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my seasonal work coming to a halt!

The crazy messed up rearranging of everyone's schedules at work right now. I can't wait until its all figured out.

This is what's on my mind at the moment...

I'm catching the repeat of the 2010 VMA's that were on MTV last night, and:

I HATE Eminem....Yes, hate is a harsh word...I just can't stand him. He thinks so cool and he's an arrogant wanna be gansta....What a shit head...

I worked ICU this evening at the veterinary referral hospital that I work for and it was really rough. It's a very large, nice hospital and I've never covered the evening criticare reception position. I had six emergencies in two hours - ranging from a very sweet kitty hit by a car, a year old female golden retriever who had managed to undo all of her spay stitches to an a crazy (cute) little Yorkshire terrier with a cracked toe.

The cat, Bagheera, belonged to a young 14 year old girl. He was so amazing that after he got hit by the car he somehow found the strength to crawl into a gutter to hide - he also crawled out of that gutter to his owners repeated calls. It's times like these when I'm not sure why cats are so resilient. He was so far gone and treatment was going to consist of three surgeries and cost over $7,000, so they decided to euthanize. It really sucked to look at that young girls tear streaked face, being just as strong as she could be. So I'm sending my love out to little Bagheera.. and Rachel too. . . Meanwhile, I'm squeezing my own little babies tight. . . trying to find some kind of understanding in a shower of salty tears.

Going through the hell part now of having opened my mouth and said something that hurt someone badly this past Saturday and I deserve every bit of it and much, much more. She is getting her anger out now and I am hanging with her. I am taking every bit of it because she deserves the opportunity to express how she feels about what I said. I will not run off and abandon her again. I am hanging with her to the end of this, wearing my big boy boxers and taking it like a big boy - regardless of what happens.

When I am insensitive as well as selfish and do not think about what I am saying ... there are consequences. I do not want to hurt her like this ever again.

Damn, as she has always said, I can really be a 2x4 butch. Oh, I wish I could erase what I said. Everything was going so good and smooth on Saturday, then I had to go and be a dickhead. :(

Big changes are in the making for me. It does not matter if she decides she will or will not want to speak to me again - I am determined to change this particular trait in me and by damn, I will!

I am just praying we can move past this incident. I do not want to lose her again. I cannot stand the thought of not being able to talk to her anymore. It makes me so sad to think of that.

Will this ever blow over? Last Saturday afternoon seems like an eternity ago. I am stressed to the max. Oh well, too bad - it is all my fault. This one is entirely on me.

I love her.

Happy Day to all you Planet people!

Starting to feel a little defeated on the job hunt
More applications and still no responses
Beginning to believe the older you get the harder it is to get work
Does experience not account for anything anymore these days

However, I will continue to keep the faith and pray because that's all I can do

Like Wolfy, a jobbie job is on my mind.

if i asked you to chase me, would you?

:moonstars:

Watching 'Hannah Free'.. hoping that when I'm older, and my hair is turning grey, when my wrinkles from years of laughter give away my age no matter how vainly I may try to deter it, that I'll still be loved and be with the one I love, no one stopping us.

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Originally Posted by ravfem (Post 191244)

if i asked you to chase me, would you?

:moonstars:

for about a block maybe

I'm running out of sweets in this apartment.

Danger, Wil Robinson!

Quote:

Originally Posted by scootebaby (Post 191407)

for about a block maybe

that's right, cause then i'd leave you in the dust as i speed off on my trike!
:girlonatv:

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Originally Posted by ravfem (Post 191430)

that's right, cause then i'd leave you in the dust as i speed off on my trike!
:girlonatv:

and u would get about another block,turn corner,hit curb,go face first over the handle bars,forcing me to feel horrible bc i wasted what lil energy i had chasing u the first block..so i could do nothing but lay there laffin so hard i might actually pee on myself

Quote:

Originally Posted by scootebaby (Post 191437)

Dear Jo,

Please bop her upside the head for me?

love,
rhonda

That I am tired of seeing these spiders and them scaring the life out of me!

Quote:

Originally Posted by ravfem (Post 191244)

if i asked you to chase me, would you?

:moonstars:

That would depend on where the final destination is

I mean what fun would it be to have both of us running
if there's nothing waiting for either of us when we tire out and stop

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Originally Posted by ZimmygLrL (Post 191533)

That I am tired of seeing these spiders and them scaring the life out of me!

Please keep all your spiders away from Oklahoma......just saying :|
I'd rather play with snakes at least I have a better chance of knowing which ones are poisonous

Maybe I'll get the job offer this week. Maybe it will be at a reasonable salary. Or, maybe not. Trying to adopt a "what will be, will be" attitude. I'm no Doris Day.

::biting nails::

On the eve of the Day of My Birth - what will 8:15am tomorrow morning bring?

:candle: