my mind is on the tragedy

putting on my apron and starting some gingerbread cookie baking


:cookielove::chef:

Awwww!! I wanna help!!! You know how much I love to bake and spend time in the kitchen.....
Any openings for cooks or bakers at Crones Cradle? *Smile

Chicken wings and steamed veggies make everything better...

no one ever gives fruit cakes anymore. I love them! But they have gotten a bad rap and I cant even find them for sale! of course, I rarely go out to buy anything. My grocery shopping is even minimalistic. I hit the meats, grab some pasta, some sauce, head to the milk and bread isle, go get the frozen vegetables and fruit and grab some animal food on the way to the check out. I dont brows or "window shop". I go in and go out.

I guess I have to browse to find me a fruit cake..lol

Chocolate milk... And how I never seem to make it out of the kitchen with a glass if I have it. The same goes for apple juice.

Dumb dog playing in the rain... I'm glad she had fun. I, on the other hand, did not.

A girl.

Music.

The other dogs.

A wall.

a certain woman. weird. *shrug* life. intelligence. likable. smart. great conversationalist.

Taking someone by the wrists and pushing them against a wall while pinning their arms above their head and kissing them senseless.
:eyebat:

my aunt makes fruit cakes. she is 90 and still cooking. she always gives me a fruit cake for christmas. if she only knew how fruity i am!

I may have forgotten how to breathe yet again for a few moments there....

Well, sleep was on my mind. That is until I read Blade's post. Now I have coconut and strawberry ICE CREAM on my mind. :| If only it was not so late and cold to leave my home and drive to the grocery store. Good night.

Honestly I'm so horrified by the CT tragedy that I'm trying not to become paralyzed by fear so I can send my son to school tomorrow. As a parent and an American, dear God, I cannot understand why automatic weapons are legal. I support my President in saying gun reform is long overdue!!! I cannot identify whatsoever with a gun mentality, BUT if you must have a gun, you cannot have a gun that was designed to murder human beings. The Constitution never guaranteed that right. The laws must change.

I was trying to sleep, and listening to the weather on the roof. Since I work for the power company, it starts to occur to me that the sound of the wind and pounding rain is escalating. So, I look at the weather online, and now I have this on my mind....Hello Winter, welcome to the Portland Metro area...I have a feeling there is some overtime in my future...:|

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I am more in love with music than I'd been before. That song absolutely soothed my soul. And the video was fucking HOT!

I've had to remind myself several times in the past 3 hours how to breathe. Something takes my breath away, and I'm lost in it.

It's been awhile since any music has caused that. Or any simple words. It usually takes action for that to occur.

My mind is wandering. Sometimes i just cant grasp why others are so cold.

This Is Wonderful
 

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

New International Version (NIV)

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

:candle:

Cuddles and a nap....

My oldest daughter turned 19 today. So bear in mind, my mindset is stemmed from there...

I remember being a kid. Sitting at the breakfast table with my little brother and sister before school...or on weekends. Sitting there in our jammies and slippers. Eating and talking and laughing together. That's how we started out every single day.
It never occurred to me then that things would ever change. That there would come a time when we WOULD NOT be all together. That we would some day have to arduously PLAN to have time together.
Now that my girls are grown, it's become the same premise. I have to plan to see them. They come over around their work schedule and what-not. But it's just not the same. And I know it never will be. And part of me knows this is how it's SUPPOSED to be...the other part wants them to be 5 again...

the melancholy that is motherhood...:rrose:

hitting the auction tonight, so i can nosy around..

The same thing that is always on my mind this time of year... worrying that everyone likes their presents and that I gave enough.

Missing my Dad... He always LOVED Christmas, and would be beside himself with excitement about only having a week left to wait! lol

I am wishing today that I could invite in some of my friends that live here... that I know will be cold and hungry for Christmas. I am acquainted with a lot of the street kids here, the underprivileged, and the homeless. I want to be able to just invite them in and feed them...

However, I moved in with my parents... and their spirit of charity... doesnt extend that far... That's a hard thing for me. I believe the ones who need it most... aren't going to be just like you, they are going to have problems... its not my job to judge how they got where they are, or if there are things they should be doing differently... its only my job to give, because I can... Going to have to find a different way to do that this year.

What is on my mind....

I have so much to be thankful for and yet all I can do is think about the crap, the sad, the disappointing. I really need to get a grip on it. One more sad note before I try to reverse the process... My sweet grandson was sickie last night. My daughter said he threw up 5 times in a 3 hour stretch and had a round of diarrhea in bed (with his sidekicks, mom and dad) and didn't say anything. Okay a chuckled at that just a little :giggle:

She hasn't answered me back since and I wanna know how the little guy is doing tonight. :eyebrow:

Now to think of fun and happy to reverse this crap mood I have fallen into... My Spritz and the general will be coming on Friday and we have a holiday to enjoy together!!

Excited for all the plans we have made so far... tree hunting. tree decorating. gift buying. gift wrapping. breakfast out with a BFP friend. Christmas Eve with the family. Christmas morning for the Little Family. And so much more............

Yes I will sleep on this and - reverse the curse - of diarrhea on the brain. :blink:

Change.
Music.
Plotting and planning.

Tonight my mind is busy...
I think of what the job has in store for me tomorrow; the vet appointment that Ginger needs so badly; the picture I need to get done by week's end for my license; the cookies still unbaked; the way my Father sat forward in his seat all night as if he had pain; the tired look on my Mother's face; the thoughts that this Christmas may be the last one shared with them. For some reason, all of these thoughts keep me overwhelmed. It builds anxiety, uneasiness, and tension. They are not thoughts conducive of sleep which is what I need more than anything. For that reason, I must put thoughts on the shelf for the night. Right now I will focus on the present. Ginger is ready for bed. Mom and Dad are already there. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, but every ounce of my being needs sleep. Therefore. What is on my mind?? Sleep. Good night BFP Friends and Family.

I think I have the flu. I hate sleeping alone. I dont wanna work tomorrow. I'd whine and cry but I dont think the dogs care. I need softer tissues. :(

Bring on the snow day...

The storm heading my way
The inner storm I am experiencing
The beauty and intensity of some storms
I really dislike, nope I hate sleeping alone

See Me...keep it for Me...feel Me.

Light Me up. :candle:

cookies are on my mind, flour on my apron..it's a tradition I bake every yule..it's a goddess thing:candle:

Puffs with lotion are awesome. Puffs with vicks work great too if you are congested. But not so good if you have to wipe your eyes. Don't ask me how I know. :)

The apt. I have in two hours

The apt. I have on Friday and oh how I am wishing to much snow will fall between now and then to justify a reschedule of that one.

The lack of sleep I have had this week and how I am hoping that is going to change again soon.

Wow can you believe Christmas is only 6 days away.