Think-age...
 

Texas A&M shooting....

This was actually by Texas A&M. A guy was getting an eviction notice when he opened fire on the officers and bystanders killing three. He was killed.

I wonder where four or five twenty dollar bills went to in my washing machine when I accidentally washed my wallet today? Maybe I should take it apart?

A friend who hasn't returned my texts since last week after an epic fail of a camping trip where we spent the whole weekend arguing. I miss talking to him.

I just googled "homes for sale in Antartica"

I think I'm supposed to be a nun..jk.. trying to find my calling..making a career change is tough.

making a home, a family, a life together

metaphorically speaking... direction and speed - maybe getting a gps, a map, more gas, new brakes

a realization - profoundly aware of my journey

hmmmm... an observation - when i get lost in thought i don't capitalize

Going home to cuddle with hym! Having coffee with hym this morning at work.

Wondering if my Pookie, left us a present in the apartment :|

Zimmeh

Ugh. Don't know where to start - especially because I need to study. But, so pissed off at my ex. I know - once you're an ex, no expectations. But I phoned her last week to come and stay with me for a couple of weeks. My blood pressure was not good (too high) and I was freaking out because the doctor said that the xray showed my heart to be a little enlarged. Not even mildly, just slightly (I think that was supposed to make me feel better), but still ... pretty bloody scary.

I got three different delays from my ex.

Haven't heard from her since last Saturday.

Phoned her today. Gave me another excuse.

I provided the only income for the best part of three years. She worked for one month. During that time I paid for rent, living expenses, made sure she always had cash in her wallet, put up with her bad moods, put up with no sex, put up with little conversation, put up with so much. Anything we did I paid for.

I'm trying really hard not to let it get to me - trying to get the blood pressure down and I need to focus on my studies. But still ...

I'm really :badmood::angry:

tomorrow's appointment...
no dancing for me for a while and no jumping in mudpuddles!

I have a job interview monday for a management position at another correctional facility. I'm so very excited! Need lots of positive thoughts!

I found a flea on my chi chi! I know what this means...oh man...

I am applying for a new job. It's an actual job where I get paid every 2 weeks and have benefits! I have been a freelancer for the past 2 years, and it has definitely had its ups and downs, but been awesome and I love it. This new job is a supervisory position where I would be faculty at a community college managing a staff of interpreters, scheduling them, monitoring them and helping them improve their interpreting skills. It also a position that I could mostly do from home, only having to go to campus a few times a week. This scares me because I feel like I'm gonna be bored! Right now, I'm zipping all over the city all day going to different assignments. The thought of giving that up to sit at home and schedule kinda stinks. But the pay is OMG and benefits, yay! So, I don't know. I have never been one to be a supervisor. I am way to laid back but it might be a good change. I guess ill have to see what's in the cards!

That's on my mind :-)

Smiles

Change
 

I am really good when it comes to change but.......

I have made some big changes in my life right now and have more comming and this is a really good thing
I am letting my child fly solo and this has been a long time comming go figure I would feel guilt
I am also not sure about having a femme roommate I have been trying to find that line in helping out and doing all the "Butch" things but need to be careful not to blur the lines and have anything taken the wrong way. I have never lived in this type of arangement and I think I know why......... I have to hold back and I do not like the feeling so I need to change this, I will fly solo too
Time to refill the coffee and ramble on in my mind sooooooo much in there

on my mind today is my mother.. my biological mother who on 16 Aug 1976 died in a car accident in Auburn Ca. She was drunk and she drove off a cliff. I am very torn today She was never close to me but I think it was her way of saving me she knew how screwed up she was now as a mother myself I think I see just how great her sacrifice was I was angry for many years the last thing II ever said to her was "I hate you"....

Sex
 

Sex is on my mind right now, well its on my mind lately. Its been a long time, and I find that I am really craving a good dirty romp. I even miss talking dirty lol. I never thought a person could 'miss' sex

What's on my mind...

The Folk Festival will be in town next weekend, Friday through Sunday. This IS my most favorite event this city offers and I thoroughly enjoy all aspects of it. I've volunteered twice in it and have attended every year. I love music and festivals.

This week is the setup week and the downtown area will be hoppin' with the preparations. Crews will be out errecting the four stages, setting up the bigtop tents, unloading chairs by the gazillions and the porta-potties... hOOOOOly crap!! (no pun intended)... hee hee

Something I completely forgot about is the big riverboat cruise ship that docks on the river. OMG I bet it's there already!! I love that damn thing and how it's lit up at night on the water :) Last year I was hanging at a local pub (the one I walk to for karaoke every now and then) and a couple of guys were sitting at the end of the bar. I walked up beside them to order and we got into a little chat... that last for the next three days off and on. They were crew members of the riverboat. I wonder if they are back in town/at the pub... Maybe I'll walk down there tomorrow evening after work. Not tonight, I'm too tired. Hope I'm not tomorrow :blink:

A pondering question ....
...do fish drink water ?....

I think I accidentally discovered the root of my insomnia. I think I am allergic to Vicodine.

I use to take alot of vicodine when I was setting up the store. And I couldnt sleep at all. I was up until 9am and then would sleep only 3 hours until noon.

then the store opened and I wasnt taxing myself physically so i didnt need vicodine. I started sleeping better after the store opened..I attributed this to working.

Then I overdid work and needed A vicodine. I took ONE last night. I was up all night. tossed and turned, itched like a junkie, wide awake and miserable. It was so noticable because all the immunity I had developed, wore off and just ONE made me stay up again until 8am...and I had to get up at 10am.

Damn I am tired...so very tired...

....my car
...my next MRI and follow up neurologist apt..

....how much I'm going to hate going back to work tomorrow ...

A New Begining
Trust
Love
Family
Respect
Respect
Did I say Trust
Did I say Respect

Maybe I'm wrong in this thinking... Maybe I'm expecting too much from others... but........

When it is stated that the to-go trays are for the leftovers to be put into so that meals can be passed out in the evening to the kids living on the streets, one would think these trays would have a serving of "each" of the various leftovers to offer variety... NOT put all the cole slaw by itself in three containers and all the beans n' rice by itself in another three containers!!

It's not rocket science people!! And NO the bread doesn't sit on top of all of that... It will get soggy!!

OMG would you really eat that crap?? Then why in the hell would you degrade the kids and fix it like that for them???

Grrrrrrrr :angry: I'm pissed!!

Oh and to top it off... I had to redo all thw crap you left behind... which means waste of materials, extra time I wasn't up for today and salvaging as much of the food as possible to make it as presentable as possible. Inconsiderate... why work in a place like a homeless shelter if you can't have compassion?? :sigh:

HaD my job interview today. I feel good about it. Thank you all for the good wishes! Now, I just cross my fingers and wait for the news!!

A hug would sure feel good right now.

I am about to lose my mind... sweet baby jeezus. would somebody please explain to me how to log off of here via iPhone??

and trust me when I say this.. the log out button does not work. /-:

I just tried it and it worked for me ... What's it saying.

I got very absorbed thinking about another topic here. It is this one:

Would you date someone who believed in God?

I've given it thought on other occasions too when it has been visible on the front page. Hmmm, still don't have the answer yet ...

I think when I see it, I let it work my mind too much.

Oh well, no femme on the horizon ... don't have to answer anything today. :)


Came back and edited:
I think that topic is a trick question. *grin*

So much is on my mind... In fact, too much....

Enough that I got myself ready for an evening of overnight. I walked to work only to be asked by the staff on shift, "Who are you filling in for?" I answered, "Well, not exactly sure but I was on the schedule." Needless to say, after looking at the schedule downstairs I was a week early. Handed in the keys and walked back out.

I could have gone to the pub again, which I had stopped in before the supposed shift to say hello to a couple of friends, but I saw one of the kids was in there singing karaoke. I'm not exactly sure what I am supposed to do in that situation but I just didn't feel comfortable having a drink and whoopin' it up with my friends only for the kid to go out running her mouth later...

Now what to do...? I'm wide awake and still got a shit-ton on my mind :blink:

It's 10:30
 

Getting in the car and going to the store...craving for Jelly beans and Twizzlers,


or making popcorn.

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Wanting to know where to find the rules book on where I can/can't should/shouldn't post on threads....

Nevermind I found what I think I am looking for....
Off to do some light reading I guess :blink: