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I spent several hours today with my friend who has brain cancer. We talked about that deep dark subject that is so difficult to have with someone who is terminally ill. Death. He is a former marine and his favorite saying is BITFO - bring it the fuck on - but since he underwent the cyberknife treatment his brain is swelling and it's affecting his vision in his left eye. He also doesn't have much strength in the left side of his body. He talked of how he was an instructor in the Marines and he went all over the world training marines on jungle warfare, how to climb/survive on glaciers, etc and how he taught these soldiers how they could do anything. And he could do anything. Anything. And now he can't do anything. He couldn't even close the car door. He is facing death. And while he is doing this he is still so kind, so positive, inspiring. We went out to dinner and in the middle of dinner he looks at me and says, "I'm so glad we came back together (because we hadn't seen each other in a long time before this past summer)." I am left bitter, angry, inspired and sad. And rather sobered as it makes me realize even in my difficult times I'm not facing death. But when I do I hope I can handle it with the grace and honor my friend has.
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Happy it is another day....and best of all...ITS SATURDAY! :)
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A friend up in Maggie whose mother passed away early this morning...:vigil:
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***dictar sentencia***
you'll never know the one who loved you so, cause you don't know me. |
......my next canvas..............
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I just wanna lay right here with you...
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Phinneas cannot stay with me. He has a high prey instinct. He chases the cats and nothing I do will stop him. The one cat puts him in his place but today, he cornered old limping kitty Smitty..who has not front claws. Had I not been home, Smitty would not be alive. I will not do this to my old man cat. I have spoken to the woman I got him from. We put our heads together, I spoke with my niece who has been looking for a second dog for her boys and she begged me for him. The former mommy approved. My niece has a dog from the same place he came from (designer dog shop) and same kind so they will wear each other out playing. Her boys are 8ish and 10ish and responsible (I babysit them) and are very good with their dog.
Sighing. The right dog at the right time....will come. I have faith.... |
Renewing a friendship that never actually changed. Best friend for life.. Priceless. :sparklyheart: |
How wonderful it is to live my life in real time with real people, in the real world !
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Memories... Beach time... Hanging out in strange places... seal stalking... Zydeco band... seeing my best friend in her hometown element... big trees... roadside waterfalls... bridges... scary hotels... crazy rain... Face rock... light house...
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How much I give up...
How, one day I will learn to listen to my gut. How, I have finally burned all the letters to my soulmate I have ever written. I feel like a kid who just found out santa clause doesnt exist :) |
gas prices
I bought gas in Mass. full serve yesterday for $3.24. Drove to R.I. today and price at self serve is $3.48. Looks like a long expensive summer coming. |
Gas in California is $3.79 :seeingstars:
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Going Home!
While it was good to get away from that psychopath I work for this past week, get some professional development done, visit a great industrial facility and absoutely fantastic to get to visit with some of my California friends, I'm really looking forward to going home on Sunday to my beautiful wife and our fur kids!
Glynn |
on my mind
april....:wine:
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Apple Pie
I baked a fucking amazing Apple Pie last night. Finally. I love me some Apple Pie and no one makes it better than me! ;) :cracked:
If anyone thinks they can do it better... I am willing to take on your challenge! ;) |
My BFF is getting a divorce. Her husband is a alcoholic, but refuses to get help. We begged him at Christmas to get help. I have seen behavior from him that I would have never believed if someone had told me about it. I guess she finally got to her last straw.
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This darn vertago I get,that I also take meds for has been rocking my boat today,on and off I feel like I have a good buzz going but I havent had a drink in forever.
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