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On my mind: Years ago, a woman at my old job transferred to another department and proceeded to broadcast loudly and widely to everyone in her new department how bad her old boss "sucked" and how evil he was and also talked mad shit about almost everyone in her old department.

Well, lo and behold, the department she transferred to abruptly shut down a couple of months after she transferred there because the managers in her new department failed to properly manage the place and the entire department was just basically a fucking mess.

She had to do the walk of shame and reapply for her old position in her old department knowing that her old boss knew all the shit she talked and knowing that alllllll of her old coworkers knew what a gossipy, negative asshole she had been about them. Good thing for her that her old boss allowed her the grace of returning but God, can you imagine having to eat your own pile of dog shit like that?

Heavy on my mind lately how people's actions come back to bite them squarely in the ass. :glasses:

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That babysitting an 8yr old boy can be exhausting. But Grandma and mom needed to shop.

Lately what's on my mind is how much I am craving the feeling of being held in someone's arms... how that act can feeling can fill a void you don't realize is there... and how that void can exist no matter how happy you are with the rest of your life.

WOW my day was so made when a really sexy, beautifully blue-eyed (trans)guy messaged me on a dating site...totally unexpected, very welcome and really flattering- instant crush material to the MAX!

I am thinking I might be a little jealous... my dating site pages never get hits...

How bad my right hand hurts right now after boiling water jumped out of the pot making homemade chicken soup and attacked me.

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hmmm... satisfied at the moment where im at ..... relaxed ... at piece with in

Wondering when it will be that I no longer have to say "bye" to my girl (f) and waiting to see each other every 2 months or so, but not knowing exactly when.

Thinking how she is such a good woman, amazing. That all the things she has been through (still goes through) and the way she has treated people in her life, always thinking of others first, that she deserves to rest, relax and be happy now and for the rest of her life.

I am more than happy to spend the rest of my life with her, giving her all she deserves.

It's her time :)

I love you SS (f) xo

Right now thinking how much I wish that I had more late night friends that had my digits so I could text and maybe stay awake or laugh or hell just b.s. about nothing and lose track of time doing it.....

How to handle my kid telling me she doesnt want to live with me anymore...

I understand her reasons, and I get that in some ways it would be a lot easier on her, her brother, and me... but damn that shit hurts. A lot.

I need some rest and am so ready to go to work in the morning and write some software. Among other things, I moved 19 pieces of plywood off my truck and into the back yard today. They were all 6' to 8' long and an average of 2 1/2' to 3' wide. I need to pick a couple of splinters out of my hands but will wait - they are not going anywhere LOL ... and I am so sleepy.

daughters that rage at their mothers cause it's tough out there and who else would put up with that kind of abuse.

2014 is on my mind. Will celebrate 10 years with Red. Red is 5 1/2 years from retirement. I am on a mission to be debt free in 3 years and still enjoy life. I am very focused on every opportunity I have in my job and have learned how to set myself apart from all of the office drama!

I am making every effort to make sure I participate in all of my families celebrations. Red and I have committed to a date night. We realized we didn't have a junk night to do whatever we want. I am excited about the unknown!

I am drinking hot cup of tea before bed. It relaxes me and I sleep better.

Tomorrow is what I make of it and what I give back is more important.

Motivation is what you bring to your day!

it's cold outside, i'm tired, maybe i should go to bed, the painkillers have kicked in, why do the dogs cover the entire heat vent when they lay on it, maybe i'll go have a quick smoke, hot chocolate sounds good...but too much work, what day is tomorrow.

that pretty much covers it

Flying to Dallas this afternoon.

It's going to hit over 40 degrees today, no more planes sliding off the runway.

It's raining, a cold grey rain.

I'll take a shuttle to the C to the A to the AirJet. Better take an umbrella.

that I need to go outside and clean off my truck , then go shovel out the end of the drive where the damn snow plow closed me in :blink:

and how damn cold it is outside that it takes your breath away


and how a good morning Daddy! (text) made me smile

excuse me ?
do you happen to know what time it is ? *smirks*

Damn...I want a glass or two of wine...but I just took a strong pain killer....dammit

Today, my thoughts have been dominated by the future... and preparing for things that may happen. I have been feeling the urge lately to insure that I am indeed headed in the right direction in life. I feel like I am at a fork in the road, with many choices. Among those choices are dark and dangerous woods, treacherous waterfalls ending in deadly, jagged rocks, and rickety bridges with gaping holes over pits of poisonous snakes. But, I know there is also a challenging path that will lead far and high, that will test my resolve but ultimately fulfil my dreams.

Some words and actions from my family, my biggest support system, today have brought the path I am on into higher question in my mind. Am I depending too much on their support to make it to that mark where I can take off on my own? Are they in fact keeping me back from that goal? Is there a way that I have not considered that is a better option?

I need to reflect on all of these questions, I need to look at the direction I have chosen and also look at the other paths that are available. I need to make some big decisions… and soon.

It's beautiful sunny out but numbing cold. the dogs are content and warm...the chickens and baby guineas are busy and enjoying their warm water and sunny spots ....I have a ton of chores to do ....wish I could curl up in a sunny spot

Dreams are...

... how vivid they were, again. How much they said, without saying anything at all. It helped to clear my mind, to refocus me... I still know some changes need made, but I am feeling more confident again.

The power of positive thinking...

... I know everyone’s life goes through ups and downs... and recently mine has been very crazy and stressful. Not bad, not sad... just stressful. I have had a lot on my plate and finding time for the every day things that make life easier has been getting harder and harder.

Well... after a complete breakdown last night, a listening ear, and a pretty long nights reflection, I started to remember a few things I used to do, years ago, when I was having some serious self-esteem trouble. I used to start every morning with affirmations. They were posted on my mirror, in my car, on the front door, the fridge, and the dresser. Everywhere I went I saw positive things about myself and pretty soon I started to think them even when I couldn’t see them.

So... This morning I got up, came to the planet with my cup of coffee, and went to an old thread... inactive for months now... and posted my daily affirmations. I started my day with positive thoughts and what happened today was amazing. I had a wonderful day at work, I didn’t feel stressed, overwhelmed, or frustrated even in difficult situation. I came home and finished a task I have been trying unsuccessfully to complete for over two weeks, I had a wonderful conversation with a friend, and I ended my evening with a smile.

I needed a swift kick to get myself in gear, but whatever it took… I am very thankful for the power of positive thinking.

I'm going to a women's lunch meeting at our new Church today, and i'm really nervous. I have a VERY hard time going alone to new places/events, and even though the Chuch family has been the most welcoming folks we have ever encountered in a Church anywhere, my fear is nearly overwhelming.

I must push through this fear, i must.:praying:

http://www.theguardian.com/commentis...ction-inhumane
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My car's been sitting in the driveway for 3 days now in way sub zero weather while Ive been playing word games and posting on BFP. Tonight it's dropping to -27. Ive an early appointment in the morning. I'm worried it wont start though I suppose it's too late to start worrying now.:praying:

I am thinking how ironic life is or is it the Gods and Goddesses testing my staying power once again. When I had all the free time in the world I was single it was not funny. Now my part time job has officially turned to fulltime plus. Which would be no big deal usually but then throw into the mix that said job is on graveyard and 10 or 12 hour shifts. All grand and don't get me wrong I am more than grateful to have the job. Now the ironic part is I am no linger single as my status and flirting obviously makes clear. I am one lucky bastard to have the two special women that I do in my life (yes they know about each other for those wondering). However both of them if course work first shift which normally compliments graveyard bcs we are sleeping. Yet with the longer shifts I work my schedule is get up eat get ready go to work. Now that my life is falling into place I sure don't want to loose either of them due to this crazy schedule. So life is ironic it seems to be nothing on any front or all fronts are hitting me at once.

On my mind...sleep ...sleep was not successful last night ...

Craving