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a sneaky Someone. oh & secret works.
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Getting lots of emails about who to doing what and camping where this year at Burningman. Sad this year is out for me. :(
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I have a storm going on in my head right now! So many things it's hard to sort it all out. :seeingstars:
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A lot of things.
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Getting the phone call today that my adopted moms mother died. Basically my grandma. I haven't seen or spoken to her in 17 yrs.Being the bigger person and calling my adopted mom for the the first time in 10 yrs. Offering my condolences. My heart breaking for her loss. Because I know the pain she will go through. And I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.
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What causes things to get screwed up that I really, really, really don't want screwed up. So often, it comes down to communication and feelings I sometimes don't navigate that well. But I choose to keep working, keep trying and keep learning.
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knowing that something as simple as a message not received has completely turned my day upside down. I hurt to know she is upset..and i ache to know i can not take that from her..I want to make it better..but I don't know how at this point. communication ceased..pain commence..just wow.. ya...that all..just wow...:praying:
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Chocolate
I'm jonesing bad for it :chocolate: |
I just came back from an OKC Pride event
I got to see Ant perform on stage, very funny guy I could've sat in the front row with my friends, but we choice to sit near the back, so we could exit quicker when the show was over It was much nicer than all the years I went to events in Chicago Not so crowded or rowdy Which made for a very peaceful night I was going to do the parade tomorrow, but I think I'll just stay home and have a lazy day off of work |
On my mind:
The dinner we had tonight with my old roommate (post college, over 25 years ago) and her husband. It was so great. How much I like the new dress I just got. It's for my wedding. I'm really pleased! Wondering why my hair is starting to get curly. It really is. I've always had straight, smooth hair. Now it's getting rough and wavy--some spots are almost curly. Is it because I'm getting more grey? |
The future...
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My nap was supposed to regenerate me but instead made me a bit cranky.
I've got things to do before Mare gets home and now I don't want to do them. *foot stomp* |
life - where it's heading.. the sheer excitement - the reality, the love.. the way things come together, the plans we make.. the confidence i have and the way He makes me feel - beauty, inner & outer - learning to love my imperfections..and how they make me the unique being i am.. taking huge steps forward, letting go of the past - finding forgiveness for some in my past, finding forgiveness for me.. appreciation - being grateful.. Knowing i'm one very blessed girl in love..lessons, assignments, constant learning and evolving..being His. embracing change , being open to hard lessons, doing the work and making my way through what feels like the biggest challenges on my journey and in my life.. positive outcomes, higher self esteem, growing daily.. children - ambitions & goals, working hard and proud momma moments - smiles, laughter, time spent, responsibilities, achievements & acceptance, love & happiness.. i feel pretty damn complete, loved, protected and blessed in life. period.♥ |
... that I'm happy I ignored my crankiness and pushed myself to get things done. I feel pretty good now.
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Every night this week, I'm taking babygirl puppy somewhere to hang out around others with me. She is depressed and sad for the loss of Sky.
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some anniversaries are just plain pants.
old worn out granny pants. |
in no particular order
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Zarkana - Cirque du Soleil - Radio City Music Hall
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