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All this crap going on at work. If things had worked out like I thought they were going too around Christmas, I would have my live-in sitter for my spouse and I could be working someplace else by now. However, that did not work out and I guess I just need to focus on the present and what I can do to keep from falling apart. If it wasn't for my spouse being sick, I would have quit that toxic job long ago. But I can't let it consume me, I have to take a deep breath and deal with it.:praying:
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My oldest kitty, we went to the vet today. She got steriods, eyedrops and weighed. She lost 1.5 lbs in two weeks. The vet said she is now on hospice.
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Wondering how long this physical healing business is going to take on my ole body. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS CRAP
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How much i miss believing in God. I want to believe in something but I just can't figure out what that is.
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Lil Guy was found today, across the street from the nest by 3 young women who refused to give up on him. He is now at CROW. The statement from CROW reads: A juvenile American bald eagle “strongly believed” to be E8 was found in critical condition near the Southwest Florida Eagle Cam on Friday, the Clinic for the Rehabilitation of Wildlife said. “The eagle arrived thin, dehydrated and very weak,” the agency said in a statement. The eagle, which sustained a broken right leg, will be operated on during the weekend, then remain on strict cage rest, CROW said. “The prognosis is guarded and CROW veterinarians will have more information after surgery is complete to repair the broken femur,” the agency said. This is one tough lil fucker. Let's hope he has one more rally left in him. |
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Lil Guy had surgery today to insert a pin in the fractured femur. He tolerated surgery well. There were no complications. He remains in critical care. Next update expected on Monday. |
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Funny in how the age of instant access, when it comes to eagle cams, you have to work backwards. The rescuers of Lil Guy, finally recounted the story of his rescue and even made a u-tube slide show of it and his intake at CROW. Apparently these 3 women are all employees of CROW who had been searching for him all week. He had been sighted on numerous occasions but was still strong enough to fly off when approached. The area where he was finally captured was dense with foliage, requiring a machete to facilitate a search. He was seen and followed. Luckily, he got caught in the foliage which made it easier for them to cover and subdue him. The fractured leg was his only injury. It is not known if this occurred because his talons were locked when the great horned owl hit him or if he hit the ground after he fell. He was dehydrated from not eating. At this age their hydration comes from their food. He was a 2 day fledgling, too young to hunt. Even if he found food, with the broken leg, he may not have been able to hold it to feed himself. CROW had to force feed him when he arrived. He is now eating on his own. He is probably thrilled he doesnt have to fight for food or wait for food. He can actually enjoy it without stuffing himself as fast as he can. As you can see from the pics, he isnt so little anymore. But, that is definately Lil Guy. |
On my mind always are my friends and family who are having difficulties. Troubles or pain.. And how i can help them in any way.
I am thinking to start a fund me page for one such person who has been a friend since we were kids and her daughter is now in a wheelchair and cant talk or do anything her mother now feeds her. She had 2 kids Which now my friend is raising her grandchildren and tending to her daughter. |
Todays update from CROW: Little Guy remains in critical and guarded condition from Saturdays surgery. The eagle was placed on strict cage rest and will continue to receive supportive care. |
I'm feeling waffley about working for this facility for a year...
Some of their politics remind me of why I got out of long term care in the first place... |
Brandy had a mini- stroke during the night. She will be 12yrs old in July and is in CHF but she was doing ok. Early this morning we were rushing around letting the other 3 dogs outside and getting their meds, then we went in town to the vet. They are telling us we have to wait and see....... She might come out of this and be ok, or she might get worse. It broke my heart when I saw her head drooping and she fell. Being a cna, I know the signs all too well. And she was disorientated and it sadly reminded me when my spouse had her last mini- stroke. We are faced with making a decision now if she doesn't bounce back. My poor little dog!!!!!!! :vigil: :praying:
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A sad heart for all the BFP pets who are very ill and compassion for their owners!!
It sucks to know our furbabies are aging & with that comes illnesses & catastrophies. My heart goes out to the parents of said ill furbabies.....I send you all a gentle hug.....and love....:rrose::tea: |
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Today's update from CROW: Lil Guy has been quiet, alert and responsive. He has not regurgitated any food the last couple of days. He was fed soft pieces of rat today- probably didnt need to know that huh. He was observed to be hock sitting and for the remainder of the time is in the prone position (laying flat with the chest down and back up) and has been moved to a larger enclosure to encourage movement. Although positive signs, he is still receiving pain medication and remains in critical and guarded condition. Still working backwards here. The fracture he sustained had already started healing by the time he got to CROW. But, it was displaced i.e. not in proper alignment. Thus, they had to rebreak it (gross I know), pin it in place internally, and apply a plate externally with pins to hold it in place. Takes 4-6 weeks for human bone to heal. Eagles should be about the same. Hopefully, there is no infection during the process. Then, he faces more surgery to remove the external hardware. Then rehab. If he is able to use the leg and talon at 100% he will be released back into the wild. His sibling and parents will be long gone by then. But, he can hook up with a group of other juveniles - as they usually do for the first year. If he does not have full use of that leg and talon, he will need to go to a sanctuary for non releasable eagles. One step at a time. The funny news is I think his sibling is missing him. Altho he has all the food provided by the parents to himself, he tends not to eat the tail end of fish. The tails, by hook or crook, were always Lil Guy's. This weekend, Dad brought a humongous fish for lunch. Brutus ate 2/3's of it. He hid the tail part in the maybe 1 foot square section of nest that is left. Mom came along later and started eating the remainder. Brutus went nuts. He was mantling, puffed up, making enough noise to raise the dead, and actually kind of went after the momma, forcing her to fly off. Others said he was upset cuz he was saving that for later. I think he was saving it for Lil Guy, just in case. He didnt eat it. But, he protected it. |
I haven't been coming to the site as often lately. I have been dealing with a lot. Every now and then I come on and vent before I jump back in the deep end... today I came on and checked my reps... and read some of the posts since my last visit...
So now... I am thinking about how lucky I am to have this site as support, and as family... How much I appreciate all of you. I have been here for along time. I interact a little... but I guess I have never really stopped to wonder who is really watching. I am not great at interacting and sometimes my posts are more to help me process then to look for something in return... But, you have all been watching, and when I really fall and struggle I am so grateful to have you. Thank you all for your words of comfort, support, and help. |
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My kitties, with my oldest kitty in hospice at home these days so everytime I come home from work I am so stressed out about the kitty's condition.
I had to go on an overnight business trip and was terrified about what I would come home to. Luckily, the kitty was the same as I had left her. I am force feeding her now so I hate to leave the house. A special shout out and big thank you for all the support from friends here. |
Trying to shut my brain down so I can sleep ... I don't think we can close on the home by May 31st. It took longer than expected for the well water test to come back. It came yesterday and the water is fine. Still, it threw us behind anticipated schedule. I am trying to turn it all off and not wait for any tid bit of info because it is making me nuts. My loan originator assures me the home is mine. I believe her. I would not ever have believed all the hoops one has to jump through to buy a home. At any rate, it will work out and be a done deal eventually.
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I feel inadequate as a woman because I'm not a slut.... I don't let my friends or my friends' grabby butches put their hands on me. What more I am disgusted by the audacity! I will slap that hand right off of me and make sure that the massage is heard loud and clear! I am even more disgusted with femmes who claim to be someone's friend but when their friend's butch feels them up they just stand there... Lack of disapproval is the approval or even further an invitation yes please more of that. I know that I'm way too zipped up.... I'm a horrible human being but my policy is Hell No!!! I'm a lady and if I am your friend I will ALWAYS respect that! On the note of grabby butches, I do not blame them, theirs is to try, ours is to slap the shit out of the mare idea of such act and draw the line, making sure that the line is Very sharp! Maybe this is why I will never have gay friends... I just cannot deal with this sort of sleazy drama... I cannot even stand to watch it from the sidelines it disgusts me...
Being a slut is of high value it's top priority must have feature in this world...I'm sorry that I lack that. I'm a lady I crave deep emotional connection and all my relationships were based on that and deep respect. I am not judging anyone... I just vote for transparency... If you're not for commitment don't fake it! I try to be a good friend but I cannot watch this shit go down and stay silent... So I must detach and let them all fuck each other any which way until it all goes up hell... I don't feel safe being unprotected like that. A single girl with scrupulous has to watch herself. I'm ready to be attacked and torn apart with words now. Fire off! |
My 5:30 haircut after work is on my mind. I have been so busy and have neglected myself by allowing hair to grow unreasonably long. People at work love it. I hate it! Going to have Terri buzz it short! I am excited to be rid of this mop! Hot weather is here to stay and it ends up wet when I work outdoors.
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you can count me in on a haircut. Must be butch week for cuts. I go today TG
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Why would you not blame grabby butches for trying to put their hands on you? Everyone is responsible for their own actions. That whole 'blame the girlfriend/wife/mistress and not the man/boyfriend/husband/butch' thing is played out and outdated. It's just another projection of the propaganda to pit woman against woman in this world. Also, I'm pretty sure my gay friends would be insulted by the sleazy drama comment but you are not alone in promoting that stereotype so it is what it is. I can't blame you for being pissed. If someone that was partnered tried to get freaky deaky with me, I'd definitely have some serious issues with that as well. What I wouldn't do is blame anyone but THAT PERSON for their actions. |
There's a lot on my mind. For instance how I keep having ex friends and roommates still attempting to cause drama and my ex girlfriend and how she keeps going back and forth and getting my hopes up. I've got sleep on my mind because I haven't slept. And I'm just all over the plasce
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I'm with yall got a haircut today. We did a #1 back and sides, I do have about 2 or 3 inches left on top
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Beer :byebye:
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I started making lists today because I have too many things on my mind and cant keep them all in order... too much to do, not enough time to do it.
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Today's update from CROW: Today, Lil Guy received a second radiograph (x-ray) since the eaglets operation on Saturday, May 14. His condition was upgraded to guarded based on blood work and clinical condition but protein levels are still dangerously low. The fracture site and pin placement from the surgery look good and today he was able to stand and walk normally but still spends a majority of time down and sleeping. The eaglet is responding to intensive care and is moving from a predominately liquid diet to a soft solids diet. ( Yes, Jesse I will save you from hearing todays menu LOL). Body weight has increased but he still remains extremely thin. He was at 6.4 lbs on admission. He should be at 8. Although Lil Guy still has a lengthy recovery, it was encouraging that the eaglet was willing to bear weight on its leg and use its foot and claw in a normal fashion which indicates normal nerve function. |
Lol! It's okay Kobi. I made sure to not be eating dinner when I read today's report. :)
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Taking Brandy back to the vet tomorrow. She has gotten better but the stroke has really slowed her down on some days. I guess as we all get older we have good days and bad days?????
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Little Guy continues to show signs of improvement. This morning the eaglet was bright and alert during surgical wound care cleaning and blood work. He ate some fish fillets on his own yesterday and weighs approximately 8.5 pounds. The eaglet was fully standing this morning and vocalizing after treatment. He remains in guarded condition. We will have another update on Wednesday. Fish - his favorite. Vocalizing - his specialty and his way of saying more food! https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com...67adb06666.jpg |
The Mountain Laurel in Virginia....and hunting for wild raspberries and blackberries.
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Can three days go by quickly? Or will they drag on, cause I'm looking forward to starting vacation Friday night! !
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It can go by in flash. I'm already on my 2nd day of 3 off. Yesterday flew by and it's already mid-morning today. Eek! |
Todays update from CROW: Lil Guy's condition has been upgraded to fair. He is now routinely standing and using the right injured leg, but still won’t perch and spends a lot of time lying down. He is bright and alert and eating a diet of semi-soft fish fillets and meat. The eaglet requires assistance during feedings but has been slowly eating on its own. Blood work abnormalities have resolved and are back to normal. ----------------- The not wanting to perch yet is understandable to me. He had and internal fixation of his broken bone, plus has external hardware on the leg to hold everything in place. The thought of perching, to me, sounds like major "ouchie" time. The "spends a lot of time laying down" made me chuckle. With the exception of learning to fight for meals, he was always a bit of a slug. Between the malnutrition and being the younger sibling, he was not a great initiator. He was slow to perch and to fledge. And, he loved his down time in the nest bed. Glad the dangerously low protein has resolved. This is one tough lil bugger. |
This weekend, I'm off at the nursing home and working at the kennel!!! Can't wait!!!!!! And I will work in the yard tomorrow. Got a few tree limbs to cut down.
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