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I really want to watch Sweeney Todd & Edward Scissor hands tonight. Other Tim Burton films are acceptable. I am also thinking about the unexpected change of events that happened today, the smell of this tea, shopping and laying curled up feeling at ease.
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my head shave fundraiser is on my mind....just want all to go well and make alot of money to help...
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Have you ever had a day when you just wanted to get away? Not just a mini-break or vacation...away from all that you are? I have those from time to time. Today is one of them. I'd like to step out of myself, out of my life. Just be someone else, or even better, no one...just for a little while. Almost a sort of mental holiday, I would say. Just...a break. No worries, no fears, no longings, no desires. Nothing negative, just neutral. Just for a short time......
I don't have these days much anymore. Once in a long while, in a blue moon. Yet today I'm having one. Maybe it's just me. |
Some really precious moments in time.
A few memories that sparkle & shine like little diamonds of yesterdays. Dreams that came true even if for just those few moments. |
Got a call from the hospital, saying my son is back in there with pneumonia. About to go over to the ER :(.
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You might be amazed if I listed even part of what id on my mind right now.
I wonthbut I will say the predemonant thing that is on my mind right now is the dream that woke me up |
How much I am missing Him. How I have been gone only 24 hours and I am so home sick it brings tears to my eyes. Thank goodness its only 2 more days and then I will be back Home with Him. Yes, He is now my HOME, Indiana will only be a place where my friends and family live...with Him and our furkids is where my heart is, where I am happy, where my life is lived, where I am loved and love, He is my Home. I love you baby
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Told my goose last night that I did not get the permotion and that I am no longer a corporal she cried in my arms it about broke my heart. She knows what it meas and with the changed to my days off and her school I will not be able to see her as much. And I will be having to work overtime to make up for the large pay cut. Today she and I are going to see our horse Skyler to say goodby Sky is going to a new home where I know she will be loved and spoiled it makes it a little less had to take but ... Still do not know what shift I am being assigned to my commander was to have called yesterday to tell me but when he did call he just wanted to have me make a appointment to have my uniforms get the stripes off and arrange at time for me to clean out my desk area when I ask about the shift and days off he said he did not have his notes but he was going to make sure this wan not hard on my family I started to laugh god he is a pompas ass
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trying to put "pieces" of this house back together ~ not knowing where to start ~ a child's ?'s I cannot answer ~ breaks my heart ~ his little heart so confused ~ he looks up in my eyes and offers his help ~ and begs me to pick up the phone ~ I take the blame for his missing pieces ~~ I remind him of this weeks sign up for little league :) ~~ a diversion to heal ~
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Waiting for the other shoe to drop. |
On my mind...
thinking about the frozen-in-time aspect of online communities. Love is documented in all its phases, from discovery to disentangling. Arguments can be revisited, jokes relived. |
This is so true...how it grows and changes right before our eyes.
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Im missing a certain little man. I wish he could go with me today and ride horses. I miss you little man !
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What to make for lunch!!! I'm thinking red velvet pancakes...
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the journey and being ok with knowing I am on it although not clear on where it'll take me
how much I love my itunes collection if you can get dehydrated from crying how one moment my heart can ache and the next I can be clear and joyful and feel blessed even for the pain |
A new job offer, daydreams, sorting/packing, a talk I know I NEED to have, conversations I want to have, going dancing, doing things for ME and quietly keeping my attentive eyes focused while I let my energy out to play in a constructive way. I am also thinking it will give me great pleasure to enjoy a home cooked meal all to myself.
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I'm at a place in my life right now that I never would have foreseen even a year ago. It's so incredibly exciting and new and different. It's not exactly what I hoped or planned but that's ok. I'm not afraid. That's a really, really good thing. I have this deep sense of calm and knowing everything will be alright. :)
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I didn't get to go to bingo but I did get to go out to dinner. Sitting in a Greek restaurant, waiting on my food and looking around, I noticed the folks sitting across from me. There were two sets of adults (one set on each side of the table) and two teen girls (sitting side by side). What caught my attention was the two teen girls, roughly around age 14-15. One was dainty, long blonde hair, and dressed in a red floral dress. Beside her, the other girl was taller, dressed in a sweater, dress pants, and dress shoes, with hair buzzed fairly short.
I didn't think much of it at first. Then I noticed that each time the parents were involved in conversation amongst themselves, the taller one would turn to the blonde, wink, and they would both share that "knowing" smile. I'll admit, I'm a nosey person lol Throughout my meal I would occasionally glance over at their table. Most times, the two girls would be holding hands under the table. Then, towards the end of the meal, the taller one became more bold and placed her arm around the shoulder of the blonde. The blonde froze for a moment and looked almost fearful, glancing at the parents. Then, both sets of parents smiled to the girls and (not knowing what was said) the whole table was laughing and cheery. The girls both seeming perfectly at ease then. This surprises me so much. In my area, where those in our community are so frowned upon/bullied/hated upon, these two sets of parents gathered in a public restaurant so that their teen daughters could have a date night. You could see the support from both sets of parents. You have no idea how very much this warmed my heart. THAT is my idea of a Hallmark moment. <3 |
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thinking that theres just something im missing and trying to remain positive but something isnt just right....that little voice in my head isn't so little tonight, its screaming duck!!!
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I found out today that my gf can walk on water! Wowzeramamanana
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I found out last night that my step dad has stage 2 bladder cancer and has to get his bladder removed. They are going to rebuild him another type of bladder out of his bowels but he will have to use the rest room every three or four hrs due to not having the sensation. My mom found out she has the HPV virus and had to get pieces of her cervix cut and removed. I wish I could be there for them, I might have to make an emergency trip to Cali in a couple of weeks. Sighs. |
Plans slowly coming together. A little more one day at a time. Cautious excitement building as a result. And dreams.
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thinking of all those hurting tonight and sending them warmth and prayers for healing light and peace.
thinking I have strong arms to hold gently those in need of comfort and safety thinking I have ears to listen for those who need to be heard Thinking I have understanding and joy and genuine concern My heart goes out to all my brothers and sisters, friends, crushes, non crushes, all the daddys and girls, every he, she and me's, all the flirters and those who dont care, those taken and those broken. May your head rest soundly on your pillow tonight, may your dreams be vast and clear, and most of all may you all know that someone is thinking of you and wishing you only the best that the universe can imagine for you :moonstars::praying: |
Today is my Momma's Birthday. She would have been 91. She has been gone from this world for almost 20 years come this March. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I have never gotten over it.
I love you Momma........ Your Tomboy |
why does the weather app on my phone keep telling me I'm in Cleveland? ... Did I make a trip I don't know about?
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I am still flying high from my burst of energy earlier. I am so happy today was a wonderful day. I got to go shopping and socialize at a flea market, I cooked a wonderful meal for myself, spent some time with friends and got all of my paperwork done!
Tomorrow is going to be another amazing day. I can feel it. It is on my mind. I'm a little nervous but it's nothing compared to the excitement and freedom my confidence is beaming. |
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On my Mind...Today's great happenings!
A wonderful horoscope, a great meditation, some pleasant conversation, memorable family time while sharing a meal, homework almost done AND with enjoyable class conversation on the discussion board to boot! I got cuddle time with my pup, a gift from my sister, and have thoughts of a car inspection and oil change tomorrow on a day when the roads are to be bad and I do not have to leave the house (they pick it up) AND I have the day off tomorrow so I get to stay nice and warm inside while the weather is blustery outside. Have I said the most important thing of all yet?!?
I. Am. Blessed. |
The quietness, my mind feels unburdened, my heart feels light
my dog is happily snoring his little heat out My tummy is full of yummy soup I am truly blessed. not for anyone thing But for what I call my life-what an amazing gift I am thankful for all that has been taken and all that is left behind... :) also some friends, crushes, peeps, buddies, etc... |
Grateful for friends helping trace ancestry!
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That hy is safe on hys travels back. What it means to build our family and the changes to come. That our time together is a blessing even though we are more than ready for it to be everyday.
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Thanking everyone who sent me good wishes and healing.
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I stumbled across a video a moment ago...
And about hit the floor laughing... Funny stuff there! It may be my new favorite. |
I am so tired. I could say I don't sleep good, but at this point I pretty much don't sleep at all. I toss and turn and flop around so bad that pretty much everything on the bed ends up on the floor, including the bottom sheet. Restless shit. I'm TIRED of being TIRED.
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Waiting for a job offer...
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