What is on my mind?
 

I wonder if the window fixer dude will really come in the next 55 minutes. Its like 3:05 and he isn't here yet. He was going to come a few weeks ago, but that got canceled and moved to today. I hate waiting!

i'm trying to focus on what this evening will bring. It's noon and i am still fiddling about in the bedroom getting dressed. i may just settle on the bath robe i have on.

I'm wondering when allergy season will be over...Jeez...

What is on my mind right now is what to do with a whole week to myself.

What is on my mind... A much needed break from the stress for a dew days...

WingsOnFire
 

I am sorry for what you and your family are going through. I will pray that you can get there in time and that the news you hear tomorrow is better than what you know today.

:bunchflowers:

The memories that being around my bio-family unfortunately bring to the surface....memories I wish would just stayed buried...I paid my dues and accepted them as unchangeable long ago...so I think it's past time for these ghosts to stay buried...that is one of many things on my mind these past few weeks.

I was supposed to go over to a friend's for dinner and watch a movie but she called early this morning from out of state and said she was staying an additional night at her brother's. Not a problem ... I can get round 2 of her wonderful spaghetti another time.

Now I am trying to decide about dinner ... narrowed it down to pizza, Mexican, hamburger steak plate from local mom n pops or BBQ plate from BBQ restaurant.

Hmmm ... now pondering which can I get home with the quickest and eat.
;)

Sitting in my room wondering why everytime I try to actually go out and socialize something comes up and I cant. I end up in my room listening to music .
Im never gonna get a date by being in my room listening to music playing xbox lol

It's so nice to share a bed with another person.

I have to get up early... but I really dont want to sleep...

....the antonyms of gullible...

Today I held a month old baby boy......made we wish Id had a little boy......

What is on my mind....chocolate
How much I want it
The different types
Did I say how much I want some
How frustrating it is that I don't have any

Softball, softball, softball!

And maybe a heatstroke...:worried:

"Emotional Contagion Experiment"
 

Not at all surprising, but deeply disturbing....

Facebook Doesn't Understand the Fuss About its Emotion Manipulation Study

Link.

"This gives more fodder to academic Ryan Calo who has argued that companies need to get their psychological studies of users vetted in some way that echoes what happens in the academic context. When universities conduct studies on people, they have to run them by an ethics board first to get approval — ethics boards that were mandated by the government in the 1970s because scientists were getting too creepy in their experiments, getting subjects to think they were shocking someone to death in order to study obedience, for example. Interestingly, the Facebook “emotional contagion” project had funding from the government — the Army Research Office — according to a Cornell profile of one of the academic researchers involved. And the professor who edited the article said the study was okayed by an Institutional Review Board. That approval has led most academic commentators’ jaws to hit the floor."

On my mind is the doctors appointment I have tomorrow. Not because of what might be discovered but because of how I might be treated. I will definitely have to keep telling myself to relax....breath...after all if the worst happens I can always continue to look. As long as I get the two scripts I need the appointment won't be wasted.

I hope your appointment goes well, man. I hate going to the doctor's...

There's a lot on my mind today...some good...some mischievous... some naughty...some happy with big smile...some with pride for accomplishments.. and some for planning the near future...

After an interesting travel day yesterday...I landed in Texas and got to see the Mississippi River from a really cool aerial view. LOVED THAT...
My next two weeks will be filled with lots of interesting travels, choices and decisions affecting my future. Also thinking of inviting a friend from San Antonio to brunch one day. ;-)

Playing an excellent game of poker and winning a ticket into a big tournament in August!

on my mind.....

how life can change in the blink of an eye.....
my youngest daughter and I were in a pretty bad car wreck last night....my car is totaled. We are SO LUCKY that we are only badly bruised....
when my mother got to the hospital, she told me she had been visiting the spot where my cousin was hit by the car and thrown....and ultimately died. Thats where she was standing when she found out about our accident. Its the first time shes ever been there in the 5months hes been gone. How ironic.
All I can say is thank the universe and god that it wasnt worse, we are both walking. Im just kind of in a haze....but feeling blessed and thinking its just another sign that I have more left to do on this planet.

On my mind: I have the week off and am staying home. Want to make a creative visualization collage to help me break some bad habits and re-establish some good ones.

On my mind is how much it PISSES ME OFF to see straight women being interchanged with Femmes in the "desire olympics", especially when done by Butches who, in other spaces, purport to love them some Femmes. (and no, this is not about anyone here and not even a specific context)

Like, we've had this conversation a million times and I can't understand it. I can hear the loud exclamations in my head if Femmes started drooling over photos of George Clooney or Denzel Washington and were like "OMG, this Butch is so hot!!!"

I mean, FOR REAL??

Needing to clean my house before I go on a work trip.... But it's sooooo hard to get motivated on a Sunday!!! Lol :)

Yes, FOR REAL.

I've rewritten and deleted this response about a dozen times because I'm angry.

I'll be back to respond to this when I cool down.

Quote edited for brevity
 

I'm not sure I understand, perhaps because I drool over male, female, tg, butch, femme, etc. I don't mean I want a relationship with anyone from certain gender identities, but I do find examples of "hot" in each group. There are some damn fine people out there, including George and Denzel.

Medusa - Since the thread is about what is on your mind, no explanation is necessary, but I would love to hear more about what you are thinking if you want to share.

Added: Is the issue calling straight men (like george and denzel) "butch"as if they are examples of what butch "should" be? If so, I totally understand why that would piss people off.

Mel-

Thank you for getting it. Sincerely. Yes, my issue is with using a random celeb straight woman as an example of "Femme", not with following your desires to whatever gender they happen to inhabit.

That is one of the things I have always appreciated about you, that you willingly and openly talk about your desires without a caveat or an ounce of shame. And I think finding examples of "hot" in each group is a good way to put it!!

I think the thing for me as a Femme is that our invisibility is really specific. Maybe not as much as it was 10 or 20 or 30 years ago in some cases (because the world seems to be "getting it" on some tiny level about how gender isn't always about sex) but even today, I am asked what my "husband" does for a living when encountering strangers.
It's the "assumed accessory" thing.

So as a Femme when I rub up against "Lady Gaga is a Femme" or "Beyonce is a Femme" or "Damn, I wish the Femmes I know were as fine as ... insert a celeb who is not Queer, Lesbian, Gay, or for that matter who IS STRAIGHT, THIN, WHITE, or RICH" it makes me want to scream, "NO. NO. NOOOOOO."

Most days I just dance over it but yanno, sometimes you just wish people would evolve already.

I appreciate you, Mel. Thank you for the respectful dialog. :rrose:

~M

on my mind
 

Way to much right now. Even through the extreme pain I am in my damn mind won't shut off for even a second. Most importantly it is all crap that I can do nothing absolutely nothing about. Except for one that is which is to finally hey around to giving people my new number. That really is a pain in the ass chore but hey I have enjoyed the peace and quiet of no one having my number for a few days

Ugggg

I better get ready to leave for the funeral. :(

I'm very tired but my brain won't shut down.