If you really knew me....

You would know that I don't give my heart easily.

You would know that I don't like to hurt anyone.

You would know that I don't like to be hurt and will try everything not to feel that emotion if at all possible.

You would know that I cry but that my subconscious makes me stop shortly after starting.

You would know that although I may be persistant, at some point I do give up.

You would know that I hate to be ignored.

You would know that eventually I get it.

You would know that I pay attention, even to the littlest of details.

You would really know that I care, a lot.

If you really knew me im lazy at spelling words out.
That i put my friends and family above everything.
Im really shy but give me time ill be a goof ball get u to laugh.
Im a technology freak i love any new technology.
That im a gamer and will act like a kid 70% of the time.
That i love music but will listen to more country than other genres.
Im more solitude than anything and hate crowded places.
That im a really simple person and will make due with the smallest stuff.
That i go straight in with out thinking (which got me into alot of trouble)
Only a select few can read me, i like to watch people try and read me.
That im alittle opposite from online than in person.
I dont drink alot so when i do i ge drunk faster.
Im a middle child of 6 and a big daddys girl growing up, and changed when he died to who i am now.
That ill go out of my way to help friends family and work.
That i like to observe people before talking to them or observe people in general.
That ive mellowed out compaired to when i was growing up.
That i can stay quiet for long periods of time.
Ive met my best friend min at a place no one would think of.
That i look not so friendly at first but really i just wanna know how u react.
That i listen and help as much as i can.
That thanks to my family im a jack of many trades.
Im a "class clown" i cant be serious for very long or make a joke when it to serious.
That i have a really short attention span and short memory but i also have photographic memory (idk how that is though)
That i will keep some stuff more private than others.

I Y R K M ... you'd listen.

If you really knew me im lazy at spelling words out.
That i put my friends and family above everything.
Im really shy but give me time ill be a goof ball get u to laugh.
Im a technology freak i love any new technology.
That im a gamer and will act like a kid 70% of the time.
That i love music but will listen to more country than other genres.
Im more solitude than anything and hate crowded places.
That im a really simple person and will make due with the smallest stuff.
That i go straight in with out thinking (which got me into alot of trouble)
Only a select few can read me, i like to watch people try and read me.
That im alittle opposite from online than in person.
I dont drink alot so when i do i get drunk faster.
Im a middle child of 6 and a big daddys girl growing up, and changed when he died to who i am now.
That ill go out of my way to help friends family and work.
That i like to observe people before talking to them or observe people in general.
That ive mellowed out compaired to when i was growing up.
That i can stay quiet for long periods of time.
Ive met my best friend min at a place no one would think of.
That i look not so friendly at first but really i just wanna know how u react.
That i listen and help as much as i can.
That thanks to my family im a jack of many trades.
Im a "class clown" i cant be serious for very long or make a joke when it to serious.
That i have a really short attention span and short memory but i also have photographic memory (idk how that is though)
That i will keep some stuff more private than others.
That i'll spend more time with technology than people sometimes when i dont want to be near people.
That i cant cook to save my life but i know how to use the microwave and grill :p
That when people get the chance to want to get to know me i surprise them and have them re-evaluate me.

If you *really* knew me...

You would know my ringtone on my phone is Cazwell's "Ice Cream Truck", has been forever and I will NEVER change it! EVER! Even when I'm 80! *jammin*

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IFYRKM...you would know to ask.
That I live be a set of principals I have no problem defending or explaining why not I earned every scar that came with those principals.

IYRKM....you would know to ask!!!

IYRKM... you would know I have a life off this thing and there is a real person typing these words.....

....you'd know my breaking point
....you'd fight with me
....you'd fight for me
....you'd know I say what I mean and I mean what I say
....you'd know I do it when its hard, because its hard....especially because its hard
....I will fight to protect my family
....I have immense patience
....I wouldn't have to say it
....I know how lucky I am to have such a great guy and girl that fight for me
....you'd see how much that girl has grown under me, and how proud of her I am
....those dogs are the heart and soul of me. I need them like air
....there are 4 others, besides a Bear and a girl, that I say good morning to on a daily basis
....I am constantly amazed by....

If you really knew me...You would know how badly I need a hug right now and why.

IYRKM you would know how strong I am

IYRKM you would know that doesn't mean I am made of steal

IYRKM you would know I am old school and would say good night to you before sending a text to you that says gnite

IYRKM, you'd know I'm very sensitive and it's really quite easy to hurt me
IYRKM, I have more scars than you know
IYRKM, you'd know what I crave
IYRKM, you'd know how willing I am to give the shirt off my back to someone who needs it more
IYRKM, you'd give it back to me.

IFYRKM you would know that I only tolerate the online environment

IFYRKM you would know that I am a very stubborn person and that can be both positive and negative

IFYRKM you would know that I would buy your favorite cologne to wear just to see you smile

IFYRKM you would know I will go out of my way to find creative ways to build memories together

IFYRKM you would know that when I say you honor me I mean it with everything I am and it is the highest compliment I can give

IFYRKM you would know that I would rather hear your voice then see your words

If you really knew me you would know I love like no other
If you really knew me you would know I fight things when they are hard I dont give up, I dont give in, especially the hardest of things
If you really knew me you would know im not as strong as I act
If you really knew me you would fight for me
if you really knew me you would know I am scared
if you really knew me you would know how badly I see mysel
if you really knew me you would know I am a complicated person

you'd know I'm afraid to love again... and why...

Its ok to be scared to love its okay to be completly terrified and I dont even have to know why you are.. just know this community is full of people that will lend a listening ear

If you really knew me...

... you would know I take a long time to understand whats right for me... because I always look for whats right for others...