Other than...
 

... the usual ten million things, I just can't believe "what I can't believe".

That is what is on my mind.


:bath:

How some days I feel like this...

:happyjump::happyjump::happyjump::happyjump:

and some days I feel like this...

:badmood: :thud: :boink: :chasingzombie: :crap: :hiding: :bigcry: :blues:

And I really wish I could make the icky days go away.

I am thinking that 13 years ago my life was so different. I miss some things and am grateful to have outlived others. It's kind of funny, this sort of apathy that takes over. And then I saw this: :sock: and thought, "How funny to have the state of California randomly as a smilie." Then discovered it is a sock. Yup, that is the kind of day I am having.

What was said between her and I this evening

Now that's a thought. I too like the scent of Tiger Balm, and your absolutely correct, it does smell like a spiced chai tea, wow, I knew the smell but could never pin point it.
As for my thought, I still wish Doll picked perfume again this year, instead of night wear, ~hush~ stop with the giggles of my old school pajama talk.
I still like flannel jammies!!!

Tutorials.......

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And yes, I'm using that "new" math.

I want to see new moon again.
:moonstars:

A lot lately.

The short work week. *thumbs up* Too many smilies to go through to find a thumbs up. *chuckles* That's another one, though I guess it could also be *giggles*

I love it that my dogs sleep so sound!!

Lately there always seem to be a million things on my mind. Dreams and possibilities, eventualities, what-if's, worries and even a few regrets. A lot of "I'm not good enough"s and now and then a few "I cant believe I did it"s. Every once in a while I get like this... Its my sign to myself that its probably time to reevaluate again, make sure that I am headed in the right direction. I have been doing that the last few weeks and I am starting to come to some conclusions.

So whats on my mind right now is a little like this....

I have always wanted to sing, since I was old enough to know I got to be something when I grew up it was always with my voice, a rockstar, a jazz singer, and when I matured and took a real look, a music teacher... a high school choir teacher to be exact. I decided that when I was in 9th grade, it never changed. I went on job shadows for that, I planned out college for that, and I started college for that. Then rebellion kicked in... I got married (to someone I shouldn't have, mostly because my parents hated him) and I had two beautiful kids, I quit school and I stayed at home to raise them. The ill fated marriage didn't last long, not quite 5 years. I got some help to go back to school... but only if I studied one of their approved programs, so it was Medical Reception for me. Work in that field is now hard to find... and I have never used the certification, I got my kids back from their dad, where they had lived while I was in school, and my mother suggested a fall back. Shes a teacher and she suggested that I work as a substitute educational assistant, the schooling I have provides the necessary credits for this position.

One day on the job working in the local high school was enough to bring back all the passion I have ever had for teaching and more! So now is where the hard part comes in. I have a goal... its the getting there that needs figured out.

When I took back my children, I also moved back in with my parents. My son is a special needs child and raising him on my own would not allow me to provide the extras that are so important to children, and the special attention he in particular needs. I talked to my mother about my desire we have agreed that I can stay with them for the next 4 to 5 years while I work and go to school to get my teaching certificate. Its going to be a long road but a very rewarding one.

This is the first time since I turned 18 that I have finally felt like my life is headed somewhere. It makes me very happy, but it has accentuated a missing element in my life. Someone to share my happiness with. My focus has been so much on my children and my home that I haven't had time or opportunity to be out and about... I know that somewhere there is someone perfected paired for me. I am just sometimes afraid that in my "one thing at a time" outlook to life, I might have walked right past them already.

When I do run into this person, I am sure it will be a head on collision, if not, I probably wont even notice... And most likely, they will be exactly the opposite of everything I think I want. Until then I guess I just keep fumbling through life. At least my feet are pointed in a general direction again.

I miss her and wish she would be at home but nooo she is at work

my sister might be coming into town a day early and not alot is done at my house and my parents house in preparation for her arrival with her hooligans lol

Thanksgiving dinner... and that I haven't started cooking it yet!!

That reminds me Miss Jenn,

I need to go shopping for cooking stuff Thursday morning

My love for the holidays and the joy I find in the kitchen cooking the comfort food of family tradition.
Thankful that the only time I have to act like I know my way around a kitchen is when I want to be there.
:giggle::giggle:

Why in the hades am I still awake?

I need to be asleep but I am not tired maybe the nap today was NOT a good idea

Hiiiiiiii! I'm new here, friend of a friend of a friend... hehehehehe hows is going? <3 this :groupphoto:
and..... so yeah.. i need help gettin around this place though. :/
i like making new friends too :)

that i have 2 days and a wake up, then im heading up north for 5 days. although i will miss my boy, it will be a great trip.

Lee, welcome to the planet. We're really a friendly, caring bunch once you get to know us. It doesn't matter how you got here......you're here and that's great. We're all learning to navigate around here as it's new to all of us. If you have questions, put them out there and I'm sure someone will supply the right answer.

Figuring out if I wanna go back to Wal Mart or not and see if they have a lighter color Polo shirt for me to get, but light colored shirts always show stains and I have stain issues

Not that long ago, they changed up sizes in some fits of clothing at many stores, I have the same issue with some shirts.

On My Mind: a few questions...

Nothing anymore... or rather nothing I can say in a thread. I am sorry to whom ever I offeneded it will not happen again. My sincere apologies. peace and love

Smiles :frog:

Hoping this last conference of the day flies by. Thinking about making my Paula Dean specials: Pumpkin Cheesecake and Sweet Potato Balls.

I'm new here...

Hi

Two weeks ago, my partner of 12 years (who is 12 years younger) told me she wants to be single again. She's not cheating..loves me to death..but midlife has hit and she's in love with her motorcycle and new friends. I think I became Hir security and Momma; and now she's ready to spread Hir wings and fly into the sunset.

We're going to remain good friends, but in the mean time I have to move out of our house; relocate (we work together) to another facility and start a new life.

People are really angry with Hir. I'm not. I really understand this scenario. I was there once too. And, in all honesty, I worked too hard at the relationship. This will be a nice break. Don't get me wrong. I'm dying inside. I just can't do anything about this..so why not use my energy to move forward?

Any of you ever break up a long term relationship and maintain a close friendship with that person? People think we're totally nuts.

BellaOctober1,

No. It doesn't surprise me a bit. People are judgemental, esp. if they have no busy personal life. I think it angers them that they are not able to have a long term relationship. Or if they date infrequently. And when you break up, it is like a divorce. Some people choose sides. And some people totally walk away from both parties.

Just G,

Matthew will be in my prayers, as will be Harley. I know too much about cancer, and my hatred of it.


SuperFemme,

This year will be the first year that I am not serving the homeless. I usually do every year thru Bea Gaddy's organization or thru some local food bank/shelter like Our Daily Bread. This year I am just sending in two casseroles, and two salads. The need is greater than ever.