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On My mind: Sometimes your intuition is dead on. Scarier still, when you receive confirmation from friends (old and new) that you were right. It can be a blessing and a curse to have that intuition I want to have faith and believe. Yet in the end you can not ignore what is plain to see.
Acceptance again and drive on!! Focus on the good..re-read those notes that make you smile and feel some type of way. Then check that dance card..and answer your friends texts..*laughs* Oh and if I hit repeat on My iPod one more time I might become convinced that I NEED to dance to this song. |
getting involved in some volunteering and attending the Asheville Shambhala Meditation Center.
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How to rearrange the furniture in my living room to make it more warm and inviting.
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...at the moment, massive amounts of confessed thoughts...
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What's on my mind.Vertago straight up,whay I have it I am still trying to figure it out.The ent says I have calsium christals in my ears,to do rotational exersises to reset my gyro.B.S I say cause even tho I do them(exersise ) and take meclazine I still feel like a drunk some of the time,this is not cool.
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What's on my mind...simple You are .....:blush:
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What's on my mind...
As of this Wednesday, I'll be all alone for 7 days! Whatever shall I do?! I guess a whole lot of lounging in the pool, spending evenings in my pjs reading and watching trash reality tv :) |
I went on a road trip with my friend Terry on Saturday. She had to bring her sister some things left behind. While we were leaving, her sister happened to mention something about spirits. When we got outside she said that she was reading people again. Apparently she did it many years ago but stopped because her husband didn't like her doing that.
Long story short, I asked her if she saw anything good happening in my future. She immediately went to my abdomen. She said that I was going to have some problems there. She knows nothing about my history of cervical cancer. I could really tell that she was actually seeing things. Most psychic readers that I've met never really convinced me, but she really did. I asked if it was cancer and she said that she wasn't sure, but they would be keeping a close eye on me. Now I'm wondering if this is going to be soon, or far into the future. Another thing she told me is that my mom came to me in a dream and she was touching my hair. The last psychic told me the exact same thing. The last one also told me about problems that I'm going to have in my abdomen area. I'm guessing colon since I had an obstructed bowel last year, but you never know. |
On My mind - recent conversations - and how when you have them they open doors to your own thoughts. Sometimes they dredge up things you have not thought about for a long time. Conversations that make you pensive and smile. I like having conversations that make you think of good things.. that make you smile.. that make you realize it is good that you woke up today... and no matter what comes down your path... you were still given the day.
I am pretty damn happy to be alive !!! Life is good !! |
can i call myself pajama rich
or is that something others have to think about me |
So many events,fees to be paid,permits,uncle Sam. :bedfuck::dogwalking::playingcat: YES in that order
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How notes (no matter how you receive them) can make you smile. :)
What a relief it was to get some snail mail from a friend of Mine who has been going through a rough time. I hate the feeling of being helpless and wanting so much to help and realizing sometimes all you can do is be an ear to listen. Sometimes things are truly out of our hands. That when you think that everything happens for a reason, you have to believe it and not just say the words. Also how thankful I am to have experienced what love feels like. To know what it feels like to say those words and mean them. To know what it feels like to be loved back whether that love stays or goes. I woke up this morning thinking I am pretty happy and that no one nor nothing can touch that unless I let it happen. I refuse to let it happen. |
On my mind...
Everything I have to do for Thursday and than next Wednesday and Thursday. It is Pride week next week and we are building a 35 foot float in our backyard. People coming and going and trying to get my own stuff done and organized for shows during all the stress my girlfriend is under. It keeps my mind spinning. |
What on my mind
My cell contract is up the 6th of June. I want to switch carriers, but I can't decide who to choose. Sprint, AT&T, Tmoble, US Cellular. Do I want to sign up for a two year contract? What about those prepaid/monthly plan thingys?
What to do, what to do :phonegab: |
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Lately I have been in a seriously grumpy ass mood. I don't even want to be around me. I know I am PMS'ing. :whine:
Even my wife is annoying the f*** out of me. I know "this too shall pass", however, lately, she has me wanting to poke her in the forehead! |
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Change. Do i want it? Am i willing to give up what I've done? Do i want a challenge? Is this the right time? I've been thinking about this for days now. What will people think? Will i be happy? What do i have to lose by just looking? Maybe this is exactly what I'm looking for. .. this is what is on my mind. I've seen some of that change going on here. It's given me things to think about. Thank you :) |
VACATION!!! This day can't be over with soon enough!
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Whats on my mind.. The saying people come into your life for a reason, how many times have I heard that and thought that myself. It is true they do.. so that leaves me with so many things on my mind.. do I take that chance? Do I do what I really want to do and trust it? I feel like it is right but then in my mind I know all things come to an end .. the only question is the when and why,not if it will end,all things end!
Sometimes I worry myself,I am so easy to just follow my path where ever it takes me.. I know I will be all right I always am. Then I remember that death is quick, who does my child have if something happened to me. The ones I have chosen to care for her if something did happen to me, but dang I am way down here away from anyone close to us Every since my bestie passed, I am more cautious now.. it reminded me I am all my kid has that's it just me. But then their words enter my head.. I think it is coming from the heart and sometimes it feels like just what I need. I have a lot of thinking to do on this I feel. But all of me just wants to throw caution to the wind and take flight.. I know who I am I will always be alright. funny how someone says something not truly being serious, then the more that seed takes hold in their mind the quicker they mean it and want it. That is how I feel like it was just being funny and friendly then all of a sudden it became real. |
On My Mind....it seems to be a theme...change. Some fear it..others embrace it. To Me it is inevitable....while we might not always be ready for it....we need to have acceptance of it...and deal with it as it comes...sometimes the best things in Life are a complete surprise. :)
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I for one am completely floored and honored by the surprise that popped in my life and I am going for it! I have made my mind up. Now to break it to my best bud here, He is really upset at the thought lol And that was just me casually mentioning I want to do it. I am blessed by good people in my life |
what 2 days from now represents...
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Can't sleep....clowns will eat me :|
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Someone should tell you a good bedtime story so you can fall to sleep!!!! |
If you're the praying kind, please pray for my daughter.
We were in emergency all night, and still no answer as to what is wrong...hard time breathing, chest pain. She's 19 God, please help us find what is wrong. |
Never enough
Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm not quite comfortable talking about some things, but I need to get them out. I need answers. I know there are no answers.
I want to know why, no matter who I meet or date, they always say they are fine with me the way I am. But inevitably they leave or lose interest stating that I am not trans enough, not lesbian enough, not straight enough, not male enough, not female enough, etc. I get it. They had a preconceived idea/expectation of who and what I am. I don't like it, but they are being honest in what they want. I lay no blame. Then there are the ones who seem to be interested but then leave after having sex. They just wanted to 'try out' a trans person. They wanted a story. They treat me as an object, a toy, a novelty. They don't want to get to know me. They don't want to take the time to see what a great person I am or the type of relationship material I am. Those are the ones that hurt. Those are the ones who never cared or were interested in the first place. I *rarely* do casual sex anymore thanks to those people. You have to be pretty damn special to me for me to jump into bed with you and even more special for me to want to take the time to get to know you, or let you get to know me. I may flirt a lot, but unless you really have my attention, it doesn't mean anything. I guess I'm tired and a little bitter or discouraged. I almost want to give up trying to catch someone's interest. Almost. I'm not intending for this to be a pity party. I just needed to vent and get it off my chest. |
My assignment with Estee Lauder is wearing me out.:blink::|
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Working on my list. I have all the things written down that I would like to do for me. Whether they be things that are good for my soul, health, or just make me feel beautiful. Some days you just have to give yourself some love!
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I'm finally settling into my new house and relocating. I'm really missing my San Diego peeps and would love to fly back there for pride. I just can't find anyone that I trust to tak care of my dogs. I have a little while... But they are my priority....
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"Suffering is a great teacher because you never know what you might become after you work through it… Which is why every life is worth saving."
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the worry that is heavy on my heart and knowing I could have made better choices to influence less worrying. (w)
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I am training my dog, Lily, to rise above her natural predator drive.
I think it is starting to work. This morning she started to go after the neighbors cat and I was able to stop her and ask her to sit. It took a couple of corrections but she was able to maintain. This is progress because before we started formally working on the issue she couldn't even hear me when there was a small fast moving thing about, let alone a cat. I think that there is no short cut to this. I just have to keep putting her in situations where her predator drive is triggered and ask her to focus on me instead of what all of her nature is telling her, oh and carry high reward treats with me. It is a big responsibility having a dog with a high predator drive and a lot of bite force, I guess the training and refining never stops. (She is an American Bulldog/Boxer mix) |
On my mind...
My brain says sleep.... My body says breakfast... I have been up for 3 hours already... I could really use both..but not at the same time.... |
what isn't on my mind lol I missed her I am glad she is back. I know I was missed too :)
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Ughhhh... On my mind is how tired I am. Waking up every hour on the hour until 2 am then getting up at 5 doesnt bode well for my 9 hr work day. I need a nap...
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I don't know how many here are on the political track of what's going on with the government or the police brutality, but my son sent me a video that he made on youtube and it's absolutely mind boggling how bad things have gotten over the last 10 years.
I'm frightened for the teenagers of today and the parents of tomorrow. What they face is scary at best. I pray for our future and the future of those being born today. |
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We found out that my daughter is Anemic! She is receiving medication to remedy the problem, along with Iron supplements on an on-going basis. Who knew it could cause so many problems! |
On My mind..customer service...or lack thereof. I am trying to be patient and wait for this return call. However, I have a deadline..and it impacts My dream taking place. I know, I know if the deadline is missed it will only push Me back a week...but god, I have been looking forward to this. I hope the return call comes soon.
In the midst of it all...I still smile...I have good reason...I am blessed beyone measure....and the best part of it it all...is that I realize it. :) |
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