If you really knew me... you would know its all a mask...

If you really knew me, you would know that I'm actually worth the time.

If you really knew me...you would see how littered my road is of people who've tried to tame me xoxo/grrrr.

If you really new me, you'd know how much good it does my heart to rescue an animal an watch it flourish, and also how it breaks my heart when there isn't a happy ending

If you really knew me, you would know how hard it is for me to trust people and to let people get close to me.

Knowing me
 

If you really knew me you would know that in my work I am an over achiever. I work countless hours to make sure that all the work on my projects is perfect. I control my rest, my food, and my hydration everyday to make sure that I am at the top of my game and that my work is superior. I have sacrificed a lot for my career and I hope it shows.

You would know that on my off time I can be found working on my ranch or partying with friends.

I work hard and I play hard.

:cowboy:

If you really knew me you'd know that being laid up is not my cup o tea. I don't do it good.

Really knew me
 

My bark is bigger than my bite

I am always a gentlewoman to the ladies

I have a good sense of humor (so my friends tell me)

If you really knew me...

... you would know that once I love someone, I never really stop
... you would know that if one of my ex's calls me out of the blue and they need something, I will drop most things to help them.
... you would know that it hurts my heart to see them in pain, even years later.

If you really knew me

you would not be surprised that I am exhausted yet still awake after midnight, again!

However, you would be surprised to learn that I passed over two of my all time favorite threads to bump just to post in this one.

Lastly you might even be shocked by my choice to post in this thread instead of one of those other favorite threads upon learning why. Especially, once you discovered that I did so in hopes of finding sleep soon instead of feeding a craving or two...

IYRKM... you would know thay you can ask me anything and receive a honest and hopefully tactful answer from me.

If You Really Knew Me - You would know that I am not that different from you. I have hopes, dreams and even a desire to find an amazing love to share with that special woman. I have moments of self doubt...feelings that I do not have enough to offer in order to truly matter to another person. Feelings of being unseen, especially true since transitioning, and of being alone. Not good enough.

I also have courage and passion and a sense of survival that refuses to allow moments of weakness to define who I am as a person. Sometimes it is sheer will & stubbornness that keeps me afloat. Oft times it is simply the desire to continue to remain and learn of things that are as of yet unknown to me.

^5
 

If you really knew me..
 

You would know I'm a family guy and have a big heart

If you really knew me you'd know that breakfast consists of, eggs, sausage/bacon grits hashbrowns and B&G.

If you really knew me you would know who it is I'm avoiding and why.

If you REALLY knew me you would know nothing is more important to me than family.:fastdraq:

If you really knew me you would know that I can only take so much till I break.

If you really knew me you would know that in real life I have a bad temper.

If you really knew me...you'd know i have a triple locked in filter that has to
be released periodically. Heavy control issues.

If you really knew me...you'd find out how vulnerable i am underneath it all.

You'd know I don't settle, in any aspect.
You'd know I'd rather scream than cry, hurt comes out in loud burst.
You'd know the amount of responsibility I take on, makes me motivated.
You'd know I miss the guitar. The praise. I just needed you, RIP.

If you really knew me you'd know I am in a funk. But I will survive