Her name was J*****, I loved the way she smelled and the curve of neck. I was in middle school I think.

Thinking about this, I don't know how I ever though I was straight!

My first big-girl crush, hmm... I had to be 17. We were really good friends and were in Jobs Daughters together. We had sex a few times, her name was P.
Lord I even remember her last name. Then we both got married, we didn't have sex any more but still remained best friends. Her husband talked her into joining Hari Krishna. When I came out she would not talk to me any more because it was against Krishna. It broke my heart.

Damn!

I feel I've led a very sheltered life... :confused:

It's hard to tell which came first, but I remember being in Junior kindergarten (cause school was half days as opposed to Senior kindergarten) and my father leaving me with a babysitter who was a teenaged girl our family knew well from across the street. My grandmother usually took care of me, but she was out. Anyways, I remember being really nervous about being babysat by this girl, cause I had a crush on her and didn't want it to show. I was about 4 or 5 at the time.

There was also this girl in the schoolyard in grade 2 (I guess I was 6 or 7) who's name I never knew because I never slowed down enough for her to catch me, lol. There was this game all the girls at school used to play where they would chase the boys, haul them to the ground and kiss them, at which point the boys would die of embarrassment and "coodies." Anyways, this girl would always chase me every day at recess and she was definitely one of my first crushes. I sometimes wonder what happened to her.

And of course random tv characters. Somewhere around the same time (5) I had a crush on the character who played Susan in the BBC version of The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. I also remember wanting to alternatively be Edmund and Peter...so in retrospect that's a little odd since Susan was their sister :| Anyways, I also remember crushing on Felicity from Road to Avonlea (fellow Canadians, I hear you mocking me! But you will never shame me into not liking that show! lol)...though I still totally crush on Sarah Polley (Sarah Stanley in the show) :D I guess you can call it a life-long thing, lol. I was a little kid, she was a little kid. She's grown up, I'm grown up. And she's still hot as hell :p

http://www.dontcomeknocking.com/deut...h%20Polley.jpg

3rd grade, ... i cut my hair, started wearing the clothes i wanted to wear, (cut off jeans, ball jerseys of any kind, ect.)
and wanted to play with no one but the boys.
those girls just didn't know how to play rough and dirty lol.

then 4th grade, i had my first girl crush and woman crush.

the girl, we shared the summer under a weeping willow tree. and when elvis died,
i was right their with her. she cried and cried. her mom didn't like
me. mom said that i had no discipline from home. mom knew lol. she moved away
the next school year. i was devastated. i remember she came to say goodbye.
i was in the backyard playing. i couldn't look at her. i was so heartbroken. i didn't tell her bye. i regret that.

the woman was a 4th grade teacher. i loved how she cared. that caring that belongs to only a woman.

For the record - I believe 3 engagements and one marriage prove you went on a guy dating frenzy after that :) lol So score one for the best friend ;) (that being me of course)

I have no idea who my first crush was - I do know a cute perky femme named kim was the first person I messed around with - and I was about 10 or 11 at that point. But I didn't put it together then. It was just something we did - I enjoyed it. I didn't have a thought "Oh I like girls" at that point. just "I like kim and would like her all to myself thank you". We were pretty inseparable for the couple of years I lived in her neighborhood. We even had a bit of a love triangle thing going on with another butch down the street fighting for her attention as well. Yeah even at 10 she had two butches wrapped around her fingers. We pretty much did what kim wanted to do - and were into and out of friendship with each other because of it. Funny - kim is now married with kids. We reconnected via FB a couple of years back - and it's still very odd to see her name active. I wonder how she feels seeing me active on FB - knowing what we did... what we shared.

My older brother actually dated Annette back in the mid 60s.

I attended a Catholic grade school, and there was this young nun named Sister M., you could see red hair peeking out of her habit, and she used to come up to the neighborhood I lived in and play basketball out in the alley with all of the kids from the block. I had NO idea why I was so drawn to her, but I thought she was amazing.
Of course I had all the usual tv crushes, Wonder Woman, Audrey Hepburn, all of them.
Got married at 16 mostly to get the hell outta the house of horrors I lived in, but always had these thoughts (never felt I could act on them).

In 1994, I had moved to FL and had gotten a job with this ins company. There was a butch woman who worked there as a clerk, and I found her reading a BDSM novel during break. SWOON! She came up behind me one day, and had one of those heavy thick rubber bands on her wrist, which she SNAPPED in my ear from behind me~! She did it just to see me jump! OMG, I almost came right then and there! LOL We never did anything, and in a drunken night of sharing stories together, i admitted my crush to her. We both decided that keeping our friendship was more important.

Years ago, when I was still married, my ex knew I was really attracted to butch women, and I remember sitting at a munch with him at the mall, and him pointing out butch women for me to look at! HA! Little did he know that I would eventually find one for me, and leave him when I came out.

Damsels
 

Don't give:bunchflowers: up on the damsels, there are some of us, who DO NOT, play hurtful mind games.

MY goodness, what a beautiful innocent love.

I was 15 and it was a friend of mine. I really, really liked her she was pretty and feminine and smart. I eventually got up the courage to tell her. She being the nice friend she was laughed in my face, most embarrassing experience of my life.

After I sort of got over her (about two months later, aren't teenagers resilent?) there was another girl she was much different from the first one, she always wore a hoodie and jeans and her one hat that she always wore backwards (I have a weird women wearing hats fetish type thing) and she was just as smart but much sweeter.She had short blonde hair that she always had styled nicely with this great smelling gel, and amazingly beautiful blue eyes and a wonderful smile. She's actually the reason I failed my biology class, I was too busy staring at her to focus on my work haha. I didn't tell her though, I was too nervous after the first girl. That and she had a girlfriend, who I also had a crush on.

Ever since the first girl laughing at me when I admitted my feelings to her I haven't been able to approach anyone since. That was nearly 7 years ago. I got over her but not the embarrassment of being laughed at like that. Especially since she decided it was a good idea to go around and share it with all of her friends inculding the girl she had a crush on.

Her name was C*******. I was 11, she was 16. Her dad's garage was filled with every mechanical tool ever invented. When I would pass by and the garage door was open, she could be found there tinkering on something, so I would walk up (or ride up on the bike) to see what she was doing. She had the prettiest smile ever, though she did not give them away unless she was truly pleased. We moved away the summer I had discovered her existence.

I might have really had a crush on the garage. But I never forgot her or her smile.

My 1st grade teacher, Mrs H*******. She had huge brown eyes and a Dorothy Hamill haircut and she was covered in freckles. I remember clearly one time she bent forward to show me something on the paper I was working on and her dress fell forward and I saw her body all the way to the floor and every bit of skin I could see was freckled. I was mesmerized.

Then my first real pining unto death crush was in the 6th grade, R******. She looked like a young Katherine Hepburn (for whom I held a burning passion).

I hung out with a pack of guys and we all had a crush on R******, sometimes we could get her to come roust about with us but usually she was off reading about feminism or listening to the Beatles. She was so smart and to my farmland Indiana view, exotic and worldly (well, as much as one can be in the 6th grade).

I prolly shouldnt tell this story :|

I was maybe 6 or 7 and the lil girl next door, I had a lil thing for her,one day she wanted to spend the night,well in bed she wanted me to grind on her.. so I did :D

no thats not the first the first was a babysitter I was like 3 or 4, she had long brown hair to her ass, and she would get on the swings and I would watch her hair sweep across the sand.. DAYUMM! yeah she was fine!

lets see I had a crush on my moms best friend and when I was around 16 she kissed kissed me ;)

I think I knew I was different all the way back to my classmate J****** in first grade, but my first oh-my-god-knock-me-out-of-the-park crush was on my friend, K******, starting at the latter part of ninth grade when she walked into Mr. Hess's math class. I took up trumpet in high school just so I could be one of two female trumpet players in marching band (guess who was the other?). We volunteered together at the hospital. We went to the same college, until I dropped out. So that's a lot of years of crushing! I had boyfriends now and then, but nothing even came close to Kathy.

She never knew-I didn't know, myself. I felt pressured to "find a guy", and I would have given anything to transfer those feelings to a guy, but it never happened. I know where she is now, but we've lost touch.