I am happy you realized this!

Don't worry about me - I eat quite enough (even if chocolate makes up more of my diet than it should), I get out walking and love to be outside for activities AND I always make time in my day for self- care rituals. Self care is honestly one of the most important things to me and it is not always physical. Taking time for emotional and spiritual connection or grounding is also very essential.

I think work is just my way of letting all of my creativity come out.

Faults...
 

I procrastinate....

boy this is something I have really been thinking about lately. I know that I have some no matter what i say.

1. Im like a bulldog with a bone when I want to know the answer to a ? I have been told I dont know how to let things go. That maybe true however to me it feels like Im not worthy enough to know the truth. Which just makes me want to know even more.

2. I work too much. however I know one day I may not be able to so I feel you get it while u can

3. I havent realy learned the art of tact. I tell it like I see and I have a hard time NOT saying it.

4. I expect whom Im with to be able to talk to me about anyhing and everything. I have had it and I have not. I perfer to have it and when I dont It eats at me.

5. I know I have more so this isnt the end of the list however I dont want to make myself sound like someone who is really hard to get along with Im not or atleast I dont think I am

My faults....
 

Hmmmm,... what are my faults? How much space do we have on the servers? This could take a while. :)

• I "care" too much. I try to save everyone I love / care for even to the point of not considering my own well-being
• I am much too analytical. I analyze everything and try to read between the lines. What's really bad; however, is that I automatically jump to the worst possible scenario and sometimes cannot "shake it off", don't realize that it's not the most likely answer.
• I am too quick to forgive; I allow people to hurt me and take advantage of me because I don't value myself enough. It's hard to offend me, but I am fiercely protective of those I care about and am quite familiar with the concept of "putting my foot in my mouth". (Wow, this is starting to sound like therapy....)
• While people don't really scare me unless I let them get too close, I allow situations to intimidate me or procrastinate in the things I really want to see or experience. I should be bolder.
• I sometimes "shut down" when I really should be more open about what I am feeling and thinking. I have to really trust someone to "let them in".

This could take days....

I am so hard headed I will not admit that I cant accomplish something no matter what it is. I am well aware that at my height and weight I have less of a physical ability than most ppl , however I feel like I have the determination and brain power to make up for it. This being said, I needed to move a tractor wheel and tire yesterday. Those things are massive. I moved it however, I ache all over and Im pretty sure I broke my finger. So for today I will say that my big bull head is a fault because my body doesnt like me right now.

Poking Bears
 

You, Darlin', are a braver soul than I! LOL! Thank you so much for giving me one helluva laugh to start my day.

:rrose: Nicholas

I stay up far too late, sometimes denying myself sleep so that I can go over things in my head and sometimes it is not even related to myself or personal situations. I never used to do this and I think it is about time that I took value in my routines again.

Restless... I think to much a lot of the time.

I do not get scared all that easlily but trust me when I do, I am hard on myself.

I hate uncertainty. I like life when I'm planned, when things are absolutely known for the next six months, and when I can define who and what I am.

So, of course, the Universe decides I need to change this (and I do). My life fell apart and not one area, not one, is certain. Sacred cows I'd believed about myself have been tipped. It's like someone took a stick of dynamite to everything. It's been that way for the last six months or so.

However, uncertainty and even crisis can mean great growth and change. So, I've been trying not to freak out or complain when life isn't doing what it should be doing, according to moi, and just rolling with it or actually inviting uncertainty to come and visit :). I've been starting each day with a kind of prayer: "More change, please! Bring it on, life!" And it does. This isn't my natural inclination; not my anal retentive, overly planned way, but god, do I feel alive. And maybe that's far more important.

Depends on the day....and some days there isn't enough time to list them all lol

Tonight I couldn't keep my foot out of my mouth. I am not proud of that.

Its all good. I chew on mine all the time. I have learned to have friends with thicker skin. :eek: lol

I am completely admitting it was my own doing and that I should've been more respectful to this particular friend.

~ you can borrow my ray bans ~ but don't touch my rose tinted glass' ~

I can let off steam and vent for hours, when it really needs to happen.

I don't see this as a fault, unless the other person doesn't want to hear it and you vent anyway.

I have been told it is a fault because once I need to get it out after weeks of not being able to find the right outlet, it comes out. It isn't so much that the other person wants to hear it as it is super intense.