Mon i came to the hospital for a "routine" surgery .. I should have been home sameday. However, it became an emergency surgery and here i am Friday still at the hospital with 36 staples instead if 4-5 stitches. The hospital, doctors, nurses, ans cna's have been wonderful. I couldn' t be in better hands..In my option.

So, alot of things are on my mind ...encluding being released tomorrow if all goes well

Rockaby baby ...Lallalala:toothache: :onebutch::hk9:

I'm thinking about finally saying goodbye and having it be for real this time. My butch and I aren't what we used to be.

A good friend whose grandma just died. I'm worried about him and haven't heard from him.

Best wishes for a speedy recover. You will be in our thoughts.

Chad & FAS

Thanks! I am recovering faster than expected. I went in for a basic surgery but had an issue with an artery. So, the cut from sturnum to pelvic to repair it. Im up and walking..great team taking care of me and good visits from my crew. It causes a great deal of reflection

The weight I'm gaining even though I'm eating the same amounts of food I been eating all summer, doing all the same cleaning and scrubbing at the dog kennel, all the same running around at the nursing home, etc. The only thing different is I'm not sweating like I did in the summer when it was so hot. I wonder if that's it? Or maybe just hormones??

Frustrated at how long it is taking, for the 27th to get here.

Thinking bout moving furnture to get the area rugs cleaned. I need to stop thinking about it and just do it because the steamers will be here in a couple hours.

We have several contractors coming out next week for painting, flooring and other improvements so that we are ready for holiday parties, and the selling of the house sometime next summer.

I HATE to have messes, so I am already stressing on all the mess we will have during the next few weeks; maybe I'll go stay in the travel trailer!:pirate-steer:

Also thinking about what the ortho doctor said about my hands. First he did X-rays and said I have osteo and he suspects rheumatoid arthritis in both hands, pretty bad. Some carpal tunnel but no need for surgery. Then after blood tests and a nerve test, he says NO rheumatoid, SOME ortho, but SEVERE carpal tunnel in both hands and I need surgery right away. He wants to schedule it for next month. I told him hell no!!!!!!!! I'm starting a brand new job and can't be out of work that long! Plus he said one thing, then a few weeks later something different. So I will get a second opinion before I let some doctor I just met cut my hands. I've been dealing with the pain for a loooooooong time, so I will deal with it for another year before I have any surgery.

"I will get a second opinion before I let some doctor I just met cut my hands"

Absolutely!

All the people who sent me well wishes about what I was going through. It made me cry. I really needed it. I ended it with my Daddi yesterday, but since I'm visiting her in FL right now I'm here until Wednesday. It's so awkward. I thank every one of you for helping me with your comments. Hugs to every one of you.

s
 

the cold North...

Greco

how much I enjoy the smell of my own pillows

~
 

other ppl's ignorance is not your pain it's allll theirs ~ now stop looking backwards and face front and move on ~ (f)

sleep and wondering if I will get enough of it..... :praying: :moonstars:

sleep
 

sleep has yet to find me tonight...

Tomorrow I start getting staples removed from my abdomen!! I'm thinking that will help with the discomfort. The fluid build up has started to reduce and has made a difference in my legs but I look forward to it reducing in my stomach area...because I feel like a weeble. I think it would have been better if they put in drainage tubes..but no such luck. I'll have a little chat with them tomorrow when I see the doctor.

The kids did a great job taking care of the dogs and the house while I was in the hospital for a week...I'll have to find a way to thank them outside of just saying thank you. I know they went above what they do to help their mother take care of things around here.

I have an agency coming in to help me with my recovery so that the impact is minimal. They have enough to do with taking care of themselves because I can't help around here, than having to take care of me. I know I have to take it slow..but it would be nice if it could be fairly quick

Thunder...

I just heard a very loud, powerful rumble and know that rain is soon to follow.

I love it when it rains but that dang thunder, ugh!



Oh! There it goes again!

Birthday
 

A very HAPPY BIRTHDAY Wings

Hope you had a fantastic birthday.
From your neighbour in British Columbia
Knight

Work is on my mind.

Gonna be really busy when I return from the desert. I'll have 7 or 8 back-to-back deadlines. Will probably have to work Thanksgiving week. Was hoping I could book a quick trip to the D for Turkey day, but will have to put that off till next year.

Work- and wishing we had more security and or a metal detector at the door. Tension among the youth has been mounting as the colder darker weather is bringing more of them into the drop in center and we're getting crowded. A fight broke out last night. We managed it quickly and effectively, but a lot of that was pure luck and it could have gotten much worse very quickly. :| <- me in charge of guarding the front door during a lockdown face.

Thinking about how you learn who care and who doesn't when you're struggling or need help.

Each day I try to do a little. I get so exhausted and I've been sweating a LOT. I read that after surgery sweating a lot is common. I don't have a fever, so, I'm not worried about infection at this point.

After each little thing I do, do I find myself falling asleep. I've been given the ok to drive..so, I went to the store for rice (not even a mile away) grabbed a bag and dog treats and went home..fell asleep for two hours *smh* I've had surgeries before but nothing like this...

Even though I am able to drive I am considered home bound because driving actually wipes me out. The first time I tried, I drove around the block and was to tired to actually get what I needed. To be deemed not home bound you actually have to be able to complete much more than what I have been able too. For example...because driving exhausts me I can not make it to a physical therapy appointment and actually do what is asked of me.

I had no idea until this was explained to me by the nurse from the home health agency. So, I qualify for services..a nurse to check my incision, PT to maintain and regain muscle mass that I loss...and the flexibility in my joints to help me walk better, and OT just to discuss how I can do personal care a different way so not to be a high fall risk. I could use the help.

My spirits are not shot...I feel pretty good considering...just tired.

So much that I don't even know where to begin...

My two doctors appointments, tomorrow. I am not ready for another ultrasound, I am tired of being poked in the cervix, with no answers!

I hate it when they book them back to back as well, it frustrates me to no end, I hate traffic in this town so this is what is on my mind.

Wood

:blink:

of the 2x4 sort.

A lot right now. The choices I may have made a bit too quickly concerning my employment. :seeingstars:

On my mind
 

Headed to the doctor for my poor stomach with a list of complaints. Ugg

:worried:

Trying to figure out how to take over the world by January. :koolaid:

Tonight I’m thinking about how fortunate I am to have a gotten good advice from our Board of Nursing, to have money coming in while on leave from work, and to still be employed by a company not only eager to have me back but also willing to provide reasonable accommodations for me when I do.

How damn hot the house is the air conditioning is out and I can't sleep.

Plus mental notes are running through my brain.

If they call Michelle Obama an "ape in heels" what on earth do they call someone like me?