My answers to 40 Questions....
 

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Have ‘Me’ time.
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How am I going to get where I want to go in my life?
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
health, happiness, love, money, fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
What I want most right now it to have my health back and the ability to walk pain-free.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Busy.
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
The knowledge that if my goals take too long my parents will not see it happen.
7. In one sentence, who are you?
Wow! One sentence…I am the authentic, eclectic, original Me! How is that? LOL!
8. What do you want to be known for?
My compassion, intelligence, and the ability to overcome adversities in my life while staying happy.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
The wilderness area where we lived when I grew up.
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Hopefully, I will have shed quite a few pounds, be walking again, and be employed by the State of Pennsylvania.
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
I personally believe that is MY job not others.
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Integrity, Respect, and Open Communication.
13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Fear of failure has stopped me from returning to work now.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To find some way to pay back my parents for adopting me given the fact that my life could have turned out so much differently than the life they afforded me.
15. What stands between you and what you want?
My physical limitations right now stands between me and what I want.
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
When I get down and nothing seems to lift me up I have responded in different ways. Sometimes I sit in pity and cry, sometimes I pray, sometimes I busy myself to not think about it, sometimes I try to involve myself with others so that I can do something more positive with that energy.
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
I first realized life was short when my ex of 13 years passed away in 2007 from a heart attack. She was just 46 years old and our children at the time were 19, 22, and 24.
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Exercise is what I really need to spend more time doing if I am honest about it.
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Wow! Not sure. A year ago I could have said my health because I was smoking and was not eating well. However, now I have quite smoking and am trying to be more conscious of what I ingest so I am not sure how to answer this question. I have slowly been confronting the issues that I have and trying to get better.
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
It really upsets me that people feel the need to lie, steal, and deliberately hurt others.
21. What’s a common misconception people have about you?
A common misconception that people have about me is that I do not let go of the past. I really disagree with that because our past is who shapes us into the persons we are today. There is a big difference from living in the past and recognizing how that causes our actions and reactions of today. I AM however very totally self-aware.
22. What’s something no one can take away from you?
My thoughts, beliefs, feelings and education are all things nobody can take away from me.
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
This may sound very immature of me, but at this juncture of my life and having had my parents for so many years I would hate to go a day without them in my life. My father is now 93 and mother will be 88 in October. I have been very blessed but to be honest they are very important to me.
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Ugh. Close your ears I am sure you will be shocked if you hear this. I miss school. LOL!
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
My graduation and passing the national licensure to be a rehabilitation counselor has been my best accomplishment in the past year.
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Weight loss is the biggest change I need to make in my life over the next year.
27. If not now, then when?
There will not be a when if it is not done now.
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Quit smoking and earned my master’s degree and national licensure definitely makes me proud of my accomplishments.
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I can truly overcome all obstacles and be the best Me I can be.
30. What do you want to remember forever?
Love and to be loved and to remember how that felt.
31. What could society do without?
I honestly think technology has been society’s biggest downfall because it has led people to lose a sense of community. People truly don’t give a damn about others anymore….that is said rather loose tongue in cheek because I know some people do but the overall lack of community sucks.
32. What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of?
I am absolutely sure that despite what happens in my world the new day will always come.
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Be the change you wish to see in the world and live the dream you wish for your life even if you only make one step toward it each day.
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
I always said I would not cheat on a partner and I did. That is not something I am proud of and it was definitely a learning experience since she died before I had a chance to make amends.
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
I definitely changed my mind when I grew older about material possessions and their worth. At a younger age those things meant everything to me. Today they mean nothing because they are just things.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Past relationships regardless of how they ended. They were all worth it because at one time it was what I valued and wanted. In the end they became learning experiences who shaped who I am today.
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
For some reason this question makes me think of the song Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd. But what I would say is live life without worry. Just do your best and move forward.
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I would tell those who meant the most to me that I loved them and ask them to please allow themselves to be happy with their remaining time.
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I would hope I have done more, but I feel like it will be I have said more.
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Do I let those who are closest to me know on a daily basis how much they mean to me? Will the obstacles to my vision of my success ever stop?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
not take blood sugar meds
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
School
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
happiness, health, love, money, fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Taking in RT.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Busy.
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
the desire to be of service in the helping/healing fields
7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am undaunted, genuine, and passionate in all things
8. What do you want to be known for?That through touching a life with love and support that person went on to fulfill their potential as a human being.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
my neighbors
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I will be knee deep in grad school
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
doing what I ought to because I want to
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Integrity, Respect, and Open Communication.
13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
nothing.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
to be myself and be happy with that
15. What stands between you and what you want?
nothing
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
help another person
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
maybe later
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
studying for my CAADE exam
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
my pprocrastination
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
judge hypocritically or from their own ideas of what is right for them must be right for everyone
21. What’s a common misconception people have about you?
I am not sure I dont pay much attention to tohers opinions of me-since mine opinion of me is the one that matters.
22. What’s something no one can take away from you?
my perseverence
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
my dog
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
working in construction
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
all the laughter
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
getting back into the workforce once I finish this semester
27. If not now, then when?
the next NOW
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
grown into a good person without being cruel to anyone in the process in when I hurt and wanting to make someone else hurt
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
no matter how much you like something sometimes there can be too much
30. What do you want to remember forever?
that there is no lack or limitations in life unless we makes them ourselves
31. What could society do without?
greed, hate, biases, judgement calls, pigeon holing
32. What is one thing right now that you are totally sure of?
I will succeed
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
If you want to change the world start with yourself and be the example, be authentic whether anyone agrees with it or not BE Yourself
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Gone back to school
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
the ever-changing dynamic between my needs and wants.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
every moment of every day
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Stop trying so hard to be someone your not
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
"thank you mother father g-d for all you've taken and all you've left behind and each breathe therein"
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I sure not
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Do you have to think so much about everything?
Can you focus for a second?
What did I come into this room for?
Do you have to be so impulsive?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Smile

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
Family issues



3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health, Happiness, Love

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Want?? To see a special little kids smile

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Learning

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
My willpower

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A good decent person
8. What do you want to be known for?
Being caring and compassionate with a dash of corniness added

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?My daughter & grandkids friends & the ocean

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
To have a job I LOVE and off of SSDI

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My family and few close friends and the mirror

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty, compassion, trustworthiness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Singing and playing guitar in front of a crowd

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Acceptance from the mother

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Not a damn thing

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Turn up the music loud, Play guitar or WALK til I cannot walk anymore

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
After my own trail of tears

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Studying,meditating

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
I don't.I am a not a runner. Eventually You just tire out.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Procrastinate and complain about how miserable their lives are.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That I am bossy. I just don't like wasting time.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
How affectionate I am & how big my personality is

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
The days I grew up as a misspent youth in Germany

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Park time with the grandson

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
100% INDEPENDENCE

27. If not now, then when?
It will happen

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Survived stage 3 breast cancer and it's after effects (Physically & emotionally)

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I am a pretty cool person to chill with. lol

30. What do you want to remember forever?
How to have a good heart

31. What could society do without?
GREED

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That it could be worse. SOMEONE does have it worse that you.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Law of attraction is real, Karma is real.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Became my mother & father

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
We can't help who we fall in love with

36. What didn't last forever, but was still worth your while?
An ex girlfriend who came in like a tornado. ( If you have ever seen the destruction one can cause you also have seen how breath taking the skies are after one too) And eventually you move or rebuild. I did both.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
School is cool lol

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I was in that situation and my last words were take care of my family and friends.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?
won't we all?

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
I stopped asking myself questions. Just go with the flow now. Too much wasted time already. Now I live in the moment.

1) What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

I am better at recalibrating my aptitudes and attitudes on a daily basis.

2) What's been on your mind most lately?

The importance of being in the present moment and enjoying life as fully as possible.

3) In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? Health, happiness, love, money.

Health, Love, Happiness, Money, followed by zero concern for wanting or needing fame of any kind (I can live without that type of recognition).

4) Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To know where I put my favorite suntan oil, since I can't find it anywhere
(I've turned my house upside down trying to find it this afternoon).:blush:

5) What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

70% (Balance) 30% (Sheer craziness)

6) What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

I think it's a combination of three things: Music, Art, Nature
(no one thing is responsible for my being motivated other than me)

7) In one sentence, who are you?

A very resourceful woman.

8) What do you want to be known for?

That people in my life would remember me for the resilient soul that I am and that I could do most anything I put my mind to, no matter the situation.

9) If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

The natural beauty of where I have lived for the past 20+ years: The trees, the rivers, the mountains, the basalt lined Columbia Gorge, the waterfalls or natural hot springs, the coastline of the Pacific Northwest, the climate - pearly gray skyscapes or intermittent days of dazzling sunshine, the eclectic community within the greater area of where I currently live.

10) In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

The one thing I have learned over time is that even with the best laid plans, there's the possibility that life a year from now could be as good or even better; but certainly and hopefully, no worse than today.

11) Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Me: I actively take care of myself (I value myself entirely).

12) What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Kindheartedness, a compassion-based perspective, sensitivity

13) What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

Fear of failure has never been a driving force in my life - I'm not afraid of failure or failing anything I put my mind to. I don't think much of anything stops me from developing my own brand of success (if that's what we're talking about).

14) What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

I think it's important to let my own inner child out to play on a consistent basis because even as a child, I was filled with wonder, curiosity -- I lived for 'show and tell' moments in life, as a child. :)

15) What stands between you and what you want?

:blush:

16) What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

I play the 'happy' game and do something that makes me happy.

17) When did you first realize that life is short?

This might seem strange to most, but I feel that I've always had an inner knowing about life never being long enough or filled with enough time to do things in life and consequently, as I've aged, I tend to sense timing issues much more intensely - than say, compared to, maybe five years ago.

18) What do you need to spend more time doing?

:blush:

19) What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

n/a

20) What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

n/a

21) What’s a common misconception people have about you?

That I'm talented at cocktail parties.

22) What’s something no one can take away from you?

The way I feel about myself.

23) What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Water (as well as love and tenderness).

24) When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

n/a

25) What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

The random growth spurts of my youngest son's intellectual acuity
(he's grown so much over the past year).

26) What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

The ability to go down to the beach more often than I usually go.

27) If not now, then when?

As soon as it's possible...

28) What have you done that you are truly proud of?

Earning a bachelors and masters degree in just under 7 years,
and not letting anything stop me from doing it. Even if I never
am able to pay off all my loans before I die, I'm glad I earned my
formal education (best therapy ever, even if it was expensive).:blush:

29) What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

I never used to give much attention to my spontaneous side because I've always felt like I was spontaneous. But lately, I've learned that I'm not quite as willing to be as spontaneous as I used to be (which I feel is positive - I have a healthy regard for me).

30) What do you want to remember forever?

I'll get back to you on that. :blush:

31) What could society do without?

I should think that humans could use a bit more love and understanding.

32) What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

It's absolutely gorgeous here today - ton's of sunshine and it's not too hot or too cold and the birdsong is absolutely mesmerizing (it's the only thing I've listened to, today).:blush:

33) If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

My feeling is that if I spend as much energy as possible in taking care of me and living life as responsibly as possible, then living by example is probably going to be the best heard message than anything I could ever say.

34) What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

n/a

35) What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

Marriage. I used to think that marriage mattered and it does to a degree (although that's a small degree). What's changed for me, concerning marriage, is that I don't think of marriage as something necessary to the health and wealth of a thriving relationship of romantic means. I'm not fond of the concept or idea of marriage as marriage is currently understood in terms of present day social and cultural practices.

36) What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

The benefit of sitting by the beach on the ocean and watching for whales or other sentient beings. The good feelings I carry away from an outing on the beach always seems to be worth while.

37) If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

n/a

38) If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

If no one is with me in that particular moment, it won't matter what I say. But if someone I love is with me, I'd ask them to watch over my boys and always be there for them, no matter what.

39) When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

I try to live as balanced as possible; even when it's a terribly unpredictable process - the art of living a good life.

40) What questions do you often ask yourself?

The one thing I try to always keep in mind is the idea expressed by Bertrand Russell: to always 'hang a question mark' on things in life that need a bit of extra care or careful thought given to complicated ideas.

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
ha! run

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
forgiveness, new beginnings, sanity

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
happiness, love, health, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
my heart's desire

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
stressed

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
eh, I don't have a whole lot of motivation right now. I'm simply going thru the motions and trying to survive.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am me...no more, no less.

8. What do you want to be known for?
Nothing. I'm ok with being the forgotten one.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Not a damn thing.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I don't even know what next week will bring, so I have no clue about next year.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Only I can do that.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Comparable level of (in)sanity, good sense of humor, non-judgmental

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
What HASN'T it stopped me from....

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
I really have no idea.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
I am my own worst enemy

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Depends

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
My last suicide attempt

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Staying awake.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Some emotional ones that I would prefer remain buried

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
drugs

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
There are plenty.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My deeper self

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
I miss a certain couple years and a certain person

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
um........I can't think of anything particularly memorable in that department. I'm sure I smiled a hella lot, but nothing stands out.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
I need to get some emotional shit under control

27. If not now, then when?
The sooner the better. I almost didn't live thru the last go round

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
I'm proud of my son

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I actually like exercising lol

30. What do you want to remember forever?
my son

31. What could society do without?
violence and crooked politician

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
I'm tired as hell. That I'm sure of.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Chill the fuck out. Be calm. Be peaceful.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Run

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
A lot of things

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
certain love

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Don't be dumb

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
Gosh I don't know

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Probably, since I talk all the damn time

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Some really fucked up ones

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
20 pushups

2. What's been on your mind most lately? The future.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
· Happiness
· Health
· Love
· Money
· Fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? I want those of us in the LGBTQ communities to feel safe and validated by society at large.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Amazed.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? Her heart.

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am me.

8. What do you want to be known for? Caring, a good friend, someone to make you laugh, and a good dad.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? Green Chili

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I am not sure, but I look forward to finding out.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? Myself.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? communication, laughter, honest

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? A lot of things, but lately, passing an exam.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? A mom who liked me.


15. What stands between you and what you want? An exam.


16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Research stuff I'm interested in.

17. When did you first realize that life is short? I can't recall.


18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Healing

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? my mom.

20. What is something a lot of people do that you disagree with? Waste.

21. What is a common misconception people have about you? That I'm a brut.

22. What is something no one can take away from you? My feelings, beliefs, ethics, and my God.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? my dogs and my wife's smiles.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? lost friendships.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? Changes.


26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Lose weight.

27. If not now, then when? Sooner or later

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? being me.


29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? That I am more capable than I often gave myself credit for.

30. What do you want to remember forever? laughter.

31. What could society do without? fear and hatred.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? love.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? We are all equal.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? transition.


35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? growing up.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? friendships.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Listen more, talk less.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? I'm thankful that our stars met.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Yep.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? A lot.

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Be Happy

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
My Lady

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? Money,health,happiness,fame,love

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
8 hours of sleep

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? New

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
My watch

7. In one sentence, who are you?
I'm somebody

8. What do you want to be known for?
My Morals

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Nothing

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Let's hope I live that long

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Me

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty,Confidence,Sense of humor

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
I don't fear failure

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To remain a kid

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Money

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Hit the highway

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When i lost my first pet

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Exercising,its true

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
My health,eating healthy

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Judge

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That i don't know what i'm doing,or want in my life

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
It's nothing material

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Coffee

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
My childhood

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Waking up from a bad dream

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Detachment from some people

27. If not now, then when?
I had a bad habit of thinking people will change,no more

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Evolved

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
That I can take an insult and not want to hurt that person

30. What do you want to remember forever?
My first everything

31. What could society do without?
Trying to control other cultures,their religions and the way they want to live

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
What I want in my last years of life

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
No,i'm not going there

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Went back to that place

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?


36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
My last vacation

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Keep your mouth shut and your eyes open and not the other way around

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? DAMN!

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Probably

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Why

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

Play a native American flute and speak a few words of Spanish.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Endings, ending my course, my job, a whole load of endings.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Love, happiness, health, money, fame.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To find somewhere to live, ideally exactly like the cottage I'm in now, just 50 miles north of here.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Passionately loving someone who couldn't see me properly.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Gaining my PhD.

7. In one sentence, who are you?

This is too hard...one sentence??...come on...!!

8. What do you want to be known for?

Allowing people to know me and getting to know them.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

My family and friends.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I'll be in a different job, living in a different place, so many changes I can hardly think of them all. *gulp*

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Yesterday it was my good friends Kate and Jo, my work pals June and Sandra, my supervisor Moira.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Some quirky strangeness, shared interests, integrity.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

Travelling.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

To have my dad back in my life.

15. What stands between you and what you want?

Nothing, I've got it.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

I play loud music and jump around.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

Working in a hospice 7-8 years ago, meeting so many people at the end of their lives.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Daydreaming, gardening, cuddling my cat.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

My choice of partners.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

Take their children for granted.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

That sometimes because I don't get upset, I don't care. I do care, deeply.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

My life experiences.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Coffee.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

I'd like to say something deep and meaningful here but really, it's my 18 year old skin.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

Watching my pal's daughter in a hopping race at school sport's day. She was awesome.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

Quit smoking.

27. If not now, then when?

I know, I know...

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

Improved relationships with my family.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

That I'm much stronger and more resilient than I thought. Who knew?

30. What do you want to remember forever?

Every single time of shared music making.

31. What could society do without?

Bullies, people who shout and belittle.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

That everything's ok.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

That animals experience emotions and attachment relationships just like we do, that they deserve respect and compassion, that when we torture, destroy and then eat them, it takes something important away from us too. Enough said.


34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

I can't remember ever saying never, must have done at some point, hmmm, I don't know.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

That it's ok to make a fool of yourself.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

My civil partnership.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

You're good enough.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

I'd sing a song along with Sarah Vaughan, probably some old jazz standard, any one would do.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

I have no idea but I doubt it, I can be a bit quiet.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Is this the right thing?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
walk past sweets

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
meeting new people who will have a positive effect on my life

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? health happiness love money fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
peace

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? changing

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
my health

7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am a mother, lover and a fighter

8. What do you want to be known for?
my sass

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
my chosen family

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
healthier in all forms

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
family

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
honesty, goofyness, confidence,

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
living freely

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
to be 7 again life was pretty easy then

15. What stands between you and what you want?
my head

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
music

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When I got a second chance at life

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
exercising, spending time with my grandmother

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
I am confronting them slowly, it is the yr of change

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
closed minds, not listening to both sides

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
im pissy all the time...not really just deep in thought

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
my spirit,my love

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
my kids, water

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
my mother

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
my surgery date....fukin priceless, pawning a ring that had no meaning

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
believe in myself more I GOT THIS!

27. If not now, then when?
um tomorrow?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
my gosh my kids,and making the choice to get healthy

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I am a tough cookie

30. What do you want to remember forever?
life lessons good and bad

31. What could society do without?
pushy church folk

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
I need to find the right direction I want to take in my life now that I am healthier

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
accept yourself, love yourself, forgive yourself

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
go back words

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
leaving my sweet little town

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
road trips to see Garth!

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
slow down, take the time to enjoy your surroundings,4x4 more, love harder, experience more, take more pictures.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? tell my kids I love them...and I am finally free

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Probably

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
woohoo what's next?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Stay out of the hospital.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
My GF's knee surgery and hoping that her knee improves with rehab.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health is everything to me: with poor health, it is difficult to feel happiness or to be able to earn money. With stable health: ability to be open to love increased greatly. Fame matters not at all to me.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Go back to sleep.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Busy!

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
Earning enough money to be able to retire.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
Still figuring that one out.

8. What do you want to be known for?
Compassion towards others and a loving heart underneath my veneer of reserve.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Since my GF would be coming with me in this theoretical move; my youngest daughter and granddaughter (package deal so they count as one)- they live fairly close to me now. If I moved 3K miles away, hopefully that would put me on the east coast and closer to my oldest daughter.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Will officially be living with my GF. I say officially because we spend 7 days/nights out of 7 together but don't call it living together yet.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Me.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Kindness, ability to communicate on a feeling level and non-judgmental towards others

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Many things

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
The love and nurturing of my parents.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Fear-see number 13 above.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Listen to music and dance.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
Somehow, I always knew this.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Alone time.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Reconnecting with my parents. >>>>Hard to admit to anyone: they still scare me. I use avoidance with them.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
I don't like to be judgmental. I can only live my own life and that is hard enough.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That my shyness and reserve means aloof.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
That I got my RN while on welfare and was raising my girls by myself.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Yogurt

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
When my daughters were small, before I met my long -term ex. We were very poor but very happy-the 3 of us.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Thinking of my first date with my honey. She was waiting outside the restaurant and as I walked up, I could see her more clearly and my first thought was: "Thank god, she really looks like her picture and she really is butch". (Online dating sites could bring surprises before I met her).

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Rent out or sell my house. Make repairs that are needed to do either.

27. If not now, then when?
I am very good at avoidance for those things I don't want to do or that make me uncomfortable.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Raise two stable, productive daughters that are very good and loving moms to their own children.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
That I shut down and want to run rather than deal with highly charged, emotional issues with my GF.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
What love feels like.

31. What could society do without?
Hate, repression, violence and intolerance.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
I am never totally sure of anything. I am always questioning everything.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Peace is more than an abstract concept- it can be achieved.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Hmmm...can't think of anything.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
?

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Everything that I have done in my life.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
It will get better.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I did my very best.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No, I have accomplished a lot in my life in spite of adversities.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
I question anything and everything. I exhaust myself sometimes.

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

I can say I'm sorry, when I am sorry.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

A person from my past, that I should have been strong enough to deal with.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Health, happiness, love, money, fame.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

A clear head.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Over-analyzing

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Career

7. In one sentence, who are you?

I'm the one people watch intensely, as they never really know what I'm thinking.

8. What do you want to be known for?

Doing it my way.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

The green fields around waterways, and the smell of the Irish air.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I will be a more intelligent, educated me.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Many lovely people I have in my life.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Loyalty
Honesty
Drama-Free lifestyle.


13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

Succeeding.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

Strength

15. What stands between you and what you want?

Only time.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

Drive.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

At the tender age of 17 after an unexpected illness left me 20 minutes from death.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Focussing on the future.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

Many.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

People often refuse to listen to the little guy, or the underdog. THAT I disagree with.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

That I am shy. I am not. I am simply mysterious to people.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

Life lessons and experience.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Strength.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

Innocence.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

:police:

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

Flexibility.

27. If not now, then when?

After I have a coffee.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

I have led by example in a role of great honor.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

I have a zero-tolerance policy for quite a lot of traits in people.

30. What do you want to remember forever?

That there are only two people in your life you can ever truly trust.

31. What could society do without?

The catholic church. (They don't deserve a capital letter)

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

You can always catch a liar with a lie.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Don't be a dickhead.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

Not entirely sure.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

Watching the news.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

Walking through fields in my favourite part of the Island

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Work hard, don't drink as much, and go for it!

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

Don't cry for me. Save your tears for when you need them most.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Who knows.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Are you for real?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

be alone

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

work

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health,
fame?

love, happiness, health, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

peace

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

working

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

work

7. In one sentence, who are you?

8. What do you want to be known for?

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

no one can make me feel good, I have to make myself feel good

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

getting my masters degree

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

15. What stands between you and what you want?

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

listen to music

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

when my father died

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

27. If not now, then when?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

I have 2 great children age 22 and 25

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

30. What do you want to remember forever?

31. What could society do without?

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

be humble

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
__________________

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

2. What's been on your mind most lately? my health

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? Love brings happiness, happiness brings health (for the most part), money…fame isn’t on the radar

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? Her arms around me

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? busy

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? family

7. In one sentence, who are you? A co-worker once said this to me “you are the thunder that makes the earth rumble under the feet”…I’ll go with that

8. What do you want to be known for? How I’ve helped people

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? family

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I’m not sure

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? She does, the kids, my folks, friends (here and in r/t)

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? Honesty, loyalty, good heart

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? nothing

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? An Arabian horse

15. What stands between you and what you want? money

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? I sit by the ocean

17. When did you first realize that life is short? When I woke up after my heart stopped for the first time ..I was just a teen

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Saying I love you to all that I love

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? My health

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? Be disrespectful

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? Oh a lot..I don’t have facial expressions as much as everyone else..so people are often wondering

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? Who I am…and my education

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? My toothbrush

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? Those I have lost

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? hmmmm

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? My health

27. If not now, then when? Now is a good time

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? I finished my masters degree

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? I have sensory issues that get in my way

30. What do you want to remember forever? The look of love

31. What could society do without? Peoples bullshit

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? That the more I learn the more I know nothing

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? depends on the day...I have been known to speak to large groups to fight for rights and to inspire.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Jump out of a plane

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? That I love sea food

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? Many things

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? You’re dyslexic not stupid

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? I love you

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? No…I will have done what I was meant to do

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? What am I to learn from this today

Holy Crap, that was a long quiz!
 

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
-A greater self-awareness and I'm a teeny bit better at speaking my mind.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
-My life has changed so much in the past year; been turned upside down,
really. And that, despite all of that, just how much more change is yet to be
implemented.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
-Happiness, health, love, money; fame is not something to which I aspire.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
-Something to eat. My tummy is rumbling!

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
-Tenterhooks.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
-Finding meaning, purpose, and contentment through intellectual, spiritual,
and creative expression.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
-I am someone who strives to walk a good path.

8. What do you want to be known for?
-I hope to be known as someone who is kind, compassionate, and fun.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
-lol, that depends. 3000 miles in which direction?

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
-I prefer to just enjoy being where I am now, yet filled with hope for a good
future.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
-I derive my sense of self-esteem through my accomplishments.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
-Sense of humor, kindness, and strength of character.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
-So much.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
-Love, a sense of connection to others; whether it be via family, friends, and/or
a lover. It is something I never really had growing up and I have always
deeply felt that lack.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
-Everyone else is mean to me and a jerk! lol, just kidding; deep connection
just doesn't come naturally to me. It is something I need to work on.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
-Sleep, a long walk, a drive with the [convertible] top down, sitting by the
ocean, stargazing.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
-It is never far from my mind.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
-More time doing and less time pontificating about what I intend to do!

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
-I hate confrontation, lol. I am willing to QUIETLY reflect on most
any issue. I may or may not actually do something about it, but I don't
always feel like sharing it. Like right now, for instance, lol. I think I'm
giving you all plenty of ammun...I mean, "getting to know all of you fine
people."

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
-Mean-spirited gossip! I hate it.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
-People often assume I am aloof, indifferent, or just outright don't care.
It isn't true.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
-Anything that goes on between my ears.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
-My iPad. It is my crack pipe.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
-I miss simpler times.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
-I'm just going to keep that one to myself.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
-The revolution starts within!

27. If not now, then when?
-Each day I try to make small changes; eventually they will snowball.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
-I prefer not to answer this here.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
-That I can sometimes need help and it isn't a personal failure.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
-All the blessings that I have been given.

31. What could society do without?
-Hatred.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
-I'm sure that I don't know.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
-Stop making your decisions based on fear.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
-lol, I'm a Gemini; a walking contradiction. Just when you think you
have me pegged, I will surprise you.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
-See question 34.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
-Nothing in this lifetime lasts forever and regrets are a waste of
our precious time.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
-I would kick my own ass because I needed it! And then I would sit
down with myself and have a serious talk about self-respect and value.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
-See you when you get there!

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
-I certainly hope not!

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
-Why am I taking this questionnaire? lol

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Ascertain more easily the things I can and cannot change.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
A wee personage

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Happiness, health, love, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Food and a shag in that order please.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Happily and hornily

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
Recovery

7. In one sentence, who are you?
Still working that out a bit

8. What do you want to be known for?
Authenticity and stoicism

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
One thing? My Pops, The Space Cadet, MsPieface & MsO.C, Ms.Sponsorliscious and the Teensprogette. My home town.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I have no idea, it's not good for me to project beyond a few days.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Me

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Oddness, humour, honesty.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Trying

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To be a rock star :cheesy:

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Me

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Sing, cycle, have a personal pity-party, pray.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When my Ma died in 1999

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Step work

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
My defects

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Have solely internet based 'relationships'.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
That I'm really confident

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Almost 2yrs sobriety

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Decaff coffee/tea

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Looking young and gorgeous

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Too many to list

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Consistent step work

27. If not now, then when?
When the universe deems it right

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Stopped smoking almost 4yrs ago, got sober almost 2yrs ago

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
Too much to list.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
That I'm never alone

31. What could society do without?
Most people ;) and goddamn gossip!

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That I'm really rather fuckin' fabbablus

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Acceptance is the key

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Dunno

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
It's ok to succeed

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Relationships with the two great loves of my life (thus far)

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
You're amazing and follow that dream

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I told you I was ill!

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Aye, I need to shut m'gob a bit more.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Why?
Was that necessary?
Was that totally honest?
Did I deserve that?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Starting a new business

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
My Dad and the business success

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health, Love, happiness, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Love

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Concerned

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
The Studio, my dad, being happy with someone

7. In one sentence, who are you?
resilient

8. What do you want to be known for?
Caring

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
My Dad, My step mom my sister, family, friends. Depending where some rare cuisines.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I hope to be in a relationship and business is going well.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My health

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Humour, strangeness, kindness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
going after my dreams - in construction/ medicine.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
A Lion and a porche

15. What stands between you and what you want?
$$$, and my own self doubts that creep in.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Watch favourite TV episodes or read mystery novel.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
Two reminders, when my aunt and my mom passed away.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Find ways improve the studio chance of success.
Finding a ways to connect with others who share similar values and principles.
Find ways to meet and connect with femmes.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Up to recently it was my mom's family. But I have decided to look into it. So at the moment there isn't anything I am refusing to confront.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Smoking

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Cold and detached

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My mind - power to think for myself and learn.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Fruits

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
My Mom. Not having to deal with adult BS.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
One memory - skipping class to hang in the park

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Keeping working on my communication skills with others and improve my finances and health.

27. If not now, then when?
There is no time like the present. Tomorrow may be too late.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Home purchase

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
Not new but what I forgot. I re-learned I am able to be upfront firm but fair.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
My life memories, success, failures and everything in between.

31. What could society do without?
Hatred and greed

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
Bills due first of the month

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Stop being numb, learn to love. Take time to feel, taste, smell, see and hear. Be engaged and active participant in your life.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Eat chocolate

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
That you can not control time. Learn to work with it wisely.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
The moments I had with my ex.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Listen to your gut and start you change for the better sooner.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
Damn.. there is so much left to do.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Yes, I think so, but hope not.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Am I making the right decisions?

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?

Really REALLY stand up for myself

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

Losing weight, paying my rent, Christmas, existential life questioms

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

Money (without that stress it makes it easier to be happier and it can buy good health care!), happiness, health, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

To fit back into all my old clothes, to have a successful full time nail art business and the butch of my dreams

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Working lol

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?

Dreams

7. In one sentence, who are you?

A broken hearted but tough as nails femme princess with a passion for fashion who is eternally dreaming

8. What do you want to be known for?

Amazing nail art, great Marilyn Monroe impersonation

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?

My niece!!!

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?

I hope that I will have an established nail art business that is going well, fit back into my old clothes and maybe even be seeing someone...!

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?

Looking beautiful, spending time with my niece, creating things that others enjoy

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?

Loyalty, stubborness, love of gossip

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?

LOL EVERYTHING! Not really but it has held me back a lot. I would love to be a successful Marilyn impersonator but a nervous breakdown held me back from getting established...

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?

Be an actress

15. What stands between you and what you want?

My fear and mental health

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?

Talk to a good friend or read a book

17. When did you first realize that life is short?

When I hit my late twenties!

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?

Not procrastinating

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?

Fear of failure, my past traumas

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?

Judge women who have worked in the sex industry and treat them badly

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?

Either that I am a bimbo or that I am unapproachable

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?

My heart

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?

Water and coke zero

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

My idealism and innocence

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?

Times with my niece and some good fun with a couple of good friends

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?

To overcome my fear of failure and pursue my nail art dream!

27. If not now, then when?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?

I have created a bunch of stuff that resonates with people hugely... some costuming, some nail art, some stories... it is good to know people have loved that stuff.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?

I am braver than I knew

30. What do you want to remember forever?

My niece

31. What could society do without?

Misogyny and racism

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?

I have beautiful clothes

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?

Don't be misogynists

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?

Had crazy nail art on my hands lol

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?

having genital piercings - took em all out!

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?

My burlesque hobby

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Don't eat emotionally, go after your dreams NOW, learn how to do better hair and makeup NOW

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?

GESPATCHO SOOOOOOOUP

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

I always fear the answer is yes but objectively... no!

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?

Can I do this? Should I do this? Will I be alone forever? Will I get this done?

:blueheels:

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Understand profound spirituality.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
A future event in my personal life.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
N/A

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
For an experience to come to pass.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Intense

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
N/A

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A rare breed.

8. What do you want to be known for?
N/A

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? Nothing.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I won't be here in one year from today.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
Me.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Sincerity, caliber, loyalty.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
N/A

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
N/A

15. What stands between you and what you want?
A certain amount of time.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
N/A

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
N/A

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
N/A

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
N/A

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
N/A

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
N/A

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Myself.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Uh, food?

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
People in my life who've died.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
N/A

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
N/A

27. If not now, then when?
N/A

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Came through against impossible odds.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I'm blessed—really blessed. And I'm grateful.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
N/A

31. What could society do without?
Evil.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
My future.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
The profound spiritual life is one tough cattle drive. Arid, hard, painful, lonely, demanding, risky and dangerous. But in the end, rewarding.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
N/A

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
N/A

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
N/A

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
N/A

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? I'm ready.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
No, I've done more than I said I'd ever do.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
N/A

There have been a few reports on Jet's post below. Just wanted to say thanks and we are dealing with it privately.

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? Be on the dating scene

2. What's been on your mind most lately?

bringing the different communities I belong to together.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? In that order

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? To stop having the worst strep throat of my life

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Bliss!

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? Financial security

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am a 60 year old woman with the curiosity of a teenager.

8. What do you want to be known for? My writing. My hips.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? My daughter and sisters.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? Hoping that the bliss of the last month matures into s solid relationship.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? Having people notice my commitment to activism.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? good energy, common viewpoint, two-way street

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? I am blossoming right now so not an issue at the moment.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? To write a book

15. What stands between you and what you want? Time, self-discipline

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Look at the sky

17. When did you first realize that life is short? Death of relatives as a child

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Increasing my client base.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? Laundry, straightening up house

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? Misunderstand trans people

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? That I'm white, that I'm straight

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? My ability to love

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? Sunshine

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? The knees

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? The first time for me and my gf

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? More financial security, health insurance

27. If not now, then when? When I finish my master's degree in May

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? Two amazing children

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? Yeah, that…..

30. What do you want to remember forever?
my kids as toddlers

31. What could society do without? How about repressive social norms?

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? I love butch energy…….

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? Bridging racial gaps requires hard work and intentionality for white people.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Yeah, that……...

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? Being so alienated from my parents

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? Being associate director of a kickass Latino org.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? You didn't have to spend all those years in depression

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? It was really worth it….and feed my cat, somebody

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? No!

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? When is RuPaul's Drag Race coming back on?

I'm not going to quote your post Iamuymuyfem but I loved reading every word of it. I laughed, smiled, agreed, and admired. Sexagenarians rock!:bunchflowers:

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
So many things. I could write an essay. They're all important in their own way so I can't just pick one.
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
The fact that until about August the possibility of me dating or having a social life is basically nil.
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
happiness and health tie for first, they can't be completely separated. Then love, money, fame.
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
I want to be awake and alert enough to do a piano practice :( but I'm not
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Hectic.
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
Getting through the next few months with my sanity intact and all my bits attached.
7. In one sentence, who are you?
For better or worse, I am me.
8. What do you want to be known for?
For being a good person and going out of my way to help others. It's nice being known for things you're good at, but I find that puts me under pressure (mostly from myself) and I don't like that aspect so I'd rather be known for being nice.
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Can I take my dog?
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Fricking goodness knows. I have a fairly good idea of how the next 6 months will run but the second half of the year is still a closed book. Next year doesn't even exist yet.
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My animals. AKA my babies.
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Someone who makes an effort to keep in contact with me, someone likes hugging, sense of humour. Preferably one similar to my rather whacky one.
13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Applying for certain jobs. Admittedly my fear of failure wasn't exactly unfounded, being barely qualified and completely inexperienced would have significantly stood against me.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Have kids.
15. What stands between you and what you want?
Ahhh.. sperm?
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Piano.
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
Still haven't figured that one out lol life seems pretty long from where I currently stand.
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Piano.
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Questioning a lot of stuff about myself and the world at the moment. Get back to me in a few months and I'll let you know.
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Vaccinate their kids. (Not intended to start a discussion on the topic!! I disagree based on research not ignorance)
21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Two that I've heard a few times are I had a neat room when I was growing up and that I'm a vegetarian. Neither could be further from the truth and I have no idea where people get those ideas. A quite common one is that I'm a guy.
22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My self-love.
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Seeing my dog.
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
I now kind of regret quitting double bass. Does that count?
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Being part of an official Guinness world record.
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Figure out how to go to bed at a reasonable time. Stuck in a habit of late nights from a combination of being an online student and an evening job I had a few years ago.
27. If not now, then when?
If not what now?
28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Lots of stuff. Most recent one is deadlifting 5/6 of my own weight.
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I am currently learning how to remain strong in my convictions even when everyone's questioning or attacking them. This has been happening to me recently on several issues. Yes, I'm a slow learner.
30. What do you want to remember forever?
The core essence of who I am. Sounds silly, but it can be very easy to lose yourself in this society.
31. What could society do without?
You want me to pick one? Ummm.. Highly processed foods.
32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That I sure as hell am not ready for the bowls tournament I've been asked to take part in, starting this Saturday.
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Health starts on the inside- love yourself, balance your body/mind/spirit/life, and everything else will fall into place.
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Motorbike.
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Practising scales. As a kid I hated it (as per normal lol) but now I find them therapeutic.
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Clubbing. Maybe my body didn't thank me for it, but I had a great time for the few months that I was a regular goer. Pretty over it now. lol
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
I would tell myself the reason why I found so much stuff difficult growing up. Won't say it publicly here but damn I wish I'd known younger.
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I would say goodbye to my animals and tell them I love them.
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I hope not.
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
What did I come into this room for? Where's my.. oh there it is.

Reading back its kinda funny how some things have changed drastically in 2 years and other things have stayed the same.

Now:
1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
This year my relationship is at the stage where it has gotten clear we're both definitely in it for the long haul and that we love each other more than anything. I wouldn't trade that for anything. I also have more stable housing than last year. I can sleep at night without being eaten alive by bed bugs or having to run to emerg at 2 am because my eyes are swelling shut.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How much I love our current living situation, the people that should still be in this world but aren't, and also money/employment.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
1. Happiness. 2. Love. 3. Health. 4. Money 5. Fame.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
A little financial stability so that I can stop going crazy over certain things.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Stressed lol

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
Love and fear :p

7. In one sentence, who are you?
Human

8. What do you want to be known for?
Still don't know.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Still my community (I assume I'd be moving away with my partner...)

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
With all the things that can happen in a year, who knows.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
My partner and one of my old housemates.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty. Trustworthiness. Community-oriented.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
A lot of the small things.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
Still top surgery :p

15. What stands between you and what you want?
I still has it :p

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Still just ride it out. When I feel depressed sometimes I just need to sleep it off and wake up the next day feeling less hopeless.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
Don't know, but after this year death fucking terrifies me.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Hard to say.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
A lot of anxiety, but I'm working through it.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Not sure.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Still unsure.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Love.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Still pants or shorts :p

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
My cousin and my grandmother. Some friends that I don't see as often.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Telling my partner I love her for the first time.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Job.

27. If not now, then when?
Still a good question! :p

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Found someone this damn awesome :D

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
That's it's never too late. That I shouldn't have to compare where I'm at in life to other people because everyone has their own challenges and their own path.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
How good it feels being with her.

31. What could society do without?
Still don't know where to start...

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
Love.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
N/A

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Dance some more.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Too much to list.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Community houses...too many shit landlords in this world.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
I'd still probably want to tell myself what a trans guy is to save myself the grief of figuring it out much later.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
I don't know, but I'd sure as hell be shitting myself.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Almost certainly.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Will I always be this crazy?

A little introspective today so hey, what the hell...
 

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
I'm living in a place that allows me to keep my dog with me. I had to give him away in August of 2012 because my living situation was untenable to keeping him. It's a miracle (or a vision board) how I got him back and if you buy me a drink sometime I'll tell you the whole story.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
How to make my big adventure happen.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? 1) Love trumps all. 2) health. 3) happiness. 4. money. Fame is not on my list. I would never want to be famous. I feel sorry for people who are famous. They need the riches in order to cope with not having any privacy.

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Seriously? You know it starts with s and ends with x. A good snog would suffice.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Recovering from a trauma. Sadly that is true. Also, falling in and out of love again.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
To live a life that is true to who I really am. To seize every opportunity to make the time and space to find peace, love and fulfillment.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A work in progress.

8. What do you want to be known for?
That I loved well and could bust a move.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
My friends and family.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I will be in a setting that I chose from a place of love. Doing and being and loving. Collecting experiences instead of things.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
I've got some really good friends who mirror my best self to me.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Loyalty, humor, and a car.

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Too many things. Fear is a killer. Choose love instead.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To be loved and accepted, just the way I am.

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Aha! You are a tough one, oh internet questionnaire oracle. My own fears and self-limiting beliefs, of course. Hah!

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
I meditate. Sit with the pain or whatever it is. Embrace it, let it be.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
When I was 11 and my mother died of pancreatic cancer at age 36.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
- sitting in silence - listening to my intuition - loving myself - moving my body - laughing - doing things that bring me joy

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
Unhappiness with work.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Vote against their best interests because they believe the lies told by corporations/the Koch brothers/Fox news/fill-in-the-blank.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
Just because I'm easy-going doesn't mean you can violate my boundaries.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My breath.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Missed opportunities.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Getting my dog back.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
Number one is get healthy. Number two is quit my toxic job. Or maybe the other way around. Somehow I believe that one will follow from the other.

27. If not now, then when?
Exactly! You read my mind.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
Risking it all to live my truth.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
I'm attracted to butch women!

30. What do you want to remember forever?
All the good stuff.

31. What could society do without?
Lust for power. Jimi Hendrix said it best: "When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace."

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That in my heart of hearts there is a knowing that I can trust.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
"Bark less, wag more."

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Hm that's a tough one. Will think about it and get back to you.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Religion, mostly.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
My marriage.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Kiss more girls! (And stay away from the evangelicals!)

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
love love love love...

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I don't like sanctimonious questions like this. But I get the point. I want to be a woman of action.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
How can I make XYZ happen?

Questions
 

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? I can walk without a cane.

2. What's been on your mind most lately? Building mother a cottage.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health
Happiness
Love
Money
Fame


4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? Peace of mind.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Workaholic.

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? Work.

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am one of many that help wildlife and protect their habitat.

8. What do you want to be known for? For my contributions to science and my relationships.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? Texas food.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? I hope to have my mother living in a cottage on my land.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? My family and my friends.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? Honesty, humor, and kindness.


13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? Carpentry, I feel as though I can't nail two pieces of wood together so I stopped trying.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? A big farm or ranch with lots of animals.

15. What stands between you and what you want? Money.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Talk to my family and friends.

17. When did you first realize that life is short? Losing my grandparents very early.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Socializing in person.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? Confrontation its self I say nothing instead of confronting people.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? They hide their true selves.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? Maybe that I am a party guy because most people only see me at parties.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? My believes and my ideals.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? Chapstick, I am addicted to chapstick.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? Lost family, friends, and pets.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? Treating Mother to a happy Thanksgiving this year. Last year was the worst Thanksgiving in my family's history.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? I need to find balance between work and fun.

27. If not now, then when? It must be soon.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? I have served the environment well and I have raised two kids with my bestfriend (now gone).

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? My strength, I am stronger than I think sometimes.

30. What do you want to remember forever? Life with my bestfriend and the kids. It was a magical time.

31. What could society do without? Prejudice against everyone and everything that is different than them.

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? I am loved, safe, and happy.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? Great job friend!

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Be a workaholic.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? The importance of relationships with friends and family.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? Some relationships.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Have patience.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? Tell them that I love them.

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? No, I will not.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? How do I find balance and when can I retire.

__________________

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
fix a hip tortion

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
graduating from school on dec 18th and being able to have a life again

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

happiness is like orgasms. It's something momentary and fun but to expect it to last all the time is like expecting to have a 24/7 orgasm.I'm not concerned with happiness. I think is a false god to chase.
Health - able to work and live a life of active purpose
Love - as in friendship, not romantic. That's not necessary to live
Money - as in enough to have my basic needs met and feel secure I don't have to worry about food or rent

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
brunch.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
insanely busy

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
school, career

7. In one sentence, who are you?
not your fucking mum

8. What do you want to be known for?
my skills, my abilities, my humour, my brain. And that I have nice tits.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
i did. So I know the answer. The mountains and the cedar trees

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
VERY. I'll be registered and making five times the amount of money I am now. Literally. I will have time, money, and saving for my own practice

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
me

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
humour, wit, socialist politics

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
dating

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
a jellyfish tank or a pirateboat

15. What stands between you and what you want?
nothing right now. I am working my fucking arse off as hard as I can to do it

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
not sure what this means. You mean when I am sad and depressed? Sticky rice with fish and a fabulous movie

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
for actual emotional reals, two years ago. Intellectually over a decade ago

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
jesus. everything? But I'd like to have more time and energy so I can have sex. I would love some sex. A lot.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
that I would put this information on a public board

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
breathe. Many people shouldn't be doing that

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
that I'm scary or intimidating

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
hmn. Tough. If I was kidnapped, tortured and brain washed, that would take away a lot of stuff. My humour?

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
access to a toilet of some kind. No wait. I can pee in the woods. Ok, being in the city and having no access to a toilet

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
my sense of naive adventure, people I knew and really liked

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
to much of a blur, nothing stands out

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
losing the weight I gained from going to school

27. If not now, then when?
when I have my first job and can afford to go to the gym and get a trainer for help

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
So. Many. Things. Still being alive.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
That no matter many time I have to pick my self up and start over from scratch, I can do it

30. What do you want to remember forever?
ALL of it

31. What could society do without?
greedy capitalist arseholes and Tories

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
my skill

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
come see me if you want to know what massage therapy feels like

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
So. Many. Things.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
see above

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
life

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
it will be ok. You are far, far stronger than you know. When it hits as it has in the past, keep going. It will hurt. You'll fall over. But you'll get up.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? "that was weird"

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
oh fuck yes. So has everyone. They are kidding themselves if they think differently. But words are always there and people find them important.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself
can I go t bed yet???

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? Fit into the clothes I'm wearing these days.

2. What's been on your mind most lately? Pain

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame? Health, money, love happiness

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most? For my knee to stop hurting.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life? Reflective

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now? Good mental health

7. In one sentence, who are you? I am human, too!

8. What do you want to be known for? Perseverance

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most? Mexican food.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different? Will have mastered a platform at work.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself? Me

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend? Direct, kind, smart

13. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing? Being a public speaker or actor

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid? A convertible car

15. What stands between you and what you want? Irrational fears

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy? Accept momentary unhappiness, it will pass.

17. When did you first realize that life is short? When I was 9 or 10

18. What do you need to spend more time doing? Being still

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront? Abuse

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with? Don't vote

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you? I'm straight. I'm a bitch.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you? My thoughts and feelings.

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day? Brushing my teeth and cleaning my body.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most? My sister

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most? A night spent in Hillcrest with some friends.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months? Master this platform at work.

27. If not now, then when? It's now or never.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of? Designed five life-size posters based on Carnival in Italy. I used them as a base for my PostSecret post card project.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself? My level of sensitivity decreases as I conquer fears. Duh.

30. What do you want to remember forever? That first kiss.

31. What could society do without? Assault weapons

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of? Who I am and what I need.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? Black lives matter.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done? Drive on the freeway again.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older? Traveling alone

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while? D.R.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell? Own it.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be? It's pronounced O-RAY-MA, not O-REE-MA

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Yep.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself? I wonder what time the movie starts?

Twelve years on, and I had to come back to this:

. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
Defining myself without relationships or occupations. I may be someone's mother/wife/girlfriend at any one time, but that isn't who I am. The same with my job: Teaching was what I did, it is not who I am.

2. What's been on your mind most lately?
What comes next as I move into my 60's and feel unencumbered by child-raising and facing retirement gladly.

3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health, happiness, love, money, fame

4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Realistically, a shower and a good night's rest. If anything, my "special" friend Sasha to ring my doorbell right now.

5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Reflective, with my daughter's wedding and the anniversary of my son's death (which were by coincidence on the same day).

6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
What action/thought/self-talk is healthiest and shows the most care and love for myself.

7. In one sentence, who are you?
A strong, passionate, fun-loving, love-loving beautiful woman ;).

8. What do you want to be known for?
By accomplishment, my writings and research into my family. By who I am, that I was encouraging and loving to all I met.

9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
Assuming it was just me, my family.

10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
Retirement, with the time for hobbies, volunteering, service, and travel.

11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
A full day of meaningful work and hopefully service to others.

12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
Honesty, kindness, trustworthiness

13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Pursuing certification as a professional genealogist. I work on my own research here and t here, but compiling my portfolio and submitting it seems like a recipe for disaster.

14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
To earn my private pilot's license (maybe as a kid it was simply "to fly")

15. What stands between you and what you want?
Lots of money and passing my health exam. Both could be overcome.

16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Playing my music playlists, then realizing (again) that only I am responsible for my happiness. This feels very liberating, and I usually get back on track. That's actually another big step I learned this year.

17. When did you first realize that life is short?
My cousin died when he was about 24 and I was 10 or so. I had just seen him the week before, happy (so I thought) and healthy.

18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
Anything related to self-care, following my goals, following my peace and happiness. Healthy selfishness.

19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
My relationship with food, but yet another way I've changed is that I am totally examining myself and what I should confront next. And I've noticed that this issue is easier approached almost in fun, not punishment and deriding myself.

20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Complaining about things they have no power over. General negativity.

21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
I'm a unemotional, reserved person hard to get to know. I may be shy but when comfortable, my silliness and yes, passion, come out.

22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
Self-respect

23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Music, either playlists or my piano.

24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
Faraway childhood friends, probably the greatest gift of Facebook.

25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
My daughter's wedding last week! Though this was tempered by her obvious weight loss and fatigue due to her declining health.

26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
It needs to be treating my body, emotions, and surroundings with more care.

27. If not now, then when?
Why not right now?

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
My 291 day streak of Duolingo Russian lessons. It's not meant to lead to fluency, and it's a tough language (that's why I chose it), but look at that! I've learned a lot and get closer to a year every day.

29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
It's a gradual realization that I can be assertive and the world won't collapse, people won't get mad, and I actually have a decent chance of getting what I want.

30. What do you want to remember forever?
Visiting Warwick Castle. I could see why the "Kingmaker" and his ancestors loved that land so much.

31. What could society do without?
More staged "reality" shows. If it's staged, how is that real? (I realize I'm a hypocrite, as some of these have been my guilty pleasure)

32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
The existence of a Higher Power, Light, Being, Deity that some call "God" but I am sure exists in each of us.

33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
Believe in yourself. Trust yourself. Go for your dreams. Don't settle for less in love than you want.

34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
Completed my Pro-Gen genealogy class. It took a year and a half of tough assignments. I had thought (1) I wouldn't be accepted into the program in the first place, and then (2) that I was essentially a fraud in the Super Bowl of genealogy. What joy when I received my certificate.

35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
I had thought I'd never move from my family and my hometown, out of fear or inertia. I have now about five moves down, and each brought fear as well as great memories.

36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
My first love relationship with a woman.

37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Don't worry about what "they" think of you, or say about you. You do you. That goes for my older self, too.

38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
See you later, be good, I love you, you're on my foot!

39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I hope to be a do-er much more than a talker. Writing is an exception.

40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
What's next?
What if I _____? (insert desired action here)
Why not me? (in response when I fall for "Why me?")

1. What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago?
I have more stamina, both physically and mentally, and so there are things that I didn’t get accomplished now that even a year ago, I couldn’t have done them
2. What's been on your mind most lately?
The election. I’m scared to death that Trump is going to win.
3. In order of importance, how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?
Health, happiness, love, money, fame
4. Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?
Someone else to Put the fresh sheets and pillowcases on the bed. Lol.
5. What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?
Off-focused (because of my eye situation)
6. What is the #1 motivator in your life right now?
I’m 67 years old and I feel like I’m running out of time. So I’m trying to get everything in that I’ve ever wanted to do.
7. In one sentence, who are you?
I am a very simple complex woman

8. What do you want to be known for?
That I was And loving Grandmother
9. If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss most?
other than my family, it would have to be my garden
10. In one year from today, how do you think your life will be different?
I’ll be much healthier. Every year for the past decade, my health has improved.
11. Who makes you feel good about yourself?
When I am able to accomplish things. I get a lot of balls up in the air juggling several projects at a time. When I can accomplish them one by one by one I feel good that I can do so much and do it well.
12. What are the top three qualities you look for in a friend?
I have been best friends with my best friend since the first day of first grade so that was 61 years ago. She had the cutest pigtails, she laughed a lot, and she shared her pretty pencils with me.
13.What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Writing. I have started and stopped writing several times in my life.
14. What is something you have always wanted since you were a kid?
A pony! I’ve had them on and off in my life and now I’m at a time in my life where I’m just not able to take care of one.
15. What stands between you and what you want?
More money
16. What do you do when nothing else seems to make you happy?
Sleep. If I really am in a spiral of misery and I’m just not going to be happy no matter what I’m gonna do, I will sleep and when I wake up, I can guarantee you I’ll be better
17. When did you first realize that life is short?
There were so many times in my life. I thought I realize that life was short. But when you get in your late 60s and onward, you realize you have far less time than you’ve ever had in your life. You might not have decades anymore to look forward to. Hell, you might not even have A decade…
18. What do you need to spend more time doing?
My crafts. Especially my Watercolors
19. What issues do you continually refuse to confront?
I Don’t think I have any. I mean, there was huge bands of time where I refused to confront my mental health and my Addiction, but I’ve got those doing pretty well now
20. What’s something a lot of people do that you disagree with?
Please don’t hate me… But I cannot stand breast-feeding in public
21.What’s a common misconception people have about you?
I’m always surprised when people tell me when they first met me, that they thought I was aloof.
22.What’s something no one can take away from you?
My love for them.
23. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
Oh geez, that’s easy. My cell phone.
24. When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?
My horses. There are times I sit and cry quietly, when I look at photos of my horses that I’ve had in the past. I don’t think anybody’s ever understood the connection I have with horses.
25. What memory from this past year makes you smile the most?
Last year I had chickens and my littlest granddaughter got to watch one hatch, and while it was still wet, I put it in her hands
26. What’s the number one change you need to make in your life in the next twelve months?
You take care so much mental and physical health, and I’ve lost weight, but I still have weight to lose and dammit I need to do that.
27. If not now, then when? Maybe never. Sometimes we just have to be kind to ourselves and let our expectations and desires be let go.

28. What have you done that you are truly proud of?
I have five college degrees
29. What’s something new you recently learned about yourself?
Then I can air fry
30. What do you want to remember forever?
Oh my God, all of it
31. What could society do without?
The crazy MAGAS And their leader
32. What is one thing right now, that you are totally sure of?
That my husband loves me
33. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be?
You don’t have to say anything. Just listen.
34. What’s something you said you’d never do, but have since done?
I would be with a man. I am absolutely a lesbian. But I married a man.
35. What’s something you changed your mind about when you grew older?
Thoughts of my mother
36. What didn’t last forever, but was still worth your while?
Every single relationship I was in. No matter how badly they ended, or what caused the end of the relationship, how it started, and when it was good, was always worth my while.
37. If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?
Someday, when you grow up, someone’s gonna love you so well, that all of this that you’re going through right now, is not going to matter
38. If you knew you were dying in 60 seconds, what would your last words be?
“ i’m going to miss all of you”
39. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Absolutely. I have held the hands of the dying. I have wiped blood from the lips of children. I fed Starving addicts. I’ve sat in The dark corners of the nightmares With people complex PTSD. I have housed the homeless. I have made people not once ever had anything going for them or anyone supporting them, feel seen and appreciated. I could go on, but the gist of it is that I have always been service oriented, and that my life work has always been to take care of those who have no one
40. What questions do you often ask yourself?
Really? You’re doing this again?