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CIJS tomorrow begins 10 days of being completely unplugged!
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My girl (f) is having a rough couple of days at her job :( and there is nothing I can do for her :( besides listen and remind her that she will be here in a couple of weeks for a few days off and that I love her and I miss her so much.
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What is on my mind right now is a lesson I am learning from several friends who attended my bbq this weekend...
... just because you are liberal... does not mean you are open minded.... and it certainly doesnt mean you are right... ... by deffinition, if you believe one thing to the complete exception of all other possibilities you are CLOSED minded... even if that belief is an enlightened one... if you do not leave room for new information, new possibilities, and other peoples beliefs and ideas... you are NOT open minded... just because the end result of a current action is not satisfactury, does not mean that all the parts, ideas, and basis of that process are flawed or without reason... revolution, if that is your intent... should be meant to preserve the pieces of our existance that still work... and are WORTH saving... not to completely change the world as we know it and anialate everything that is... that, is simply finding a different form of destruction for society... compromise, passion, and loyalty are the keys to change and understanding... |
Unfortunately since it is late way to many things are on my mind right now. Like how people think that respect is automatic and not earned. How easily you can loose respect of others if you loose sight of who you really are and don't stick to it. How much I am missing people right now and although I am not "alone" just how alone I feel sometimes.
How much I have laughed today and scratched my head because of this site and a thread or two. How grateful I am for those times and those threads. More importantly how appreciative I am of the very real people on here that have touched me and continue to do so. How I need to shut my brain off so I can go to sleep since I have to be up in 6 hours and I am so a 8 hour sleep kind of guy.... :moonstars: |
How quite the world is right now One can almost feel the Love and Harmony |
Your behavior is Not Attractive
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What is on MY mind? The question begs, what ISN'T on my mind...
I can't stop it, it's like a runaway train in my head. World events and the ad nauseam that is this pop culture crap I keep reading about everyfreakingwhere. Seriously, we're one thin hair from going to war with Syria but the big news is Miley Cyrus? Little minds with little thoughts. And what IS twerking? I could Google it for myself but short of this passing thought, I'm really not that interested in knowing. And on the lighter side of the same coin [thank Goddess!] I have a brand new heartbeat that is really a friendship caught on fire and isn't that just the hottest kind of fire there is? Yes it is. And the pièce de résistance though... we're having a wedding this weekend! And there just isn't anything in all the universe I would rather be doing than that. See? Monkey mind. My only wish is that sleep would find me. And now I'm thinking about that too. Signed, Mother of the Groom |
Saying goodbye to the sweetest little brown bundle of doggy ever.
She slipped out a side gate that the wind had blown open and was hit by a car. I held her against my body the whole drive to the vet....trying to drive and comfort her through the tears. She loved riding in the car more than anything, so I kept whispering that we were in the car! Going for a ride! And that it was ok for her to go to sleep if she needed to. I thought maybe she would make it. But the vet came out after only 15 minutes to say she had passed. I still can't believe my little Rue is gone. A piece of my heart has gone with her. |
what is on my mind::
early morning phone calls, me being cranky this morning oy just bleed already! after some sleep I am back to my sweet sassy self. weight loss has halted due to pony time and its ok. texting off and on all day getting to know each other slowly, learning the quirks of each other. sometimes LDR's ain't so bad NO need to worry bout me life is fucking great I am in a great space, getting to know a good guy, I am healthy, my bills are paid and my kids are happy. |
knowing that in just over a week, my Daddy will be going back to the States and i may not be able to see Hym for 3-6 months or even longer ............ how does one deal with that kind of heartache? i will be one big mess of a little girl when Hy goes away :'(
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Since I've been declared disabled I decided to let my body find a natural cycle, because the only things I HAVE to do are usually doctor or PT appointments. After three months, keeping in mind I have four pain meds and a pain patch, and sleeping disorders.. my body chose to go to bed around four to five AM and wake up around one to three PM. I would prefer to wake up earlier and go to bed earlier as well, but I'm allowing my body to make choices because I think some of the healing and dealing with the pain will be easier if I'm not fighting my self in the process. What I'm trying NOT to think about is that some of my favourite places to eat stop serving breakfast at ten a.m.
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Sharing my 'vision of hope' at tonight's meeting.
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31 years... of experiences, lessons, laughter, tears, joys, fears, and discovery... and I am just starting to see the beauty that is inside of not only me, but every living thing around me... I am blessed to have so much before me...
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Jewelry making...So many ideas....So little time...
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Hi Holly, Do you do any lampworking? I'm asking because I bought a kit a while ago and just dug it out. I'm excited to get creative and give it a try! Any advice for a beginner? :). |
A sexy blonde...:cool:
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I definitely will! I am really excited about it. :). I'm eager to play with the blowtorch, too; lol. Maybe I should up my insurance before I start....
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6 days without internet/email/connection to outside world.
Luckily, I will have something to keep me occupied! |
Floors, walls, plants, mowers, mirrors, tables, sinks, shelves, gloves, books and hot water.
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In less than three hours, there will only be twenty days left until I meet my baby at Dallas Love Field for the flight into Little Rock...I cannot believe how time is flying by!
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Chat with Syr, coffee at the kitchen table (what is substituting for a kitchen table), my puppy running around and "borrowed" internet, all in my own new place.
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I am so very happy for you! Congrats on your new home! |
What is on my mind....
Okay, most of us know that getting older can suck at times! It is just me that's been getting these weird little white hairs on my eyebrows and on places on my face? They are really starting to bug me. And some of them aren't that little! My fave is the one that likes to grow on the right-hand side of my nose. And the only time I notice it is when I am in the sun and I have a face full of make-up! Ugh! I am sorry for the butch or ftm that is looking at my post with an odd look on hys/his face.
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So last night, I was working on the computer and chatting with people til around 3am. I finished working on some coding for my blog and realized my AIM was blinking, at 4:15am? and when I switched over, I saw random letters blipping along. So I realize my friend Wayne or his wife might be up, so I ask Wayne? No answer but some more blips. I ask Wayne, are you okay? Nothing. So I'm trying to decide if I wake up my wife to get his phone number because I know she has it somewhere. After a few minutes Hi comes across the AIM. so I'm like Hi! Are you okay? other end reads Yeah, I'm good. and then a few moments later, he tells me it's my friends Wayne and his wife's boy. So we talk and talk, he's twelve mind you. Talked til his bus got there at 6:20 for school (ungodly hours). Before he left, he gave me his email and asked me to email him later. Later his dad logged in and we had a great laugh about it, he had read the history. Kids are so brave these days, with so many opportunities to do so many amazing things. I'll email him tomorrow I think. I could use a new penpal.
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Next weekend!! Planning his birthday surprises...he's going to have a very "interesting" week!! ;)
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How a very calculating, cunning and deceptive person confused the heck out of me and I let it happen. I am disappointed in myself. In addition,not only did I hurt myself...I hurt others because I couldn't see through the fog.
I made a really terrible choice. Sorry for the negative share. Just the truth. Needs to be acknowledged and honored. |
Today was the first time my insulin dependent cat bottomed out her blood sugar. That was not pretty. She was staggering around, stumbling in circles, looked confused and lost. The honey was not working to get her blood sugar back up. So, off to the emergency vet we went. Her blood sugar was down to 30. So she got some dextrose, was a little perkier when we left there. Now she is looking sluggish again and just not acting like herself. I'm thinking we are heading back to the emergency center soon. |
Glad I didn't second guess myself about bringing the cat back to the emergency center. She started twitching before we left and was in full blown seizures by the time we arrived there. It's been a long freakin day. |
On my mind..
Service to Syr my Leather F/family my heart and how the cracks are slowly filling in His smile and laugh (infectious) foofoo and her arrival right into my arms Wondering if this is my ULTIMATE test of patience. ~ le sigh... boy style. |
The emergency vet called the am. I love when they do the good news/bad news thing. Kitty apparently had a decent night with just one episode of dropping her sugar again. But they have been maintaining her on dextrose iv and she is eating, and peppy with a bs of 200 this am. The bad news is they don't know why she keeps dropping her sugar and want her to go directly from their icu to my local vet. They also want to leave her iv port in for the 20 minute trip. This way, if I have a problem along the way, I can administer a shot of dextrose. :| When they told me this, my mind suddenly flashed back to that tv commercial....I am not a doctor but I play one on tv. My tarotscope this week said: SAGITTARIUS FOUR OF BLADES Rest. Please rest. You are going to need the down time at the beginning of this week. Heed your body. Time out. Love the irony Arwen. :) Ok time for me to play Marcus Welby. |
little buddy update
Thank you to all who have inquired about and sent well wishes for my lil buddy. She spent the day at the vet and has done well. Her blood sugars are up and holding. She hasn't needed any supplemental dextrose. She is eating, drinking, and fighting with the cone around her neck. I have never been able to keep a collar on this cat. Not sure how she hasn't found a way out of the cone yet. If her next blood sugar is ok I get to take her home for the night. Then she is back to the vet tomorrow for another day of monitoring. I swear if one more person tells me "no insulin until further notice" I will be forced to hurt them. If her next blood sugar is not ok, it is back to the vet hospital for overnight monitoring. Good thing there was nothing on my credit card. Last nights treatment alone was more than my mortgage. |
Choices...
that is what is on my mind,
Have I made the right ones in my small world of happiness.?? I don't know..? Now, it is comfortable and satisfying..? Another choice I made I do not like..! Not comfortable and satisfying..! What is left now is the waiting..? Then I will know/feel if I made the right choice..? time..? how much is there..? :candle:..? |
I watched the movie 42 last night. Still cant figure out how I feel about it. And its bugging me. On the one hand, I like baseball movies, especially historical ones. And, this one has made me look for more info on Jackie Robinson the man, not the ballplayer. On the other hand, it felt very much like a movie to make white people feel good about a white man who gave a black man the opportunity to break barriers in an all white game clearly in an effort to win a World Series. And, it showed how the white guy put in some safety nets but overall left it up to the black man to deal with the crap and basically prove himself worthy of acceptance. The reality turned out well but I cant help but think Jackie Robinson could have just as easily ended up swinging from a tree. I dunno. Maybe it was just to sanitized for me. |
What is on my mind?? I am questioning my sanity. I have a dishwasher for the first time in YEARS and I am still washing my dishes by hand. I am such a creature of habit.
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Coffee is wonderful. But coffee does not take away the fact I thought about how long it's been since I've been on a real/true date. Bummer city.
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What is on my mind::
Life is NOT about flowers and everything sparkly as much as I would love it to be.well maybe. we took our 9 yr old to therapy Tuesday I believe it will be something that is going to benefit her. She is so sad sometimes, cries talking about her older sisters and some of the people who were very important in her life but are no longer there due to death or relationships ending. Sad when kids get drug through it. I would take back the past 6 yrs for her if I could. Sadly I can't, hopefully it will turn her into a stronger girl. to hear my daughter tell her therapist that she did what she did because no one cares anyways broke my heart :( harming herself before she is 10 freaks me the fuck out. so glad she didn't succeed :praying: |
The concept of karma.
Knowing that eventually, people will get what they deserve. Their actions will come back to them. |
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