Tired but anxious!

Top of the world! I have been having a blast with my Mortgage Loan Originator lady. First off, I love her name - it is Allison. Such a lovely ring to it. When I adopted my pocket pittie October a year ago, I already had two female names reserved for my next two female dogs. One was Jennifer and the other Allison. I studied the Ms Thang pocket pittie's face and decided she would be named Jennifer. So next female dog I get will be Allison. Straying off ... sorry.

This may turn into one of my long-winded posts ... you need to consider bailing out now.

A little over a week ago, Allison told me in an email that she was really tired and that I made her smile. Today I was clowning around with her in my emails and she came back and said, "You are such a mess" then indicated she was laughing. She has a cat ... and also said complimentary things about my canine children, Kevin and Jennifer. You know I had to send her their pictures. Heck, I have to get somewhat personal with her, this woman knows every tidbit in detail about my finances. Plus, have mercy on my stone butch soul, I am so turned on by smart women.

Today she said "Why don't you come over here to my office and we can talk?" Yea, I would really like to do that!

You know I am aware of the fact she is most likely heterosexual but I am having fun. Also, "that part" of me which I thought was dead has suddenly come alive with quite a rise. *wink* I do not wish for my full-fledged drive to return because it drives me nuts if I am single and not dating ... it is too intense for me even though outwardly, I make it appear subtle.

Al - li - son ... lovely name! Yes, I think so.
:)

awake... much too awake.

Rock On is correct....tubby = bath..... :)

Quite tired. Probably developing an ingrown toenail.

Apprehensive.

Feeling better today thanks to friends and family!

I'm feeling giddy!!!

A number of ways. A guy I have said hi and bye to before blocked traffic to run up and speak to me then quickly hand me his number. I know I should be flattered but I wish it was a nice butch who was showing me such attention.

So my overall feeling is a little crabby.

lol, I never had such a great time at my own expense before.
 

Simultaneous guilty self-revulsion mingled with irrepressibly naughty glee at something which I have done. The glee is feeding the guilt which in turn fuels the glee, lol.

And I'm totally getting a little sexual charge out of the whole damn thing.

I have felt for many reasons that I'm losing my way spiritually lately. And this is confirmation of that. I need to discuss this with my teacher - I think this situation is leading up to something and it feels very important. I just hope I can refocus my energy where it needs to be.

But until I can talk to teacher, I'm going to raise a little hell. I can always repent another day, lol.

Feeling nostalgic. Someone I dated 6 years ago messaged me out of the blue. I will reply tomorrow though. Not sure what to say right now.

Feeling
 

I feel tired, like I need to rest for at least a week.

Bored! If that's even a feeling.

I feel like a child. I am taking to my friend about cleaning my bathroom and keep giggling every time I talk about walls. And I haven't even started with the vodka yet.

Feeling
 

I feel good and excited about the weekend.

I am still feeling really overwhelmed... but I am also feeling very smiley this evening.

I caught another damn cold and it's taking forEVER to kick it, had to go get a shot in my arse and some powerful antibiotics for 5 days. OMG I'm sick of being sick.
Damn germs. lol

I'm drunk.

It doesn't happen often. But it's been a very good night.