He said he was confused and wanted clarity. Silly me. I forgot who I was talking to. I gave him some very direct clarity. Turned out, all he wanted was to drag me into the drama so he could point and scream," See! See! They're all meanie heads!" Geesh. He basically got mad because I told him to call someone and apologize like an adult instead of perpetuating the texting/facebook drama. ... yeah, that's me. Always thinking I can actually say what is on my mind. :seeingstars:

Not a great day. This evening, I started having Ménière’s episodes of vertigo, nausea, ringing and imbalance. Some pops in the ole' ear affected, too. I haven't had this happen in quite a long time (in remission for about 6 years) and not such severe vertigo and nausea. But, my niece also has Ménière’s in both ears and has had a very rough time with it throughout the years and lost quite a bit of hearing. I have only lost a little. So, I am grateful that mine has not been as chronic or severe.

So, I can't drive, obviously, but I live close to a BART (our public transportation system) and ought to be able to navigate a walk there in a pinch. But, maybe this episode will be brief. If not in a couple of days, I will have to go to the docs for some medication for the vertigo- but decongestants might help without having to do so. Just have to see.

In the past, these episodes have coincided with stress and anxiety. Great.... but could be. Changes in barometric pressure and sinus infection could be going on, except, I don't feel like my sinuses are infected. And I do know that feeling. But I do have an ear ache.

That despite cliches, they are often true...like, love finds you when you aren't looking and it is often the one you least except. *thoughtful far-off stare* yeah, love is...

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! Just when I thought my elbow was healing.... I aggravated it tonight working out. Sitting here with an ice pack on it. Damn it! Doesn't it know I have to fight in 2 months!

I hope her arm feels better too much work makes a cranky femme and I dislike that.

Thank god NFL is back on this season.

Laundry day.

Oh so much! My head is spinning and my stomach is churning! Worry does awful things to me!

crisp
 

Autumn and my city's lack thereof.

what's on my mind....
 

How much I miss her. How she lied to me for months and months. How I bought it all. How I'm supposed to overcome this and trust again. How lost and alone I feel.

I am out
 

I left the house on the 16th. I was so terrified because he said he was coming home early so I had to grab what I could and say good bye to the rest. It's okay though they are things and I can live without them. I have what is most important myself and my dog. I left Ridgid and that was the hardest part. Saying good bye to him kissing that big jug head of his and knowing I will probably never see him again. I didn't let him see me cry he wouldn't have understood the tears and I don't want him to remember me crying. What I wouldn't give for one more minute with him though.

The evil ex can still send a text message to my phone through his yahoo account I have blocked the phone numbers but I can't block him from sending them through the computer. He is being over nice I know he simply wants to know where I am. I am not saying a word and will not message him back so he can't track my cell phone.

I will be where I am going sometime today. I am only 4 hours away from there so it should go by quickly.

I feel in a sense empty and yet so alive.

i don't know what to write really so i will end it here.. but just wanted to let my friends know i am okay

(((((((((TKA)))))))))))) I've been really worried about you and am glad to hear that things are okay ........... get to your destination, settle in and please remember to let us know how your doing when you can :rrose:

I wish you the best of luck in the future buddy, you know I always got your back :thumbsup: