The only abnormality there is is the inability to love. Anais Nin.

Have you ever walked away from someone/something you've loved?

yes. it's what got me where i am today.


what do you wish you understood better?

People...


Which finger do you use to pick yer nose? :|

all of them. got one right up there now. makes it hard to tpey ---- teyp ---- eytp ---- pyte ---- yept ---- TYPE (whew!)


what are you going to put off doing today, and why?

Probably cooking.

What's the real you haven't lost weight if you need to do so?

because it's something i'd rather hate myself for than do anything about. it's weird too because i'm not lazy. i'm physically active and i like losing weight when it does happen. but the last 5 or 6 years or so i've been in a kind of strange survival mode and it's really ramped up my obsession/addiction to food. there are days when i wonder just how long i think i'll be given the chance to abuse myself this way before there's a significant price to pay. dont get me wrong. i'm not a thinworshiper and i am glad of that. to be honest, i've never been even close to thin but i dont want to be and that's not sour grapes either. it's acknowledging that i think beauty is present in sizes other than 0/2 and that i'm always going to be an 18/20. my whole family is big people so i'm gonna be a big people too. just facts. but i'd prefer to be less big. not skinny. just less big --- because i actually want to be.


tell me about someone you most admire.

You know it's a toss up between Nelson Mandela and the Dalai Lama. Both have endured so much physically and mentally but neither of them gave up and remained positive. That's pretty amazing and something we/i could all learn from.

Tell me about a part of your body you don't like (because I hate my feet).

just one? LOL ok. if i have to pick one i'd say flabby triceps. (and face and ass and love handles and thighs and did i mention my ass and love handles?)

do/did you really know your parents? why/why not?


p.s. Kiwi. if you're a reader you might like a book called A Cave in the Snow. it's by a woman called Vicki MacKenzie. (sp?)

what i dislike in other folks is probably the same thing i dislike in myself. but if i did need to choose one thing i really hate it's to be interrupted or talked over the top of. i think it's dismissive and rude.

back to my question ---

do/did you really know your parents? why/why not?

do/did you really know your parents? why/why not?

No, I would like to think that I did as I was present in the house for the first 12 years with both of them, but my step father was very abusive in all of the ways.. and my mother was in constant survival mode. I was the mouthy little girl that just needed to protect her brother and mother, there for needed breaking and to be taught the lesson.. So no, and not much has changed.. In adult years, I have become friends with my mom, and we are close, but I am still the family protector, and I still now and will always stand up for what I believe is right, even if I stand alone! :)

Dare to tell the Truth.. Did you ever have an imaginary friend as a child?

Nope no need had brother and sisters and plenty of animals around.

Do you ever dream of becoming a star?

Do you ever dream of becoming a star?

Absolutely!!! I love to sing.. even if i am the only one that doesnt have the hairs stand on my arms listening to myself. I did a solo in kindergarden at my graduation.. and a few times after that..lol

Where you were a child... who did you want to be like as adult?

like my grandmother (ma)

Do you run a lot of red lights?

Not intentionally lol

Where is the farthest place you have traveled ?

Where is the farthest place you have traveled ?

Little Rock.. before that would have been Texas.. I have not yet left the continent.

What are you doing for the weekend?

studying for an exam
and preparing myself for the big exam

car stuff
play with the dogs
and laundry.

oh-- Sunday, we are going to the Balloon Fiesta!

What is your most favourite kind of cake? and why-- what does it remind you of?

Probably going to a friend's for a barbeque.

Where is the most exciting place you have ever been?

Where is the most exciting place you have ever been?

Define exciting? For simple beauty, I adore Mendicino California.. the ocean crashing on the shores, the kindness of the people there, on the edge of the red forest with the mountains surrounding.. Galveston Texas gave me some excitement too... until i almost stepped on a jellyfish playing in the sand.. in the dark. lol
I went on a trip earlier this year to hang out with Starryeyes and Justin, and I was overwhelmed with the warmth of their friendship.. so that falls in to one of my top favourites.. and Little Rock of course.. the feeling of belonging. and the laughs, new friends made... that was exciting

Name one characteristic about yourself that you need to work on...

Just one lol. Not to be so forgiving especially when someone continues to screw you over.

If you could save the world but lose yourself would you?

If you could save the world but lose yourself would you?

Depends on the context.. If there was a situation that I alone could stop and it would inturn guarantee the saving of many lives.. yes.. with out a doubt.. I would however be scared shitless.. I tend to act without thinking about the consequenses to myself, in helping others.. just who I am.
If time and money were non issue.. what is one thing that you would love to learn.. just for selfish reasons..

i would love to learn how to spin (using a spinning wheel) and weave. but the materials are soooo expensive.

if you were independently wealthy and didn't have to worry about finding work or anything, where in the world would you live and why?

I never get tired of this song

second choice.....and it's a close second



Would you be willing to move to a different Continent?

Sure as long as it wasn't a slavic or asian language. I can't talk like I'm hawking a luggy.

What's your favorite pair of underwear you own? Why?

I have - South Korea and now Malaysia (and the US in between hahahaha)

have you ever regretted having fur babies? Or not having if you don't have.

sometimes I think we have 1 too many-- only because we have 2 older dogs and the newest is a younger younger pup-- and with our schedules its just hard sometimes, but I love him and I wouldn't ever give him up.

good question, btw.

Are you the jealous type?

i didnt used to be. as my insecurities have magnified jealousy has found a home inside of me. (shrug) abandonment issues. go figure.

:| <=== thought insecurities were supposed to decrease with age face


do you do something in secret that the people in close physical proximity to you dont know about and if so, why? (tell what if you can w/o endangering yourself or your peace of mind)

Weeelllll, occasionally, when my Malaysia ex still lived with me, I would find opportunities to have time alone and umm, you know. Relax. :blush:

Have you ever emotionally cheated on your lover?

yes. i did it once. lead to the greatest love of my life. do i wish i'd done things differently? yes. but no. and mostly no. there you go. DARE to tell the TRUTH, right?

have you ever walked out of a store having honestly forgotten to pay for something (i.e.: no intention of doing so when you went in or while you were shopping/browsing). if so, did you go back and pay?

p.s. lame answer Ms. Kiwidoll. EVERBUDDIEEE does that. :cracked:

happened years ago w. ice creams and yes we did go back and pay

when do u hold back the truth .. or would u ?

charming!!!! the whole point of my relaxing was that I was sneaking off to do it not including her because we weren't having sex anyways and I REALLY wanted to relax :blush:

:cracked:

you're kidding, right? no? ok. i hold back the truth everyday baby. every freakin day.

when was the last time you told yourself to lighten up, and why?

i stand by my annoying accusation

lame! :p

just recently.
because certain people aren't worth me getting irritated over.

why do you put things off?

I talk about them
or write them down to figure out why I'm irritated

Do you ever "rebel" about anything-- and if yes, what?

Not so much anymore, but I actually went through an entire 4 year relationship with someone who had Aspergers, you learn to give in or you will argue to your dieing breath. My mantra at the time was 'it's not worth the fight'. Now I am much more likely to fight for what I want, and walk away if I have to.

What dream are you not fulfilling that keeps niggling at you to get on it?