Self care.....

The white squirrel I saw at the Angel Tree yesterday. It's very rare to see one in the wild. He wasn't an albino, just white. I want to go back with the big camera and try to get some pictures of him.

Finely feeling better after three days of feeling like crap,please let it stay this way...I don't like being sick.

Poker! :)


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Moving or taking another trip to see family back in Texas

Things that ought not be and are naturally are the most captivating. ;)

My little sister...

She's having so many life troubles...and she and my mom are doing the love hate dance that I went through in my teens....

Theirs is a complicated relationship and my sister has a LOT going on....most of which I disapprove of... but I won't be our mother and say that (to her) I just tell anyone that will listen I love my sister. I may not unseratand whyvshe doea what she does but its her life not mine....and I lovr her no matter what. And i told her that tonight....

She is but that happens often nowadays!

Yup just that !

Wondering what crazy dream I will have tonight. I had a nightmare last night. The night before it was a coworker telling me to swallow a button and I would get better. I woke up confused and looking for a button to swallow.

Wouldn't you like to know? :p

I'm really worn out.
My batteries need recharged.
I need to surround myself with positive energy.

Tattoos and piercings!

Thinking about what font I am going to use for my quote tat and what gauge I need to restart gauging my ear with.

My paper that is due at noon that is almost done and my paper that is due at midnight...that I have not started on. I just need to make it through today and the rest of the week should be easy beans.

I'm exhausted. Hope I get to sleep in tomorrow.

Roomie picked out a yellow lab puppy today. Even more work for me....geezus.:|

1 early morning doctor apt tomorrow then an MRI at the hospital...thank goodness the offices are just a couple miles apart...
A specialist apt on the 6th...
A different specialist for a different part of my anatomy next week...
Yet another different doctor the following week...

Then for December, so far, just 2 appointments with my new pain management doc and primary care...

My new doctor really ROCKS!! She doesn't dilly-dally or wait on fighting insurance approvals for a 3 minute visit, and is intent on getting things moving fast with lab work and specialists, to focus on everything I need (instead of just brushing things off). ...

On my mind ...how much is happening, how fast, and I may need a scheduling specialist to help me keep up. But I feel awesome about it, and how I found someone I really click with!

HA! I can't tell but I like to tease people about what is on my mind!

Where's my cuddle buddy? I wanna lay down for a nap and I need someone (human or furbaby) that's like a hot rock to warm me up. ;) ;)

Having to move back in with my folks, health issues with my dad is the main reason and my mom can't do it all.

Hoping everyone that is registered to vote, understands how important tomorrow is. Please let you voice be heard and vote.

Counting sheep goodnight

My girlfriend!! I got home from my trip to a very sick girlfriend and she's now in the hospital. She should be out in a few days. She's lucky I came home because her stubborn ass wasn't going to do anything.

At the same time, my work is working me to the bone :/ Today, 13 hour day, tomorrow 14 hour day. I was able to go to the hospital at 6am for a few hours, but I don't know if I can make it tomorrow. Totally sucks. I feel like a bad girlfriend but I just took a week off my reg job for my side job and I can't afford to take more time off. She understands though. :(

This is absolutely crazy, but I am seriously considering a career change.

As I was getting ready, I began thinking about one of my students. I've been thinking about him a lot. Several times, when I'm trying to teach him to read or write, he tells me, "My dad says I can't read," or "my dad says I can't do it." Each time he says it, it's like someone is driving a knife through my heart. And just now, it occurred to me why. I was that same kid.

Love my job but I see that I won't have a life until December 31. I am for the first time where I am supposed to be professionally, respected by my superiors I go to work without angst (is this possible in the Jewish community to be free on angst somewhere in your life?) thought it came with the territory.

Need to work all weekend but problems keeps on coming up with registration for next Spring and the Chair and I have to fix them immediately. Plus preparing for classes and everything else. Hard to find the femme of my dreams with so little time...lol:readfineprint:

cat is as old as methuselah, mom left him to me when she passed. he is not moving well today and not able to keep his food down.

age is somewhere between 16 and 20, not me the cat

taxidermy. what is it good for - absolutely nothin

So I'm lying here on my bed and got to thinking about the important topic of the day... why are my eyebrows still dark when the top of my head is almost all white? I know... you were thinking the same thing right?

So I looked it up and found a podcast called Ask the Naked Scientist. I started listening and it said that the reason we lose the color of our head hair is because the hair follicles that color the hair contain melanocytes and these are the cells that add melanin, the dark color to hair.

For some reason and not uniformly across the head, these melanocytes clap out after awhile and stop adding melanin to the hair so hair reverts back to its natural color which is white because it's made of keratin and the color of keratin is white.

So their theory is that the eyebrow hair grows more slowly than your head hair and are under less pressure so the melanocytes don't expire as quickly.

It's interesting. I guess I never really thought about it but it makes sense.

I'm sat here pondering the last couple of weeks and a certain individual who has entered my life.

I always wanted a relationship where we could take our time and get to know one another. I craved something more slow paced and a bit more civilized than the head-spinning madness that usually happens at the start.

Now that I have it, I appear to have changed my mind. Apparently I now want to be pursued, adored and have silly, unmanageable amounts of attention lavished upon me.

God I'm fickle.

And not a little confused.

:seeingstars:

Having your heart broken hurts like hell... I feel kind of numb right now.

maybe retail therapy and a night on the town will help.

A lot is on my mind but too much to post!

The treatment of our elderly in this country...

I won't go into details and get all soapboxy...but...I will say...

Please cherish your elderly parents and grandparents. If you have family members in assisted living or a nursing home, please visit. Send cards, bring snacks. Take them out to lunch if they're able. These things matter SO MUCH to them. They need to not feel forgotten. And they want to know they still matter.

That is all...

thinking of ways to be true to myself and others and loving and caring.

I am looking for friends in Georgia cuz it sure is lonely down here

Work. It's my busiest time of the year and there are less that 8 weeks left till January. I'm already turning down requests, but people are being unusually gracious. I hope this lasts for the next few weeks.

Music. I want to hear holiday music and I never want to hear it before Thanksgiving. Not sure what's up with that but I'll probably play Charlie Brown holiday music when I get in the office.

Ferguson, Missouri. Governor Nixon is only making things worse.