Death is inevitable huh.I change one or two things in my past posts and that is I will probably live past age 55 and one day when I eventually get old and can no longer live the life I wish I will go into the mountains and lay my tired body down and become some wild bears lunch,dinner or whatever. I'm hoping though that before some wild beast devours me I will be dead and stiff from exposure..gawd let's hope.

lol NOT so tuff stuff I mean this endearingly ~ You can't make this call ~ it's not in your hands ~ I agree w/ death assisted ending to life ~ my opinion in suicide is selfish and cowardly. C'est la Vie :byebye:

The major thing that I want frommy life is to have made a difference. Big or small just having made the world a bit of a better place.

I think this is why I decided to pursue my PhD. I can teach and touch the lives of many people in small and large ways.

Silly of me I suppose and a bit unrealistic in the grand scheme of things but it is my wish.

As for dying, well I am at time curious as to what it would be like to end the pain I live in each day. I have multiple chronic illnesses that cause me to struggle immensely with day-to-day activities. Some days it is hard for me to do the simplest things but I keep pushing because as of right now I still have a goal I have not met.

I was once told I would never graduate college, so my being a stubborn bitch decided oh hey let me get my PhD and show that even people who come from poverty and have multiple illnesses can do what they have been told they cannot.

All things aside, I fight for a world where being a submissive femme lesbian is not something that will brand me as "target" for those who think all i need is the right man.....

shared probably too much here but eh, take it as it is.