Getting all the stuff packed into boxes and moved into the bathroom so we can have new carpet put in.

I am wondering if the fact that my now ex partner and I were not able to make things work may be due, in part, to the fact that she does not perform gender in a masculine or butch way. She did have some qualities related to more butch type activities but she does not identify as butch. I very strongly identify as femme and find that the energy and balance of a butch femme relationship works so well for me. I enjoy even the small things like someone opening the door, helping me with heavy items, ordering both of our dinners at the restaurant, and the butch confidence and dominance within certain aspects of the relationship. I know everyone is different so this is just my thoughts about the matter. Thank you for reading my post.

I've been working on decluttering too. It feels like there needs to be some sort of 12 Step program around this because I'm finding it incredibly difficult to do. Well it's all done now... It's just I keep wanting to go back to certain boxes and retrieve stuff, I'm really having to white knuckle it to refrain from doing so. I watched this show once where some sort of psychic healer person was helping a woman declutter and they had to go over each piece and do this whole letting go ritual of saying goodbye to everything item by item. Oh and they had to thank the stuff they released/gave back to the universe too. One... item... at... a... time. Well I'm not Methuselah. I figure I've got maybe 30 good years left on this planet – I don't want to waste 10 of it on this crud. Nope I have to get rid of this stuff. Even then I'll still have all that stuff of mine in my son's storage unit to go through.

All this preparation for carpet is ridiculous. I can see spending the money on other certain things on the house. I just wish they would move out, this house is gonna end up bleeding them dry.

What about “When”? Ducking!!

I was thinking about how more often than not the price we pay for things does not necessarily match the quality. However, I was also thinking it depends on the item being purchased. Like I pay a lot for my shoes and sneakers and they last me a long time. Then today I bought a new pair of earbuds w/ mic for $30 after sending back the $150 Beats pair that I had. I synced the new set in less than 5 minutes and the buds fit perfectly in my ears. Again paid less- and got better quality than paying more.

However, I shall also say it really does depend on what you are buying. I would not use a blanket statement and say ALL things high priced do not match in quality, etc.

It would be cool to have a thread where people could give examples like I did. It would be interesting to see what others think and what things they have purchased that fall in line on either side of the fence.

Thats a great idea for a thread Reach and hacks and dupes as you suggest would be useful too.

Prepping for my class on Saturday to see if i get the job or just to further my training and discuss pay rate, etc seeming it sounds like i got the job.

My ex works at the same agency as I do which is fine because we are both very professional and don't work in the same division but sometimes I have to interact with her which can be somewhat dysregulating.

The electrician was here yesterday and for 100 bucks he relieved my mind that I do not have an electrical issue at my smoke detector. We came up with a solution to the battery issue by using a smoke detector that will be hard wired to the house with no backup battery (on order).

More than that I made friends with two local men. The electrician's helper seemed like an "old hippie" and I get along very well with old hippies.

Well worth 100 bucks.

:cowboy:

Actually, I'm trying not to think...I have a huge decision to make about work and a new, more specific job to my licensing and I gave it up to my higher power to help with it...

but it keeps creeping in...

(Sigh)

:blink:

Almost everything people do in life today seems to have a mobile app.... Why can't I find an app that gives me more time in a day whilst still getting all the things done that I need? Someone needs to make one of those!

My background check isnt done yet but i know there isnt anything on it. I heard there was a glitch in the new computer system at work.

On my mind
 

I found out today that the next family party will be in Brazil. I was hoping for a 4th of July party but that will not happen. I will be saving up for Brazil and I hope that mom can come too.

How I find that I am in a place in my life where it is the little things that move me. Where I feel and see far better than I ever have. There is need for grand gestures or extravagant things. A smile, a flirt, or a bashful look- it is amazing what happens when your heart and mind are open.

A battery bank busbar. Dammit.

I meant to say there is NO need for grand gestures or extravagant things. THIS is what happens when I am wiped out from the day and try to write. :blink:

why am i still single again? jk ^^ hope the next days will be ok ^^

Many things are on my mind. Most of which put me to feeling happy. I feel the anticipation of good things. I will keep my heart and mind open to it all.

My new Rav4...I'm thankful for it, but I just can't seem to like it or love it as much as I loved my truck. I didn't realize until it was gone how much I enjoyed that simple, base of the line Tacoma.

I cannot stop thinking about those sheep we lost last night. My housemates buried them today while I was away from the farm and they asked if I wanted them to wait- but I told them no, it was hard enough seeing what I saw last night, I could not bring myself to help bury them today. Have you ever had your heart hurt so much that you can feel it in your throat? That is how I have felt since this happened.

Even more than that the fact that this person did not stop. We are on a country road so there are no cameras or anything that would have gotten a license plate or description of the vehicle. So basically, they got away with it. I am guessing they might have been under the influence and maybe that is why they did not stop. Or they just did not care.

I am a firm believer in karma, so what does not happen right away the Universe will take care of.

However, for now- I will mourn.

Today was such a whirlwind.
My Papaw was put on comfort care this morning which meant a mad-dash to the hospital. It also meant being around family members whom I chose to take space from 2 years ago.
It was as awful as it sounds.
BUT...my Sister is due on Wednesday with my perfect little niece and JD will be here in an hour and we are going to heal up all the rough spots.

I felt my spine today. Hard and strong and vibrant.

On my mind
 

My ex from the 90s (not on this site). She is coming to help move mom next weekend. She is so kind to my mom and that makes me think.

A femme that is kind and loves my family is special. I am happy that she wants to be in my life and wants to spend time with my family.

We were not a good match as a couple but I am happy to say that she is my dear friend.

on my mind ...

three things I cannot locate after I moved two years ago ...

1. a really nice (expensive) set of cobalt drill bits

2. tool which measures and sets spark plug gaps

3. my best dick

And the measure/set gapper is such a nice one - it is not the coin looking type but the blade kind ... has feelers as well as gappers

I want to install fresh plugs in 2 chainsaws today. Plus one needs a new chain. Most times the gaps in new plugs are fine but since I cannot find my little set of blade gapper gizmos, this will likely be when I need it.

I have searched and searched for it. Woe is me! Well, I will pick up another one when I go into town tonight or tomorrow.

Actually, when I drill down into my thoughts a little deeper, I think I may be looking for an excuse to take a nap.

Nap??? Did I hear someone mention a nap? Excellent idea! Lights out!

(but still hoping my lost stuff turns up)

back to Gemme
 

The first two were likely together but the third one would have been in a military helmet bag along with similar but it was not.

Although, I must be honest ... I am not at all an organized packer/mover. And there are still some boxes in the third bedroom that I've not opened -->> maybe they are there. I have no idea what is in those boxes in the closet. I've been saving those to open when I need a surprise present. Maybe I will open them tomorrow - take a peek.

Thanks for your question. It made me remember those boxes.
:)
BTW, I did get unlazy, the spark plugs are in and the chain is on the one that needed a replacement. All of it works fine. I cut a lot of 4" to 6" discs off logs I cut down months back. Great for stump burning ... burn a very long time!

My beautiful girlfriend she’s constantly in my thoughts :)

back to Reach
 

Reach, I am very sorry about your loss of you sheep.

i gazed at my first dragonfly of the season. It made me happy.

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That credit card bill that'll be showing up in a few weeks........:|

I wish everyone could have an experience with an ex like this! I consider myself very fortunate that I do.

4:00 pm... I miss being home

How awful. I'm so sorry.

What to wear tomorrow night. Some folks from high school and myself are meeting up for 90s night at Big Texas in Spring. I cant wear any of my 90s clothes lmao so i cant enter the contest, but can't wait to see everyone.

A very interesting study regarding body position, testosterone, and cortisol. By using up more space such as arms and legs spread out, the body increases testosterone levels and decreases cortisol levels. This can lead to positive outcomes regarding confidence levels.

I STILL cannot get this song out of my head from yesterday. Woke up with it and it looks like at some point I will be going to bed with it.