i miss the walk for a danish

I miss being visible to my community.

peeks around Jesse's corner .. peek - a - boo I see u lol.. send imvites to the LGBT community for a BBQ @ Jesse's hola Jesse ~~

I miss the Gallery.

The gentle squeezing of my hand to guide me while walking along a crowded street.

Having my nails done right. My nail lady left my usual nail salon, and it's been downhill ever since. I am extremely overly picky and sensitive about them, which makes it harder, but still.

I miss that as well....and holding hands and snuggles too.

I miss ...
 

having someone to cuddle to sleep with. My Malaysia ex cuddled her bolster to sleep. Every night. I never got cuddled in bed. My American ex and I cuddled to sleep every night and she was the FIRST lover I ever let sleep facing my back. I miss having her arm around my waist.

I miss waking up and that first smile and hello and kiss and do we have time to ...

I miss...
 

-Pitching a little tent on the banks of the Whitewater river and fishing for trout for a weekend... cooking it up for supper in a cast iron fryer on the fire, and sharing little bits with my pup, think I'm going to have to pack up my Daisy girl and do that again soon.

-During times that suck my Mom being there to say "It's going to be ok kid..."

-Portland! (though I like it where I am now)

-Formal gatherings... it's been awhile and my tux is gathering dust... blah.

My Mother....

I miss feeling sure of myself.

I miss not caring what others think of me.

My mom. My sister has been doing some landscaping at her grave site and has been sending me pictures. It only reinforces how much I really miss that wonderful woman.

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I miss ...
 

the hamburgers mum used to make on a Friday night when we were kids:

* STEAMED buns
* lettuce, tomato, onion, shredded cabbage, tomato sauce
* poached egg
* beetroot

YUMMY :p Sometimes when I'm flying out of NZ, I'll have a Kiwiburger at McDs (hmmm probably shouldn't admit to McDs...)

I miss my children being little enough to plan get togethers and celebrate their accomplishments...its been a while but today I'm at it again! My daughters Bf is
graduating from school and SHE is throwing him a dinner in his honor...and guess who gets to cook? Moi. Wish me luck. Its been some time since i throw down some Enchiladas and all the fixings, pico de Gallo etc...i might have lost touch....just in case, I threw on some Shalia Durcal to get me back in the groove....

I miss being able to do this like i breathe, which used to be the case
I miss being the hands on mama i was...(empty nest syndrome here)...
I miss the energy i had to do all this with...lol

Being able to go to the beach whenever, walks as the sun is rising, and nights with my thoughts.. Ahh the beach.

Darn that Novelafemme....Tucson cravings...

Quart size, half lemon, and half strawberry:

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The Eegee's Meatball Grinder...

and places to work it all off...

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I miss my sweetheart!! Working extra hours to make the bucks has me not only not with her but not with her on the phone as much as i would like to be.

One more night babygirl and we can at least go back to our ear whispers again!! :givingarose::wine:

I miss...
 

Having that chemistry ...that spark... the wildly intense feeling of desire that consumes my thoughts of how much I want to please them in every way... that feeling of "I can't wait till they get home "...the excitement and tenderness when they reached over to hold my hand... that twinge of hope at eventually becoming a sincere, recognized member of their family as their accepted and recognized partner ....chemistry so intense that I would melt at the sound of their voice dropping even deeper when they were seducing me... I miss the incredibly passionate, "I WANT YOU, I NEED YOU..DAMN YOUR HOT!!" look on their face that very first moment while on top that I switched positions so they could watch and they could lay back and enjoy while still being in control, at that moment how their grip on my hips and thighs grasped harder telling me I hit my mark and they wanted more, realizing that was the first moment they had ever felt pleasure that intensely, striking me to "torture them with pleasure" for as long as I could hold out, I miss doing that for them and because it was ALL FOR them with the intent to totally and fully pleasure and give to them (thank goodness I was that flexible then)... I miss how they held me after that, arms wrapped tightly around me, face buried in my neck or under my chin, cooing softly of how much they enjoyed me... I miss discovering new things, "practicing " and exploring (growing together over months of discovery) ....I miss submitting to them all I am, and them later telling me "you're in control now"... I miss tenderness and connection ...

I miss the chemistry I had never felt before them and how alive I felt... how damn good it felt to be a Giver and receiver... too bad all that was thrown away because we didn't understand each other.

I miss all that because I know I will never feel that intensity again .. I am dedicated to shutting myself off completely so I never again.....feel that chemistry or that twinge of hope at becoming accepted by their family as an acknowledged partner and the openness of that acknowledgment.

it looks similar to this...
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I miss it cuz it seems I lost it some time ago, but only noticed it missing recently.. time and location of last seen not disclosed, to protect the bashful and innocent :police:
I miss the shocked, excited look on their face when they discovered it was "there"... and the passion that ensued...
I hope it didn't get tossed out when I replaced the Route 66 box...
Time to make another trip to Adam & Eve :blink: :blink:

Miss having a femme to do things with

suddenly homesick
 

A good mate of mine from home has finally put her photo on fb and I suddenly find myself missing her, Auckland, and her ... we had some many laughs, hugs, sometimes cry, wine ... so many good times. Wow.


Going to look for some tissues.

I miss my dog.

I miss hot sex from a long work week on friday nights ...

I miss getting a text saying "Just thinking about you" or "Hi Baby"

I miss affection, the love, and the caring about someone that much. I miss the sex, the making love, and just holding each other. I miss knowing that there is someone who loves me as much as I love them. I miss not being able to tell someone about my day or asking them about theirs.

I've been recently told that my post below was disrespectful and a gross violation of privacy. That was never my intent at all. (I rarely share online about who I date and when I'm dating, to protect their privacy and to not come over as immature and childishly infatuated.)

My intent was to describe the beautiful connection and chemistry I shared with someone and why I miss it. It was also my way of saying that being differently abled physically now, is preventing me from enjoying certain things/positions with a partner. I feel my physical health has robbed me of certain enjoyments... it's very hard to adjust to.

I am also missing the mental space I had to be in to enjoy sex with any kind of penetration involved. Several years ago, I could never get to "that space" and penetration would trigger me into awful memories. Penetration with cock of any kind would send me into a very dark place filled with despair and ugly feelings about myself...then add to these feelings with my naive confusion of sex with a female who used cock, I had much inner turmoil for a long time.

When I was with the partner described in the post below, it initially came natural to be totally connected to that mind space and our enjoyment of each other. I felt ALIVE for the first time ever! Not because of cock penetration, but because of the chemistry and connection. For over a year, I could "get there" to that mental space...then I lost that ability and developed a mind block... which is (my feeling and opinion) a reason why we didn't work out and why they no longer found me desirable. I have serious questions about that - having the mental place/mind fuck then loosing it and struggling to get it back - that I want to pose in open forum... but I can't. I miss being open and finding answers. I miss being open and free about sexuality and being able to explore what makes me an ALIVE and vibrant woman. I miss feeling unashamed about enjoying and exploring my sexuality, what turns me on and who I'm attracted to. I miss being "out of the closet" and permitted to be openly proud of who I am and proud of my gender and sexuality. Growing up like I did, I was always ashamed of these things and women where "made to feel sinful and disgusting" for enjoying themselves... then becoming a victim of many acts of violence, I lived ashamed of myself for years and years.... for a while, I felt unashamed and free... now I'm feeling forced back into a box/closet for several reasons, one being to protect those that don't share my feelings.

Instead, I will refrain so I can prevent violating someone's privacy or their personal beliefs about sexuality. I sincerely did not mean to offend.

we all miss pretty much the same things. we need the same things. love does that to us. you know, i told myself once (after falling in love) that i could not ask for more. if i die, i have experienced the art of making love to its fullest, i was satisfied. well i'm not LOL.

I miss many things. I miss my mom. I miss my best friend of 23 years all because her current girlfriend put an end to our friendship earlier this month. I miss my dog Hollywood. I miss my old cat Spunky that shared 17 years with me. I miss being flirted with, funny how when someone has your attention the flirting slow downs. I miss the confidence I once had in many things like my school. I miss my I don't care what you think of me because I love me attitude I seemed to have misplaced back in Feb. of this year. So many things that I am actually missing and dd not even realize it until recently.

What do I miss...

My brother who's been gone from this Earth plane for over 26yrs. Love ya big guy in the sky!! :sunglass: