I am so excited for Christmas this year....yikes 6 days!!!! I have only six more days of throwing away advent calender chocolate!!!!

Also wondering when my soggy balls are coming in the mail from Gren....I get all teary eyed knowing Gren cared enough to send me her soggy balls..wipes tears. Wondering now if I can return the favor with an extra kick. Thinking coconut flakes might do the trick for the extra texture lol

great minds think... well, I made some with coconut flakes. :)

ala Leonard Cohen
 

"...i did my best, it wasn't much
i couldn't feel, so i tried to touch
i've told the truth, i didn't come to fool ya

and even though it all went wrong
i'll stand before the Lord of Song
with nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah..."

The nightmare that woke me

she is as always

You are actually

Wow this just may be one hell of a storm

Think I am going to try sleep again but wish I could take a pain pill right now.

Why I keep getting up at the ass crack of dawn.

i'm sitting here wondering if i should spew out whats on my mind, or should i just let it go..
i would like to trust that the truth will set you free, i'm thinking sometimes im not sure if doing the right thing may end up in a demise of sorts...

i just dont know what to do..

My son is having nightmares. He is waking up screaming and crying, frantically calling my name... Its so hard to get him settled down after and he is so scared. I don't know whats causing them or how to help.... he ended up in bed with me last night, and neither of us slept very much.

Ten trillion things...my mind is racing today.

hmmm does this avatar make my eyes look too big?

My fever broke.

Then it came back.

She is...

A lot. A whole lot

How I can put my whole entire foot into my mouth at the most inopportune moments....:goodluck:

iPad's
 

I am thinking I want a iPad mini for my birthday. What do people think of them? My MacBook Pro is heavy so I thought it might be easier to carry around the iPad. Can I do all the same things with it? Does anyone know the answer to these questions? This is what is on my mind.

wish came true, it snowed:rubberducky:

Date night....:byebye::firetruck:

I had to get up early today...and luckily I have an internal alarm. But I woke up at 4am (I think) when Teddy got up for work...but I managed to get back to sleep....I was having a dream...don't remember what it was about now....but all of a sudden the brain alarm started going off. But instead of saying wake up....it kept saying " you need to grow up now! You need to GROW UP!" That got me thinking....my brain is capable of misspeak?? It's all so very odd to me...

But I did wake up regardless of my brain being silly and strange...and just in time to hear my ex knocking on the door, which was the reason I was having to get up early.....so my brain was right...in a sense...and maybe more than I know...hmmm Much to ponder....

:glasses:

That a holiday room can be filled with family and friends and one can still be lonely. So odd life is. That if the right person is not sharing the room with you on the holidays... that nothing else really matters much. Not complaining at all. I am very grateful for my friends and family. I know some that will be both lonely and alone...and oddly..laughing...I may just vacillate between which setting I would or will prefer over this holiday.laughing I am. So, alone and lonely sounds pretty darn preferable to me. I am still a very lucky man.
I am hurting and sorry for those who suffer just the basic needs. The cold the hungry the homeless and the lost. I pray they receive what they need.

And happy holidays planet.

I'm thinking seriously of getting a French press for my considerable coffee needs, rather than trying to replace the Keurig we got that has FAILED and disappointed me.....
My employer is a chef and I talked it over with him and it seems rather easy and straight forward and takes no mechanical skill whatsoever. Which is good, because I am AWFUL at making coffee. I always get the ration of water to coffee wrong. The only coffee I DIDN'T mess up (besides a Keurig) was percolator coffee...there's definitive lines for coffee and for water and properly ratioed. As an often hyper logical and analytical (BFP spell check says that is spelled wrong but I double checked and it's RIGHT...go figure?) person, I like specifics.
Long story short, since my brain is finally tired and I'm rambling.... we are getting a French press...yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!

:hangloose:

My intuition.

Sleeping bags, camp gear, New Year's Eve and fire trucks

On my mind
 

Pancakes and checking out the cook!

I'm worried about a friend

I need to finish wrapping gifts

The tree still needs decorated

And there is some cleaning to be done

We R????? When??? Is this ur letter to Santa??*

to say the least, if all this rain was snow. we would be buried alive

its thundering/lightning on xmas eve...

...situations
...feelings
...ideas

Alzheimer's.
Alzheimer's and family members.
Being in my skin right now.

After a call from my Dad this morning, I am heading to Tucson with Justin for an intervention. He is suffering from major mental health issues since my grandmother passed away 6 months ago. I am hoping I am not going to have to put him in the hospital to get stabilized. I am so grateful that Justin is here and being my support. She went through losing her mother as well, so she can talk to him. My friend from San Diego also recently lost his mother two months ago and is in Tucson as well and said he can talk to him too. So, hopefully we can get him some help.

Merry Christmas!

I'm contemplating what to work on....
I've several projects in the works.
I'm contemplating on dinner.
I vaguely remember breakfast some 10 or so hours ago.
This summer is on my mind as well.

Last year at this time, I spent Christmas Eve and all Christmas day holding my dog, bear bear, trying to keep him alive. The morning of the 26th of Dec. I had to let him go. He was not just my pet, he was my service dog, and my friend. I miss him still, and not a day goes by that I do not think of him and how much I loved him. :vigil:

Today, I have my Sadie and she is wonderful. Shortly after Bear passed, I discovered that Sadie was in a high kill shelter and due to be put to sleep the very next day. I got her and brought her home with me. She was in pitiful shape but I could see the love and kindness in her eyes and knew I had done the right thing. I think somehow she understands about Bear.