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What is on my mind..
Tomorrow is my son's 26th birthday and I am feeling a small level of sadness... He's such a great kid but at this time in his life I was really expecting so much more for him. Don't get me wrong, I love him very much and I'm proud of him in so many ways, it's just so hard to sit back and watch him experience life through such unnecessary hardships and struggles. It's so hard to watch him live his life and experience his journey through his mistakes. Each year I make my birthday wish for him that he will come around and use his talents, his brain and his abilities to do what he is so capable of doing. I see the kids on campus and wonder where he would be now had he followed through with his college education. He was the one to get me into college and then he bailed. Tomorrow I will make my new wish and maybe this time it'll be heard. Till when I see him at his ultimate potential in life, I will continue to love and adore that kid for who he is at this time, because who he is right now is my son and no matter what his path is in life I really am proud that he's mine!! Love ya kid and Happy Birthday!! :heartbeat: |
I find myself thinking of someone. Someone I think is very goodlooking. And interesting. Thinking how I bet it would be fun to do stuff with them. Thinking how giggly I would probably be if we were to go on a date. But the most surprising part to me, is that I am NOT thinking of them in a sexual way at all. They are easy on the eyes, but I feel no sexual chemistry.
I am so confused. Good thing they don't live anywhere near me where I have the potential of making a fool of myself with them. LOL |
passing my CPT exam... again! (failed the first time) :worried:
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today, i am being super hard on myself, beating myself up pretty much, She comes to rescue me as She has been doing for years now, not only does She rescue me, She dusts me off and has a beautiful bouquet of spring flowers waiting for me. i just don't deserve my life
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I got the taxes done for me, Jack, and the Planet LLC. I think I should get a prize!
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some people make me shake my head,yup your clueless I guess
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Presented with much love, adoration and hope for big returns. :hangloose: http://rlv.zcache.com/interesting_ta...82gq80_325.jpg |
I need a nap, how long are they gonna keep me on hold....GRRRRRR
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Sagittarius: A weird mixture of positive intentions and negative encounters makes for a rather exciting day. You can't decide if you should take the obstacles you face at work as a sign that you need to change your direction. Or, maybe, someone's aloofness has you concerned about whether or not you did something wrong. Either way, turn the seeds of doubt into the fruits of your labor. You can accomplish nearly anything you put your mind to now.
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This new piece of a marketing project. I have so many ideas. :D
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That nothing beats the reality that is my life
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my developing healthy relationship with food.. i continually get so excited about this, because it's always been so difficult over the years to even want to cook.. All that mattered were my binges, and eventually lost sight of even cooking a healthy meal anymore.. For years & years, it was junkfood, processed foods, fast foods... And for a girl who once loved to cook & bake - collect recipes and experiment with different foods, i grew to hate the kitchen.. i isolated myself from so many things i love in life - and so being able to stand in my kitchen again, and get re-inspired to cook and make such pretty, colorful dishes fills my heart with joy.. Mr Mtn and i have been healthying up recipes which is so much fun to do.. We are both so passionate about healthy eating and creating delicious dishes - and it's such a fun thing to do together.. i even find myself skipping through the aisles of the grocery store these days, when once i stressed and hated trips to the grocery store.. And i shop so differently now.. i love the produce aisles and the health food/organic sections most, and skipping the junk food and processed foods altogether.. i'm just so friggin' proud of myself..& the children too, because they are also getting as passionate about healthy eating and caring about their well-being... That makes me smile big! |
Think wedding hair will look like this!:
For those who have not seen The Dress: Kiddo goofing around with me in her dress: |
How happy I have been since moving. work is going really well and I love it. DamonK no longer working nights so we get more time together. And of course my intrigue in Hym.
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Sagittarius: The annual journey of the Sun through Taurus makes your life busier, since it activates your 6th House of Daily Routine. You would prefer to be embarking on a great adventure, but first you must put your shoulder to the wheel and complete your chores. Don't be overly concerned; there will be plenty of time to play later. Currently, the real emphasis is on doing the small things that truly matter.
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I'm really sad that Dick Clark died. I used to watch American Bandstand when I was a kid. I saw The Jackson Five there. I've been watching at least since the late sixties. He was a true gentleman and an icon and he will be sadly missed.
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How much healthier i am now, pretty amazing, stress will kill ya
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Thinking of my Memere.. Missing her so.. Knowing she is failing, wishing i didn't live so far. So grateful for the visit to see her , been looking through pictures of my visit.. We lost Pepere back in 1999, and it was so sudden.. So it's been nice to grab some quality time with her - but hard to swallow that i am losing her to lung cancer.. She'll be 88 years old this May.. Worry about her everyday, what she endures and would just like her suffering to stop..She doesn't deserve it..No one deserves this. She's so beautiful..♥ A picture of us a couple of weeks ago, i love her so much.. http://i185.photobucket.com/albums/x...Picture228.jpg |
That one of my favorite country groups (Big N Rich) are coming in May and I would Love to go! But since I still haven't landed a job, and Guy doesn't like country...guess I will have to say No.
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Reading my horoscope for today, it rings so true of my life lately:
"Put everything you've got into personal gain. Invest in you and what you can do to improve your situation. Don't let anyone deter you from engaging in a project, activity or plan. Taking action will shut down any opposition you face" I've been putting alot into myself the last week and a half since I said enough is enough. Learning to love myself is a huge project to engage in, but this investment is well worth it and in the long run I will be much happier than I've ever been ~ I'm starting to work on myself, and its more gratifying than I ever thought it would be :) |
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