Think-age...
 

Texas A&M shooting....

This was actually by Texas A&M. A guy was getting an eviction notice when he opened fire on the officers and bystanders killing three. He was killed.

I wonder where four or five twenty dollar bills went to in my washing machine when I accidentally washed my wallet today? Maybe I should take it apart?

A friend who hasn't returned my texts since last week after an epic fail of a camping trip where we spent the whole weekend arguing. I miss talking to him.

I just googled "homes for sale in Antartica"

I think I'm supposed to be a nun..jk.. trying to find my calling..making a career change is tough.

making a home, a family, a life together

metaphorically speaking... direction and speed - maybe getting a gps, a map, more gas, new brakes

a realization - profoundly aware of my journey

hmmmm... an observation - when i get lost in thought i don't capitalize

Going home to cuddle with hym! Having coffee with hym this morning at work.

Wondering if my Pookie, left us a present in the apartment :|

Zimmeh

Ugh. Don't know where to start - especially because I need to study. But, so pissed off at my ex. I know - once you're an ex, no expectations. But I phoned her last week to come and stay with me for a couple of weeks. My blood pressure was not good (too high) and I was freaking out because the doctor said that the xray showed my heart to be a little enlarged. Not even mildly, just slightly (I think that was supposed to make me feel better), but still ... pretty bloody scary.

I got three different delays from my ex.

Haven't heard from her since last Saturday.

Phoned her today. Gave me another excuse.

I provided the only income for the best part of three years. She worked for one month. During that time I paid for rent, living expenses, made sure she always had cash in her wallet, put up with her bad moods, put up with no sex, put up with little conversation, put up with so much. Anything we did I paid for.

I'm trying really hard not to let it get to me - trying to get the blood pressure down and I need to focus on my studies. But still ...

I'm really :badmood::angry:

tomorrow's appointment...
no dancing for me for a while and no jumping in mudpuddles!

I have a job interview monday for a management position at another correctional facility. I'm so very excited! Need lots of positive thoughts!

I found a flea on my chi chi! I know what this means...oh man...

I am applying for a new job. It's an actual job where I get paid every 2 weeks and have benefits! I have been a freelancer for the past 2 years, and it has definitely had its ups and downs, but been awesome and I love it. This new job is a supervisory position where I would be faculty at a community college managing a staff of interpreters, scheduling them, monitoring them and helping them improve their interpreting skills. It also a position that I could mostly do from home, only having to go to campus a few times a week. This scares me because I feel like I'm gonna be bored! Right now, I'm zipping all over the city all day going to different assignments. The thought of giving that up to sit at home and schedule kinda stinks. But the pay is OMG and benefits, yay! So, I don't know. I have never been one to be a supervisor. I am way to laid back but it might be a good change. I guess ill have to see what's in the cards!

That's on my mind :-)

Smiles

Change
 

I am really good when it comes to change but.......

I have made some big changes in my life right now and have more comming and this is a really good thing
I am letting my child fly solo and this has been a long time comming go figure I would feel guilt
I am also not sure about having a femme roommate I have been trying to find that line in helping out and doing all the "Butch" things but need to be careful not to blur the lines and have anything taken the wrong way. I have never lived in this type of arangement and I think I know why......... I have to hold back and I do not like the feeling so I need to change this, I will fly solo too
Time to refill the coffee and ramble on in my mind sooooooo much in there

on my mind today is my mother.. my biological mother who on 16 Aug 1976 died in a car accident in Auburn Ca. She was drunk and she drove off a cliff. I am very torn today She was never close to me but I think it was her way of saving me she knew how screwed up she was now as a mother myself I think I see just how great her sacrifice was I was angry for many years the last thing II ever said to her was "I hate you"....

Sex
 

Sex is on my mind right now, well its on my mind lately. Its been a long time, and I find that I am really craving a good dirty romp. I even miss talking dirty lol. I never thought a person could 'miss' sex