How long does one need to be on hold before the sweat from one's ear fuses the plastic earpiece of the phone to one's head?

Ottomans ...
how wrong that was and how much I liked it yep thats so my girl!

My friends that are going through such a rough time.
One of my friends whom I worked with on the department lost their baby girl last night during birth. This poor family went through the same experience 4 years ago when they lost a son during birth...now a daughter. How much can one family handle?? And what do you tell someone who is going through this? It makes me so weepy to even think about their pain. My prayers go out to them.... and may God watch over lil baby Samantha:rrose:

that my first set of grades are back and i don't wanna look:sunglass:

that I need to start packing,pick my seat on the plane,dont forget to print out my itinerary.
spend time with my lil one *smiles*

Planning for Vegas in May and Houston in June...

Sagittarius: Someone who is normally your ally might be pushing your buttons today, prompting you to feel betrayed. Pay attention to your response because you could make everything worse by overreacting. Thankfully, there's a positive side to the current melodrama. Your heart opens as you share your vulnerability, enabling you to become aware of any emotions that have been suppressed. Once you're in touch with your feelings, you can then decide what to do about them.

my back hurting is better than numbness.
it is better to struggle to be able to tie my own boots than to easily do so in a wheelchair, as I have already been there.
reminding myself to be patient, no matter how restless I feel right now.
to not get my hopes too high, I might still be trussed up like a turkey for a couple or a few more weeks. especially as I have sucked in the patience department the last 2 days.
patience.
have I mentioned that I am working on being patient.

and for anyone who has seen kung fu panda 2..
"inner peace innerpeaceinnerpeace peacepeacepeacepeacepeace....

... the mast is not a worthy opponent"

Getting ready for work and wondering what I can do to attract love. I've tried the online thing and that's not working. I mean I really can't move for love nor would I ask anyone to do that or I'm attracted to the ones who are taken. I mean this is what my love luck is like. So I want to get a love charm or love spell or do a dance to bring love. I guess I'm tired of not dating and it's time to do it and not be afraid of getting hurt. It's time I grew up and realize that I'm ready for love or a date. I can't let my mom living with me stop me because she won't be living with me much longer. What am I waiting for anyway? Life is just passing me by and I'm a ship that's just floating. Boy am I wasting time. Ok off to work. :)

It just dawned on me that I am 42 this year. That in itself is staggering but on top of that this is the year that I can say I've been "out" for half of my life and for pretty much the entirety of that time I have aligned myself very much on the butch side of life... getting further and further on that side as time goes by.

I have had the air let out of my tires, have been in two high speed car chases, been called a fag an amazing number of times (in my earlier life I'd correct them and tell them I was a dyke - this pisses hormonal guys off more - which pleased me more), scared probably around two hundred women (ten a year? I'm being conservative) in the women's bathroom. Made several of them leave the bathroom for fear they entered the wrong bathroom. Confused even more by announcing it was a co-ed bathroom... Told several waiters I'd have "breasts" when asked "what'll you have, sir?" (again, earlier in life)... have had hackers threaten me... was tossed out of where I was living... was shut out of family member's lives... have had hateful life altering things told to me by family members... have been harassed by cops in midtown... have had very close friends walk away... have experienced workplace discrimination - from coworkers and management... and I was about two hours away from being in The Otherside when it was bombed.

It's been one hell of a ride and I'd like to thank all of the aforementioned people for helping me along my journey.

The flip-side of the coin. I've made an amazing extended family who doesn't give a rats ass who I sleep with or how I present. I've changed several people's minds/views by just "being me" and allowing them to see what a "real" gay person was like. I've been accepted as "one of the guys" by the majority of people at work at this point - and in fact the place I experienced the worst harassment at first - is the place that protects me the most today. I've had amazing sales people in men's stores - I haven't been fitted for a suit yet by a jackass. I don't know if I'm lucky or what - but thank god!! I've been fortunate enough to have been born in a time where I don't have to worry about being carted off to jail for not wearing "3 items of women's apparel". I give thanks to the Butches/TGs/FtMs/Studs before me who paved the way... I have been pleasantly surprised more and more by people who... well.. the cover did not match the book. I am learning day in and day out that as much as they can't judge me by my looks - I shouldn't judge them by theirs. There are some str8 up Southern Baptist looking women out there who blow me away with their liberal views. That's all I'm saying.

So yeah... Here's to the next 21 years... I can't wait!

What's on my mind...

... is the "this and that" life offers. I'm on top of the world with my girl and all that we have, all that we dream of and all that we have not yet planned but ummmm plan to plan...

I'm also thinking of the darkness I am about to step into with putting my application in at the shelter for employment after I have completed my internship. Yeh, it's just a job.. so you think but it's more to me than that. I have been dependent on disability for well over 20 years because of my sight. The interesting thing is... this... working in a homeless shelter is my "vision." It's completely unknown where things will go but faith and determination are my guide.... I'm freakin petrified.

...snip....[QUOTE=Tawse;563654] I was about two hours away from being in The Otherside when it was bombed.
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we have probably crossed paths there in the past. I WAS there that night..and was sitting right where that thing went off BUT had walked outside about 5 minutes before it went off. I saw that guy there and saw that backpack...never dreamed of anything so horrible...some of my friends were injured there that night.....horrible night!!!