My Amy will be home from her 2 week trip today!

I am so very happy...I've missed her smiling face.

today it's been people near and dear to me and hoping things turn out well and everyone feels blessed and good! :stillheart:

Grrrrr... if I could stand on the shore of the beach and scream into the wind, I would totally do that today. But the shore is an hour away, I have to be here at work and for some reason, people frown on primal scream therapy in the workplace. Go figure ;)

Connecting vs. Disconnecting
 

Planks...go figure!

MMMMM! nice muscles. I didn't hear a word he said.
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DAMN!!!! I do these every workout! They kill me!

I miss talking to her and trying to find where to post a thread about dating women with kids........

anyone help?

He's a purty boy isn't he :rolleyes:


They're killing me too...I'm banking on 80-100miles a week on my bike and daily planks might just get me my flat belly again :cheesy:

She got the job!!!! And starts Thursday! Hooray!!

What's on my mind today? Unfortunately it is not the work I am supposed to be doing, or the writing assignment my sponsor gave me (and that will be due on Friday!), or the fact that I really need to hit the shower and get going on my day. Instead, I am poking around BFP, or playing Bejeweled, or keeping an eye on the Rachel Ray show. I am not feeling the self-discipline that is needed in a self-employed person. Arrrgggh!
On a brighter note, here is hoping that you all have a GREAT Wednesday!

I started out very excited about a woman I have been seeing and thinking about what may be possible. May seem silly, but I was even excited to do a bit of a change on my profile relationship status line- at least a smiling face. It really is difficult to meet someone around my age with similar values and interests that I am attracted to. It has been a very long time and a few years of sporadic dating that has had more "no's" than "yesses" (but hey, finding a good match is not easy- especially at my age)! So, I guess I was a bit giggly goofy...

Then, POW.... BS smacked me in the face and I began to go back into the my place of discontent with how we can treat each other here in very cruel and unfair ways. Especially when discussing wounding and sensitive issues in our lives within queerdom.

I usually can let things go- and more often than not, tend to try and smooth things over. But this morning I felt so victimized by someone in an area that is deeply sensitive to me, I fought back. It actually felt good in terms of standing up for myself. Yet, it is in an area of our community that has been fraught with division and strife and pain. But, I just had it with turning the other cheek and/or trying to post without offending (as there are so many people here that I call friend in real-time that I will often protect even if it means not being myself posting).

I have gone through some very difficult things the past 4 years that have knocked me off my feet. No, I don't think that other people are not/have not had their share of rough times. But, I tend to minimize and even dismiss my own pain in order to achieve peace- which I now realize is not serving me well. In fact, this usually just builds up only to explode. Not a good thing. Yet, I am finished with letting some things go that are connected to who I am deeply.

For the life of me, I do not understand some of the "wars" that we (yes, me too) get going on the site. I can only figure out what is up for myself, then go on. I have lost so many in my lifetime due to actual death and suffering bey6ond imagination, I guess I am not as compassionate with others- I tend to just not "suffer fools well" and as I age, this is more and more true.

I have taken care of people all of my life- from a disabled sister, dying siblings and parents, my brother's child and a partner that was very ill and died. I am going to be self-focused now. I am 60 years old, been tossed to hell and back financially even by bio-family and am just not taking it anymore. Not in real-time, not here (but not in a manner contrary to the TOS I agreed to as a member).

Oh, well... I did change my profile.... and am hopeful that things (that really do matter) will settle down soon. What I do know is that I will continue to stick up for myself and call out unfair treatment. This is my community, too.

How very happy I am. How important it is to keep the toxic people out and let the good in. How keeping my nose clean and pushing myself to the limits was so worth it. How lucky I am. Lots of good thoughts. :)

wondering if there is anyone out there that will look past my imperfections and love me for me

To keep my mind occupied (very important to the well-being of anyone whose orbit touches mine), I am re-engineering the flatware of yesterday to bring it more in line with modern usage and style considerations.


I have a full set of implements here on my desk before me. Beginning analysis....


(hey julie, got any rit?)

This is something that, right now, I need to think about. Thanks, ryder.