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Something i have been struggling with for a couple of weeks now.. Hearing my stepmother talking with her friend, at work under her breath.. & laughing at me as i was undressing in the girl's locker room. i have lost a considerable amount of weight, however i need to tone my arms, because i have loose skin happening... But how my stepmother ever thought that i would be okay overhearing her chuckling at me, saying how could i ever be comfortable showing that & then shivering like it was the most disgusting thing in the world. While i know i've still a ways to go with my weight, it saddens me that she picks on me like this and not even to my face but rather, behind my back.. (or well, attempted to)... While i have distanced both her & my father for about 3-4 weeks now (& this was a VERY good decision for my own well-being).. It's difficult to truly distance her when i work in the same building as her.. i don't like my body, however i am learning to LOVE it - and as my confidence grows, i'm learning to shake things like this off .. i still love them, wish them nothing harsh, but do wish them some peace of mind and some love in their hearts to not have to be so miserable and not be so judgemental.. life's too short.. But now i know, distancing them was indeed the right choice for me. |
Whitney..............
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When someone my age passes away, for no apparent reason. That makes me both sad and angry.
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Me too, the passing of Whitney Houston. Too young, too talented and her daughter still growing up.
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Someone very dear to me suffers with alcoholism.
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Hearing about Whitney Houston's death.
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Comments made by people online about the attendees of the Grammy's.
The words *chipmunk cheeked, too fat, or anorexic, not soft enough, looks like a man* when speaking about the women. THe comments about the men were about their clothes. :| PISSES me off. |
While this journey of mine is a good thing, it's hard to accept some truths.. - how my compulsive overeating & eating disorder has affected the people around me.. - the food issues my own children have, because i haven't taught them differently.. & they learned from example.. - having to make amends with people (family & friends), ways i have hurt them, pushed them out of my life and lived in my own selfishness within my disease. - finding forgiveness, realizations about some people in my life, and of course, the ultimate - self forgiveness.. - lastly, admitting my wrongdoings in the past & making necessary changes to my life.. While overall these are good things, it's hard not to be sad about the person i was.. It's embarrassing and i carry a lot of guilt..my Dietician offered me some good advice today, however.. You cant feel guilt for things you had no power over, didn't know or just didn't know any better at that time.. You can only feel guilt for things you know were bad, but still did them anyway.. Learning that has really helped me swallow some of these things and open myself up for working on them & the forgiveness.. i think i might actually be ready - big step. So, the end result will bring something much more than the sadness.. It will bring inner peace, a happy heart & a guilt free me.. |
That my 'dream home' I just bought has suddenly turned into my 'money pit' *sigh,,,it is trying,,, but not defeating by any means.
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Talking with an ex today, and feeling like my emotions have been played with far too long with her ............ I ended it today, but it still hurts :(
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My Great Dane, Molly, died suddenly today. She was a rescue, and had a horrible life before she came to me. Despite her hard beginning, she was the sweetest, most affectionate, most loving dog I've ever had. She was approximately 8 years old, and although I know that is quite old for a Dane, it still wasn't enough time with her. I miss her terribly and I can't believe my big, gangly, funny, sweet, beautiful horse-dog is gone.
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Feeling betrayed :(
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Always2Late losing her beloved dog today :(
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That we almost had a donor.. :worried:
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Knowing that some people have only ill intent. :(
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Text say " I am sorry you are a wonderful person, I know she is out there waiting for you and not trying to change you"..:-(..REALLY..grrrrr
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Cancer.......and the way it sucks the life out of you.
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Knowing my little mom is having a really rough time right now, after surgery meds have made her even more confused.
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The person at the store this morning who ask me for money. He had this sad story about taking his mother to the hospital last night and her dying this morning. Blah blah blah as he went on rambling. When he finished I said Phillip, your mother has been dead 12 or 15 yrs. Yes this was someone I knew. In the shape he was in, he didn't recognize me and I didn't recognize him.
Very sad how drugs can ruin the life of a good person. |
Comments made by some people online here about the Bible who are in no way experts. "The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are to be Spiritually discerned."-1Cor.2:14
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