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In the middle of the night, while reflecting on a long, hard day....
Who was I in a past life? I've been told I'm an "old soul".... Is Karma being good to me or is Karma paying me back? (ie. do I have it good even though I have struggles or is Karma paying me back for some past life transgressions? If it's the first choice, then I should be more grateful for having it good even in the face of struggles.) Who/Where will I be in the next life? Can I please come back as a butterfly or hummingbird? My ex-spouse once said "There is no hell, hell is here on earth." This statement came from their belief in the Jehovah Witness faith... I ponder that statement too. |
Anniversary
Pondering princessbelle's ponder...and remembering Peter Pan. Well, I am also pondering this as the eve of a 7 year cancer free anniversary. When I was told I needed surery, I thought prostate, vs..hysterectomy. :) :rrose: Pondering what I did with those 7 years. Who I met and who I lost. Who I loved and loved me back. Who stayed and who went when it was rough. I am alone in the quiet of this night with my pondering mind. Celebrating in the morning with an invite for my favorite home cooked breakfast ~from the ex of 8 years ago. :superman: Pondering I really did think I could fly. :supermanbooth: |
I have been pondering the feasibility of a recent science tv program that was intimating that we humans and our lives may be just complex computer simulations of an advanced society. Wouldnt that be a kick in the pants. |
Am I too old for a mohawk?
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why was that lady at the dog park shaking that piece of poop off
before she put it in her little bag? ? ? |
Wondering what kind of new porn we should buy.......
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After multiple dreams about being late for or missing work, I'm thinking that it's a good idea to check the next day's schedule before bed.
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i was thinking last night what ever happened to my cominuity.. it seems so many have become i dont know what to call it (upity).
i see so many looking down there noses at others, others that they dont even know casting judgment when they havent even exchanged hellos. all the finger pointing,bickering and belittleing within a cominuity that not long ago was the victim of this same behavior if they were to step out of the closet and onto the street. makes me wonder am i just getting old and this is the new? the cominutiy i recall supported each other, respected each other even if we didnt quite understand where the other "family" member was coming from. we protected and cared for one another, we had to.. because we were the "other kind" that the majority of the population loved to bash. just makes me wonder.. lol and i walked uphill 5 miles in the snow to go to school to! j/k |
Sometimes I lie awake at night (not really) wondering why we would be expected to tolerate ignorance and the "isms" as prevalent in our "community" as the mainstream. Just because we're riding in the same queer boat doesn't mean I'm going to turn a blind eye to bullshit.
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I'm making room in my brain for cupcakes.
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Why am I still up in the middle of the night to ponder
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the thoughts that wake me in the middle of the night...
who decided ties were a good idea who decided we work 5 days and have 2 off how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop do i really want fries with that or have i been conditioned to say yes do i really need a water or can i fall back to sleep without it.... |
i sometimes ponder about people i went to school with and lately, a guy who used to pick me up and drop me home from time to time. i decided to ponder aloud with a facebook friend great at keeping contacts from our class; however, the person i was looking for was absent from his list of friends. we decided to just check whitepages, and the friend i have been off and on pondering about, lives on my street. very strange in a way.
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WHY? Yanno, sometimes I'm just not in the mood for another fucking learning opportunity. |
Pride inginsomnia
Sleepless music beat
Long climbs ocean breeze "waking" in a few hours sleepless wanting cold cut up bite size watermelon in bed sleepless |
is my night light on?? |
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Lol, we watched the freaking All-Star race again when we got back to my place. Up til 5:15am and then I shut the alarm clock off and my brother woke me up at 11:30 telling me they were on their way to my parents for the cookout I had to make tea for and all. Talk about jumping up and motivating, lol. It was an awesome weekend for sure and am glad we all had a great time! |
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What an amazing weekend indeed! i know you two had a good time with my NASCAR ignorance...LOL Looking forward to the 600 on Sunday! Sunday! Sunday! |
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Questions I Wonder About in the Middle of the Night
I think I have overloaded God with wayyy too many prayers and requests.
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Second round of endorphins?
COME ON NOW...Its friggin 2:45 AM |
Shall I buy these shoes?
http://www.vibramfivefingerskso.biz/...Flow-black.jpg |
Will I ever find my soulmate?
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Why in the world does that dude that lives in the upstairs apartment feel he needs 4 dogs that run and bark all night across my ceiling??
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I often ponder
is that all there is :blink: |
I ponder many things, often simultaneously, like: ~ Would a craftmatic adjustable bed be a good investment? It would give me something to play with while I lie awake and ponder. ~ Are carpenter ants unionized? ~ Did Alan Greenspan coin "irrational exuberance" after a not so exciting sexual encounter? ~ If being in possession of a certain amount of marijuana is legal here, why cant I buy it over the counter? ~ Is it ok to take Nyquil PM at 3 am? ~ Who is more masculine....Donald Trump or Sarah Palin? ~ If 50,000 units of vitamin D can be put in a pill the size of a pin head, why is 500 mg. of calcium as big as my head? ~ How long will it take someone to realize they can sidestep the rising price of gasoline by selling it in a unit of measurement less than a gallon? How long would it take consumers to notice if they did? ~ Can I grow a coffee plant out of the georgia pecan coffee beans in the freezer? ~ Where did I hide my chocolate stash? ~ Why is it that a relative with memory loss cant remember anything but the fact that you didnt return their phone call? |
As I lay here in the dark I ponder many questions as of late...
What sins did I commit in this life or past lives to warrant this karma? As a human being, a person, am I really that interchangeable and so easily discarded? Are my feelings that insignificant to those who drift thru my life? Am I truly that naive and gullible, not once but twice? Why does it matter? Why do I allow it to matter? Why do I allow it to hurt? Am I that weak or just that vulnerable? |
It kind of bothers me that my father's favorite movies are the "Saw" movies, my mothers are the "Kill Bill" movies. They are two people you would never think would enjoy those types of movies. I might have to go ahead and put them in a nursing home.
I kid about the nursing home part. |
I wonder if anyone out in the world is looking for a butch like me?
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I ponder many things in the night as i go to sleep. I think this is my best "thinking" time of the day.
Last night i layed there thinking this... What if colors are not all seen the same. Meaning what if blue to me is yellow to you. Someone taught us and now we know that yellow is yellow. But what if it is my purple. Speaking of sleep, it should be pretty apparent...i need some....nighty night. |
.. do i have a load on my truck ?? or was that yesterday??
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questions that arose tonight
questions big and small:
did i wash all the dishes? (no, there's one in the sink.) do i HAVE to take this yucky medicine? (yes, i do.) where will i spend the second half of my life? (contemplating that one still) what persists after we die? (contemplating) can we think w/o language? (presently i think not but am contemplating still):moonstars: |
well its not the middle of the night but i am pondering how hot will it be if we decide to go to the reunion?
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"Do I really have to wake up to pee now...or can this wait until morning..."
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Where have all the flowers gone?
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