I stand corrected
 

CORRECTION:

The Istanbul shooter is not dead. Authorities are still looking for the person.

(sorry, I misread the article last night)

Trying to find a decent price on tires for my truck.

Morning thoughts after a sleep deprived night
 

My wish is for everyone to have an amazing 2017. After the debacle that was 2016, everyone deserves new beginnings...

I have been considering how much words can impact someone's life lately. I can recall words spoken over me as a small child that had planted seeds of rejection, self-hate and insecurity. This reason has birthed in me over the years a desire to be more wholesome and encouraging in my words; perhaps because I knew what it was to feel inadequate and discouraged and that root still runs deep.

Pardon the Christian references for those of you who aren't religious...but,
Psalm 141:3: says: Set a guard over my mouth and keep watch over the door of my lips.

The mouth has the power of life and death. Growing up, I was taught something very useful when considering my speech: Is what you say useful? Does it build others up? Is it relevant?

We tend to speak words like daggers and sadly it is often to those we love the most. Part of my maturity has been to exercise self-control and I can honestly say for the most part I either don't speak at all or I deeply consider how I speak...

We need to be so careful that we are planting gardens of life and not seeds of destruction.

Words carry power and can completely shape how someone sees themselves. We need to heal and not hurt.

My morning inspiration and meditation.

Thank you for posting your thoughts, it is an ongoing process to be responsible for words...

“Without knowing the force of words, it is impossible to know more.”
― Confucius

The universe is constantly fucking against me and I have no practical reason why.

I was such a negative Nancy. Things are improving. Km lucky to have good people in my life that love me and look after me.

Tomorrow is another day. And even if it IS Friday the 13th....it's going to be a better day. Becaue I deserve that much :)

I hope you have a great day.... and, it's always a bonus when we've got family and friends who like and love us. :rrose:

Thermal ablation. Sick of having a period so I am going to talk with my gynecologist about scheduling an appointment to get this done. Even if my insurance doesn't cover it, I am getting this done. Over it!

I got an ablation last year (I'm 47 now) and have had zero problems and zero blood! (insurance covered too)

Best decision ever. I can't believe I don't have to contend with periods any more! Seriously, life-changing lol.

That is awesome to hear! A friend who is a nurse and works with doctors who perform this told me it is an easy procedure. I am 47 and so ready!! Life-changing. That is exactly what I am looking for. Thanks Soon!

PS. How much down-time did you experience? She told me to get it done on a Thursday or Friday and I would be good to go back to work that following Monday.

Totally easy procedure. The day of (had mine in the morning), I had some pain but Tylenol 3s took care of it pretty good and I slept. I took the next day off too (so 2 days in total) and was completely fine to go back to work on Day 3. If you can schedule on a Thursday or Friday, even better!

Good luck! :)

On my mind
 

The dentist appointment today and on Thursday. Luckily I like both of my dentists.

:cigar2:

Too much.

One of the things I'm learning about, due to no experience with cancer, is that people who are very ill don't need more stress ....stress from complications of treatment, stress from all types of things that can go wrong (bad weather, transportation problems, the list is never ending it seems).

I'm curious as to why I'm smelling such odd things today...

I just made salmon and now I smell hot dogs...for no apparent reason I smell French toast in another room.

No I'm not hungry. I'm not crazy about hot dogs. But yes I love French toast. Idk...

I feel invisible most of the time.

Being nervous to start work again, but this time in an office setting. I'm grateful because it pays pretty good and has decent hours, not a long commute either.

Learning to live again is a new start too.

On my mind
 

I am very worried about the Trump dictatorship.

I am worried about our families, friends, and community.

I am worried about the potential lose of progress and freedom from this Republican dream team.

I am worried.

I began smelling car exhaust all around me...even in my house! I looked it up, and found out it was a B6 vitamin deficiency. I have to take the vitamin every day, but the smell is gone!

Thanks so much for this knowledge. I worried about a brain tumor since odd smells can be a sytmptom. But I had a cat scan 2 years ago when I had my accident and it was not a tumor. So I will try some B6 :)

Over a year and a half ago I made a promise to myself that I would start travelling... even if it meant going alone. In 2015 I climbed Mt. Washington, and in 2016 I took two vacations and hiked through Zion National Park, Bryce Canyon, Sedona, and the Grand Canyon, by myself. I absolutely loved it. I met so many amazing people, hiked through areas most don't know about because of the fantastic people I met, and learned that I really do enjoy being alone. I had absolutely no fear or trepidation.

What's on my mind now is New Zealand. I have decided that I am going to go there for 2 weeks in January, 2018 (great weather then) with just a backpack and a list of places I want to see. I plan on not tying myself down with hotel reservations and just keeping a list of hostels and hotels in the areas I want to visit. I want to be free to go wherever, whenever. I am so excited to do this.

Now to figure out where I would like to go this year. :)

EEEEKK!!

Got up this morning yawning and completely exhausted from the long drive yesterday and discovered I'm out of my favorite coffee creamer. And I really don't want to go to work! And it's cold!
BUT
BUT
BBUUTT...
I'm all sparkly and glittery with happy feelings and plans and all manner of bouncy things in my head and I just want this day to go fast so I can get home and start working down my list.
WEEE!

"..... all manner of bouncy things in my head"

:)

nothing profound
 

My phone has finally accepted my excessive use of the F word...

When I first got my phone, it substituted "duck" a lot.

This morning I was messaging my mom about trump and actually misspelled fucking..and my phone gave me the correct spelling.

My phone accepts me.:praying:

A lot actually. My brother is dying in less than a year, some friends of mine lost their house in fire, and then, just a bunch of stuff. It's not very good in my head

I'm on a conference all and am currently wondering what would happen if I just started shrieking "OMG!! I WANT CAAAAAKKKEEEEEE!!!"

Payday next week. Lol. I need to get my truck up to code before I get any tickets.

On my mind
 

I really like working out! I am so happy when I work out.

:fastcycling:

Did you test it out? Please tell me you did?

My back is starting to hurt again, like it did before

My mind is a bottomless chasm..

I hope I can think my way to sleep at some point

Chinese New Year
 

The year of the rooster.

I can't decide what to do today. Options are:

Go to the lesbian bowling meetup that I planned on.
Go to the postcard writing party that's about 1 1/2 hour drive from here.
Go to the vigil at the airport that's a half hour from me.

I want to do it all and obviously I can't. I do spend 40-50 hours a week working solidly in social justice (Hands on direct care for women in need of safe space- including refugees) and am spending Monday lobbying. So I shouldn't feel too guilty if I take today off from political activism and just go bowl, right?

Nah, decided I'm going postcarding. Now to pillage my house for supplies and get on the road.

My family right now, my uncle passed away late last night, he was only 78.