyone!! What an amazing feeling. http://www.treasurenet.com/forums/at...s-butthead.jpg |
Besides my last post...
I also wanted to thank every one of you who have been here for me to help me. Some days I have endured, this thread truely helped and kept me from smoking. Thank you so much!!! 6 MONTHS..HOLY CRAP...CHEESY GRIN!!! |
how wonderful for you !
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For me to say great job is not quite enough LP.......I am proud of you ! And very much so proud of all the quitters in this thread ! It ain't easy fo' sure. But it is a wonderful thing ! :) |
My smoking story...smoked for 25 years...quit in Feb of 2009 by choice. Had a heart attack June, 2009. Remained smoke free until October of 2010. Worst relationship break up of my life up to that point. Drove right to the gas station, bought smokes. Lousy excuse....here I sit...puffing away....quit for 3 days last week, was a wreck...tears...thoughts of feeling like I lost something...bought "just a pack for the weekend"...yea right...why can't I find the place in my mind where I know it's what I HAVE to do...and be ok with it....the expense is outrageous...$19.16 for 2 packs...I AM crazy...I must stop...have tried all the "helpers" nothing has worked so far...sigh...please.... I need to be strong, mind over matter...willpower...blah. Absolutely THE biggest struggle of my life right now....help.
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3 months!
I hit the three month mark. I still want them on stressful days.
Don't put too much pressure on yourself. Just try. To err is human. |
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Three months is hugeeee!!! Congrats to you!! I will say this, when you want a smoke..come read this thread, talk to someone, detour yourself for a minute. Remember a niccotine fit only lasts 5 minutes in whole. Unless you have them back to back. Find something constructive to do for that 5 minutes and your mind will change. Also it charges you and makes you so much stronger for the next one....smiles Keep up the great work! So proud of you!! . |
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I smoked since I was a young teen and my story very much the same. I tried often to quit but honestly, did it in a much more non robotic method this time. I also stopped kicking my own ass...that helped incredibly! I quit using several methods together..Also some thought I was a whimp..for taking so long to finally commit. It was the only way my mind would allow me to concieve never smoking. Whimp or not, the results are in the final outcome..right? I would be happy to share my tricks if you would like. Also I suggest reading this thread from front to back. It truely may have great suggestions in it you might choose to use. Let me know in a pm if I can assist. . |
I may be late, but all things in life are possible... For those of you who have read my story, or those of you who knew my heavy smoking habit, this is my Celebration of life...
http://rlv.zcache.com/celebrate_life...2envb3_400.jpg *And it is a stepping stone for me. *It has been one year and 6 days. *It has become much easier. *Yes I still have cravings, but water or a snack has tamed the beast. *I don't blame stress as my crutch anymore. *I blame my own loss of control if it becomes out of control. *I deal with my actions one at a time now. *I don't point at others and shoot blame. *I feel more responsible and in control! *Yes, I did gain weight after quitting... BUT... I also lost it with learning how to ease my down time at the gym in stead. *I learned to do things I love to do, and not wait for any excuse to run outside and light up. *I can go outside and sit with my smoking friends and still laugh, joke and shop talk without smoking. *All the money I spent on cigarettes are now used to buy CD's or clothes that I realize I deserve after all, it's a celebration.... **I wish everyone the freedom of choice, and I need not judge or criticize. For I once was, once did, and have made my own choices in life. Good luck everyone! Learn to breath in the beauty all around you... |
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Keep it going for sure. It is amazing all that you find just from putting down the smokes huh?..lol I myself am learning to do everything new and fresh..it is bazzar but awesome to me. BTW, very well written . Keep it up everyone!!! It is way worth it!...smiles |
Only had 2 cigarettes today....pretty good day for me! Baby steps!
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I needed to make sure all was consistant..and for me it worked. Less is an achievment all in itself. Thats awesome! Keep it up! |
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You as well as others have cheered me on through it all..And I am very thankful for realzzz! Sometimes it helps to have others to show up for. Or that recognize . Or simply to tell. Call me needy or emotional..but it all works for me..ha! Thanks again! |
Day seven...
and I'm a hot, twitchy mess! I didn't intend on quitting but a week ago I came back from vacation and decided not to smoke anymore. Just like that. I've managed to go seven days without the first craving and today I'm a wreck!! Actually the irritability started last night, I just didn't recognize what it was. My poor honey. He caught pure hell!
I've smoked a pack a day (give or take) for the past 10 plus years. I've been wanting to quit for some time but just haven't been serious about it. After a short visit to GA, where Camel menthol is only $3.96 per pack, I cannot bring myself to pay $9.87 per pack here in NY! Fuckers!! Oops...there's the cranky again! So for health and financial reasons, I am gonna take a stab at it!! Wish me luck and thanks for reading. Also, thanks for sharing your stories. It helps to read about your struggles/successes as well! |
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I suggest reading the thread for tips..And remember..many of us are here to help if you need any pep talks or an ear..smiles |
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Keep the faith those of you who are giving it a go. If you lapse just carry right on and don't give up giving up. LP, you've done brilliantly making it to half a year. A whole half a year!!! Go you! :cheerleader: :cheerleader: Think it's 2 and half-ish years since I gave up tobacco and it 6 and half months since I gave up the other thing that was killing me. |
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And as for your small green print..ha CONGATS TO ALL OF IT! Keep it up. . |
AS OF THE 4TH I AM http://www.melodic.net/img/cover/img2/7months.jpg SMOKE FREE! I have stopped myself of smoking 7,840 smokes to date. I have stopped myself from smoking 392 packs of smokes Still blows my mind. smiles . |
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:clap: AWESOME!!!!!!!!! :clap: |
21 days!
They say it takes 21 days to break a habit so I'm hoping "they" are right! Feels like it anyway. I'm not twitchy anymore although I have moments where I feel like I want a smoke but it passes. I have avoided alcohol (until Sunday) knowing that would trigger me wanting to smoke. I had a margarita Sunday evening and I was amazed that I didn't have the first craving. I'm sure if I'd kept drinking I would've caved though.
Anyway, thanks for letting me share! Congrats to you LP!!!! Sounds like you got this!! Keep it up!!!!! :) |
Congrats Lady Pamela! That is awesome!
Great job funkyfemme! Keep it going! There will always be times that you have cravings...just wait it out and they will pass. Good job being conscious of how having that second drink may have brought up cravings (and maybe made you more vulnerable to giving in). Thinking ahead will serve you well in this battle. Great job! |
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Keep it up! As for the 21 days in my own opinion, I think it is a personal journey and has no time frame. Just the fact that you are 21 days clean is amazing and should be credited. Ya know what I mean...smiles As for myself, I work very hard at staying in the moment with any addiction. Over confidence has lead to relapse in my past. And that simply is not an option for me anymore. So I stay in the here and now, hopeful for tomorrow's And celebrate the me I am becoming...Make sence? For all of you on this ride, Stay strong today. Know you are not alone. And check in often...smiles |
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And good advice as well. Have a wonderful day. And thanks for showing up for others on this ride. . |
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Thank you so much and yeah, totally makes sense!! I so hear ya on staying in the moment. I don't want to get overly confident either cause I've been there, done that and failed miserably! I really don't like counting the days but then I do. I'm just being careful, present and ENJOYING not smoking. I'm also constantly thinking about situations that may cause me to smoke and staying one step ahead. I wonder when that will cease. Eh, I'm just gonna keep working this and stay strong. I'm glad this space is here and it's good to know I'm not alone in this. :) |
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And this thread actually helped me to stay honest to myself. Ha! I plan and prepare so that smoking people do not effect me as much. In time that grows easier but I can not say that it goes away altogether. I used to use other stuff and though it is very few and far between, some remnants of that creep in on a whim..You just have to breathe, exhale and walk on with your chin held high. . |
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