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You. And how much I miss you at times. Right now being one of those times.
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What's on my mind??? The dog just scared the living hell out of me and I'm contemplating wringing her neck (not really).
I was at the back of the house playing an audiobook and organizing some clothes in the closet. Where I was standing in the closet I had full view of Gracie as she lay on the edge of the bed. All of the sudden, she stands up on the bed and starts barking and growling with bared teeth and pointing down the hallway as if someone is there. And of course there was nothing out there but my heart is still pounding!!! LOL |
what is on my mind is how wonderful it felt to be completely stress free and relaxed this weekend during a BDSM self identified womens camping event. There was a wide variety in attendance.. trans, gay, queer, bi, femme, butch, leather dyke, boy, boi, girl, grl, Daddy, Sir, Maam, Mistress, he, she, they... you name it there was representation...
It was so wonderful to be able to be that open and free... I saw people I hadnt seen in a year and some I had seen just last month.. I am so super stoked to get out and meet people more often now. I also met some wonderful people from California.. so I want to get to visit them soon as well.. |
Time. I feel like I'm constantly running out of time. I need more time in the day, or something. I don't know how to explain it, but more time or less things to do would both be amazing.
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Even though my kids are going to be gone most of next month, I still have SO much to do. I really hope I can do it all without feeling overwhelmed.
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Right now Friday night
Late night decisions are on my mind. Do I fall asleep listening to It on Audible or do I fall asleep with a Netflix horror movie on in the background. Also I can't believe I finally have a girl that wants to watch horror movies with me...now to figure out the distance thing or learn patience. The later as some of you know has never been one of My better qualities*chuckle*
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SS don't read......
SS if you have started to read, STOP!!!!, you can read after the wedding lol
What isn't on my mind nowadays :blink: lol My girl (f), our wedding, getting everything done (8 weeks away), a letter that had to be sent in the province I live to validate her US divorce, which if for whatever reason we don't get anything back from them/or they don't validate, we can't marry (that letter is sitting in a post office waiting to be claimed UGH!!!!), hotel room misbookings on the management end, the script for the ceremony and our input, a surprise I wanna try to do for my girl (f) at the wedding, my surgery (remove a cyst/abscess from my eyelid that I have had for 3 months), will I still have this job (contract) at the end of the year (hope to become permanent), so many things are on my mind but will stop at that....... |
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The same thing for the last few bed times. I miss the pups even thier bed hogging ways at bed time. Riley curled up at my feet on top of the covers and peppa between my legs under the covers. That is until she decides there just isn't enough room and she moves to stretch put by her momma causing Riley to move between my legs so I can pet her head until she falls asleep. I try to fool myself by surrounding my body wih a body pillow on ine side and a smaller pillow on the other side. Just not the same!! I miss those damn dogs |
So, I'm throwing this surprise birthday party for someone....the party planning? No problem...now the gift is another story...I mean, I'm beginning to sweat because it's this weekend and I still haven't even figured out a present for this picky prick...:twitch:
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All this research, that I so graciously volunteered for, to help out my Uncle with our family tree!
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My new baby nephew. He was born yesterday. 9 lbs 5 oz. :) He's just so cute and chubby. I have baby fever.
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what is on my mind is the changes in my life over the past 8 months. I cant believe it is August already. Making healthy choices ranging from eating better to cutting out negativity in my social interactions to getting a membership at our local community center to continue my pool physical therapy.
It is all coming full circle with the job promotion I received at work about a month ago. I havent been able to begin the job yet because we are still finding a replacement for my position, but I have my first official meeting tomorrow and I am so looking forward to it!! And I am already making the new pay grade so I am a happy girl. I moved to my new office space today and that was great. It is quiet and peaceful. I am getting to know someone I have been friends with for years. I am getting more active in the kink community in my area in fact we have our Pride Leather competition this weekend and I hope to be there for most of the events. Life is really good. They say if you surround yourself with goodness you will get goodness in return. So far it seems to be working. |
How I am going to get a break from work! Without sneaking around to get it.
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What is on my mind... I'm supposed to be asleep.. but I can't sleep. .. maybe it's the 2 hr nap I took... maybe it's the 2 hours we spent on the phone... maybe it's storytime and the way the chapter ended and I know I have to wait until Tuesday to hear more. Ugh I hate not being able to sleep.
The dogs went crazy when I was almost asleep. That didn't help. I didn't bother getting out of bed I knew it was the upstairs neighbor taking his dog out. She challenged Riley once and that is all it took. Now they go crazy when she goes down the stairs. I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep.. hopefully that will happen soon |
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a lot is on my mind. I have been sick for the last week with an acute sinus infection and bronchitis,our youngest has been sick for the last couple of weeks with what we thought was just a cold.. but nope.. sinus infection and ... Mono. .
Ethan has been feeling bad lately but He is a trooper and is taking care of both His girls I feel badly for not being able to care for our youngest like I should, but, being so sick myself it is dang near impossible. On top of this, our daughter-in-law tripped and fell this week while holding our almosy 3 month old granddaughter, and granddaughter's head hit the cement floor so hard it fractured her skull and made her brain bleed a little. She was rushed to CHOA and is home now.. but.. still not out of the woods.. On top of that, The future is unclear in some things, a bit scary, a bit exciting, a lot of uncertainty. . So yeah, a lot on my mind. Come on pain meds.. ready to be knocked out for a bit to stop thinking. |
It's a bad feeling when you come across a photo of someone you went to high school with in a friend-of-a-friend way on Facebook and you go to check out their profile and friend them and realize they died last year.
She was 35. Thirty fucking five. Cancer? At thirty fucking five. I still have photos of us together in high school in all manner of fuckery. Photos of borrowing each other's prom dresses and doing each other's makeup. She was my friend and I can't fucking believe Cancer got her. MJ. I remember you. |
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I have a subscription to the web site, beenverified.com and I've been looking up my former classmates on that. I know, I'm nosey, but I'm not doing it out of malice. I just want to know where many of my old friends (whom I hesitate to "catch up with" because I grew up in the "bible belt" and I know that most of them come from conservative backgrounds) got to. I've found a LOT of them to be "deceased". Now, I know that my generation (later years of the baby boom, mostly born in early/mid 60's) isn't nearly as healthy as the generations before. We tend to have more cancer and chronic disease than the folks before us, but heck.......I'm 53 y/o and so many of my contemporaries are DEAD??? Jeesh, my 92 y/o Mom still has friends, who, at their ripe old age, are still alive and mostly healthy. :thinking: It's depressing. I've got to stop reading the obituaries in my hometown newspaper.....and looking up folks on beenverified.com. :confused: Either that.......or get a prescription for Prozac. :twitch: ~Theo~ :bouquet: |
Finding out the truth about my ancestors
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A shifty event yesterday....
I went to see about buying a car from this guy.... The whole situation seemed...odd. He wouldn't tell me where he lived exactly. He had me meet him at a house that looked empty... He wanted to drive with me to go where the car was ACTUALLY located.. I insisted on following him and he took me here there and everywhere down these country roads. He stopped for gas and while he was inside I just took off...the something-is-wicked-wrong feeling wouldn't leave me. I could be wrong, but I didn't want to find out that I was right...better safe than sorry is my motto. |
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Well we did get the validation from the province and they grant us permission to marry :) (I won't believe we are married until we officially say I DO! and even then....with all the crap we have to go through to be together is insane, probably always be worried that someone/something will take it away :( ) Also have to continue with all our immigration papers so SS (f) can become a permanent resident (THAT is a whole other story, complicate AND overwhelming) Hotel room is booked :) Had my eye surgery and so far so good :) My work contract, well the position has become permanent but I will still have to apply and HOPE that I get it (all depends on seniority and I have plenty but still......never know) Still have to get our "script" to our officiant, we still want to relook at it before we send it in. Okay I will leave it at that, it enough for now ;) |
That I feel like crap from my period! Its like someone pulled out my battery. *blah*
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That I honestly just forgot what I was going to post....oh well either I will recall or it wasn't all that important
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However, this type of selective listening is more irritating bcs it dosen't seem to be as easily corrected as the active verbal selective hearing is. Maybe I'm just more irritated by it due to how long it takes me to type (especially on the phone keypad) and bcs of that I seem to feel more intensely about the words I am communicating. I can also feel my depression level rising due to my pain level and that tends to make me more impatient sometimes. Lovely how it all feeds each other then add in what is turning out to be an unhealthy living environment (should have seen that coming since my family is involved), lack of a supportive non family environment (again shouldn't be surprised mid size town in hickville Georgia afer all), and then throw in a fucked up sleeping pattern topped with a truck load of stress. Got off topic blame it on having to much on my mind..... |
I havent watch tv or seen any news in months. love it.
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Getting another tattoo, yes or no!
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My training as a caregiver came in handy today.
Our neighbor has alzheimer's disease, and his caregiver did not show up today or call. His wife had to leave for work as today was the first day back for the schools in our area, so she ran over and asked for my help. I only had to change one diaper and sit with him on the patio for 1-1/2 hours until the daughter could get there, but i gotta tell you, it felt so nice to be needed. What is on my mind is...i want to go back to work so badly and i can't. Maybe this should go in the what made you sad thread. |
the lack of logic in this world/ country.....
Yep....I spent the majority of my day (off) at the DMV....... Im also wondering if its possible for a brain to liiterally explode....or implode..... |
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How that when one door closes in my life another opens. That when you are not trying/looking Karma and or the Gods/Goddesses will open the right door. The right door at just the right time, the right place, and the correct need is usually opened when you least expect it and are just about to give up. Now all that is needed is the courage to follow the path and actually go through the unexpected open door.
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Ummm what is on my mind, the fact that my favorite pig is going to slaughter, next round up. Not happy over here.
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