where is gone my singlehood wish for 2018? sigh ok a little bit freaking out here

A huge list of things...
 

Insulation
Drywall
Plumbing
Power (solar components)
Propane or wood stove
Floor plan (pick favorite)
Feature wall with live edge wood and hidden storage
Ceiling fans
Do I splurge on my claw foot tub?

To go to the clinic tomorrow for my infected toe or ride it out till Monday to see if it gets better.

It's a kind of weird snow day at work. It snowed heavy all night. I got up early to shovel and jumped in during a small lull in the storm to drive to work. Bare bones staff are here. Building residents are being super chill. I'm playing Grateful Dead a little louder than usual in my office and there's talk of a pizza party for the staff who did come in. My work husband is getting me a gluten free pizza. I can totally take this type of snow day.

What shirt to wear tonight. Long sleeve or short sleeve?

My brothers gender revile...My future and what I want... so many things too many to list

All I've got to get done in the next couple months.

Pride week is next week at my University, and I just read a poster that said Ivan Coyote is going to be speaking at my University! I would go, but I have a show to help produce during that time. :(

Gavin is on my mind. He is the Rottweiler I rescued from the highway about a month ago. The vet told me Gavin did not have a mean bone in his body. He also said I hope he will not hop your fence and leave.

Gavin ate a big dinner tonight. Then over the fence he went. Gone. Some dogs cannot be fenced in.

I gave him my very best. My heart is broken. I don't know, maybe I should think about rescuing those little fi fi type pooches

I have been riding the roads looking for Gavin with no luck. I had to fill out a late slip this morning at work.

I hope so much he is okay. Wish he could have been able to complete his heartworm treatments and stayed at least long enough to have eye surgery. His eyelids turn under, cause his eyelashes to scratch his eyes.

Gavin has been someone's dog for about 9 years. Not only did they beat him but they did not meet any of his medical needs either.

Gavin rubbed off his collar and rabies tag on a stump. I found it a little ways down the driveway. The boy does not like fences and collars.

Safe passage to you Gavin!! I will not forget you. Should you return, there will always be a place for you with us.

My wisdom teeth need to come out. The space for them has always been tight and caused problems. Them coming out isn’t a big deal but I’m really aggravated that they will only do one at a time. 1st is this week but that’s 4 separate visits. I would go somewhere else but this place is good and seems to cost a little less. Dental work can be expensive when it’s all out of pocket. I tried to talk them into 2 at a time but it was a no go. That should be up to me and not them, my mouth, my pain.

Alot of things i cant control or are out of my hands at this time.

On my mind - I am SO not ready for work tomorrow but this week will conclude some shit that's been on my mind for way too long.

So mote it be!

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18"+ of snow ~ :praying: winter please go away ~

Knowing that im not included in funeral arrangements for my birth mother when she passes.

i don't know what to do

Our estimated snowfall has declined to 2- 5 inches. Yay. That will make the day a lot easier. However, I hope it's enough that the board meeting I'm supposed to be at tonight gets cancelled.

I am wondering if others feel this way. It is like I have "F*CK WITH ME" written across my forehead.

I got a brake job done yesterday. Dropped it off at 8:30. The manager did my paperwork. I asked him the price of an oil change too. He said $59.00. I laughed and told him that was ridiculous and to add 2 or 3 quarts today. New pads and rotor resurfacing for both front were on special, $60.00 off for $129.99 ... it was the same for both rear ones too. I told him to call me as soon as it was inspected and tell me what it needed and give me the price. He did not call. I called at 11:30, he was not there but the mechanic who was mumbling and not much audible said they could go on and start then ... it would be ready at 1:30. Since I could not hear him much, I said,"so it is only the front ones and it will be $129.99 plus the oil, right?" He said, "yea." I called at 1:30 before I told my ride to take me. I asked the total charge and it was $448.00. They replaced both front rotors with new ones. I started laughing and asked for the manager. He was not available. On the ride over there, the manager called. I told him he needed to adjust the price before I got there and bring it down to $129.99 and 2 or 3 quarts of oil because that is the quote the mechanic agreed with me on at 11:30. He said the rotors could not be turned because they were too far gone. I said that was his problem since he never found time to call and tell me ... and that his mechanic told me $129.99 at 11:30 before he started the work. When I walked in, I ensured all the customers were aware of this conflict. This manager even tried to pull a fast one about the oil. He said it was store policy not to add oil but to do an oil change. I told him he had this same knowledge this morning when I asked him to add 2 or 3 quarts ... and that I would not pay for the oil change either. He adjusted the total down to $144.11 and asked if it was acceptable to me. I said it was fine. Also informed him if I had heard from him and he had told me the rotors needed replacing with new ones and quoted me the $448.00 before the work started, I would have gladly paid for them but I did not play little boy games.

I do not enjoy having to act this way one bit but sometimes it is necessary to rise to the occasion. :(

Going to work ,and i just don’t feel like it. My mind is elsewhere :awww:

Work. There’s a project I’ve been delaying for a few weeks, but I need to tackle it today or at least start on it. Part of my job is keeping my manager smiling and she won’t be a happy camper if I keep kicking this to the bottom of my to-do list.

Work life could be worse.

:bow:

coffee, music, garden ..i do my best thinking inthe dark

...If I tell you, can you keep the secret?
:curtain:

My car and my stupidity are on my mind. I am in the habit of leaving my front door unlocked, safe neighbourhood syndrome maybe. So today a new delivery driver called, I was upstairs and he opened the door and left a parcel in the porch, I came straight down and as I walked through the house I could see him sitting in his van eyeing my car and the house up closely for quite a while. I picked up my parcel and locked my door, still he sat and watched. My keys are kept not far from the door in a dish, keys to the house and car, convenient for any would be burglar or car thief. My door will be locked from now on and the keys have been relocated.

Steven Hawking passed today...without his illuminated mind, the world feels dimmer

Acknowledgement...it may be a silent exchange, but worthy to take the time to Acknowledge someone's journey and efforts.

On my mind - Tomorrow morning. Important appointment. WOOT.

How many people i have to meet today. Im nervous about being asked a ton of questions. However i got told by a few that i look like mom and have her mannerisms.

The multiple blessings I received today.

back to Gemme
 

I love finding the little gadget sale bins at Lowes and Home Depot. I recently found some tiny Gorilla brand acrylic hinges. A perfect use for them will suddenly arise in the future. :)

Wondering if there will be any delays for my flight back to Texas. And getting a copy of moms death certificate so i can travel with some of her ashes.

Getting estimates for my truck tomorrow and making sure they do it right. I found visible damage that the Toyota dealer didn't notice or add to the estimate.

Sorry I'm late for work.

I was leaving my apartment and then I sat down.

– work
– vacation
– her