a thank you note to JustJo
 

Hey lady!
That epsom (epson? spelling?) salt in a hot bath worked great in removing the splinter from my butt cheek. I had to do it twice ... I gently massagedaround the splinter while I was sitting there - not into baths at all and was bored just sitting there. I only take showers.

Anyway, I THANK YOU SO MUCH for that suggestion. You saved me from what would have become very embarrassing. I had just about made my mind up to go to doc-in-a-box and have some nurse I did not know dig it out.

You rock, my friend! :)

How much I have changed this past year...

sleep... g'nite peeps

Many Things.............
 

The Chair in blackhawk......
The Hot Tub.....
The curtains open wide.....
The night in the tent.......

WAH
 

My older kids, I miss them...

I want to sit on the porch with someone and plan our garden. I want to be deeply in love on a spiritual level... deeper then ever before. I want to find everything inside of me and create the biggest garden yet that will feed many families. I need to do something great.

Unfinished conversations and what I can do to make things right

Christmas presents

Moving

How much work is annoying the shit out of me

How I haven't felt good for over a week and can't pinpoint what it really is

Its snowing

...my presentation this morning. eeep!!

For the first time in a quite some time I have the desire to acquire a few Christmas decorations for my place. For the first time it not only struck me that I do not own any but there is actually a desire to do something about it. Perhaps I am now ready to fully reclaim a personal celebration of Christmas and not just help others celebrate it.

I've thought of this too, I was to be called "Shawna Leanne" cringe.
I would have gone by Shawn for sure!
Would I have turned out more butch? Perhaps!!
Or would I have still been a girly with a really cool sorta-boy name!
I haven't thought about this in years...*pondering now*
I really do like the name Shawn, or Sean for a girl!
Maybe it's time for a change!!!
Thanks for the reminder!!!

~bless bless bless~

Too many things.......
 

My present....and my future. Hoping the future will be a helluva lot better than the present. :)
My job, and the promotion I just applied for, and whether or not I have any chance at all...
Christmas at home; I can't wait to get there!

Tune in next time for more angst. LOL.
 

Do you remember when you had to turn the knob on the TV to change the station, to hear the sound of the click-click-click as you counted to the next channel in hopes of entertainment. Going too fast meant someone, an adult someone, probably yelled at you not to abuse the TV. Pausing between stations too long meant you heard the static. The ....sssshchshchschsch.... that heralded the absence of a signal. No information available -- nothing to see here, don't linger too long. The sound of static. I miss that sound. Digital eradicated that sound. Technology made a sound irrelevant. Now the absence of a signal is silence. Lack of a signal is no longer an audible event. We silenced the static.

.... My brain is static-y today. I wish someone else could hear it. I'd feel less alone that way.

everything .. so many things floating through my mind im tired from it all.