There is Nothing Better
 

Headphones on
Music jammin on in my ears
Feet moving and grooving
To the tunes that move my soul

I imagine dancing on down the street
The music blaring from my body
Sharing the joy of music
Sharing the joy of carefree dancing

Contagious the motion
Contagious the melodies
Come with me
As we dance and sing on down the road

Free your spirit
Free your soul
Free your love
For there is nothing better

Shove It
 

Sitting in the window
Watching the rain come down
TIme passing by
So utterly disappointing
Do you ever wonder what is the point of it all?
I wonder how do I cope with the boredom
With the frustration.
With the major let down
Of the every day bullshit
The TV and magazines
Say they have the cure
Which in lieu so say the doctors
Oh I have a pill or two or maybe even three for you
Oh Come on take these lovely pills
You will feel so much better
Almost like wearing rose colored glasses...
Take you pills kind doctor
And shove them where the sun doesn't shine
I have had my fill
Ready to live my life to the fullest
And maybe to learn how to cope with the ups and downs of life
Without chemicals fucking with my brains...
So take these pills and shove it.

Crazy Dream
 

Come share your dream with me
Tell me all the ins and outs
Are we on a beach in Bali
Or the Appalachian Mountains

In this dream of yours
Are we on a big ship
Travelling over the waves of the Atlantic
Or maybe the Pacific

In this dream are we like Indiana Jones
Tramping through tropical forests
Coming across rare tribes
And discovering cursed treasures

Come on, lets runaway
Off on a wonderful adventure
I know this is crazy
But hey we only live once!

An Apology
 

Fun Memories
 

Weather changing again
From Summer to Autumn
Leaves changing
From green to red and gold

Lets start pulling out our jackets
Our gloves and scarves
Time to bundle up
To drink warm cider

I want to sit around a fire
With my love and my dearest friends
Bundled up nursing our warm drinks
Building fun memories

Come my love
Wrap your arms around me
As the night wraps us in its embrace
Lets build these memories together that last a lifetime

indeed it did

Lets Pretend
 

Lets pretend that all is fine
That my own insanity
Doesn't make me feel empty
Empty and lonely

I stand in the middle
Of all these people
The room starts to spin
They spin away from me
Leaving me there all alone

Lets pretend that this all makes sense to me
That my emotions work normally
That I make connections with people
Deep and meaningful

I go down this line of people
Reaching out to each as I go by
As I come close they pull away
Leaving me feeling hollow

All These Pills Are Killing Me
 

Here I sit, setting up my medicine tray
A weeks worth of pills
Looks like a month of two for someone else
Is this how it is truly meant to be?

A pill for depression
Then it makes you too happy
So another to bring you down a bit
Because god forbid you smile too much

A mild allergic reaction to those
So another pill to stop the itching
Which increases my anxiety
And another pill for that

Is there no end to all these pills?
A pill here, a pill there, a pill everywhere it seems
Doctor doctor save me please
I think the pills are killing me

Maybe not my life
But for sure my personality
For sure my inner being
These pills are killing me

Doctor there must be another solution
Pills cannot be the only answer
Doctor Doctor save me please
All these pills are killing me

Weren't Perfect
 

When I was a little girl
All I wanted was to grow up
Be cool like my mother
For she surely knew it all

In my early teens
Reality started to set in
I could see all of her flaws
And it shook my world terribly

Those late teens were hell
For I thought I knew it all
I couldn't accept a word from her
Because she wasn't what I thought she should be

Being an adult was no better
Wanting nothing to do with her
Blaming her for everything wrong in my life
Though she is only human just like me

Years have passed
And her past has caught up with her
Now it is time to say goodbye
To a very human mother

I forgive you
Can you forgive me?
For wasting all those years of anger?
In all this time I never stopped loving you
I just couldn't accept you weren't perfect

Karma
 

Anger and pain
Swirl about in my head
And in my heart
It would be so easy
To call it all to my fingertips
And let a curse loose upon you

Hell hath no fury
Like a woman scorned
So easy to be vindictive
And petty
Such is human nature
To call down on you what you did to me

But will I rise above
I have faith in the powers that be
That you were here to teach me a lesson
Though I might not get it just yet
I will let Karma take it's course
For it is not my responsibility to punish those who have done wrong

What I put out
Will come back on me three fold
So in the meantime I am thankful
For the time you were in my life
And the joy you brought me
I will pray every day that you will find what you are looking for

My Friend
 

My friend so dear
Your heart so tender
I am here for you never fear

Here I am to help you
Bandage your crack heart
With my Hello Kitty band-aids

To make you smile
Though you want to cry
To let you know how loved you are

So never forget
No matter what happens
I am always here when you need a shoulder or a hug

And the next little honey
If she goes breaking your heart
I will go breaking her face

Master
 

Angels and Demons
 

The Poetic Witch
 

Time Moves On
 

Happy Birthday Mother
 

Another day has come and gone
But this day was special
In my memories
Today and tomorrow and always

I woke up this morning
Wanting to pick up the phone
To call you and give you
Your yearly birthday greetings

Then I remember I cannot
For you are no longer on this realm
But high above with angels mayhaps
Or far below terrorizing the devils for sure

Happy Birthday Mother
No matter where you are
High up above
Or way down below

We have not forgotten you
And never will
As long as a tear can fall
From my eye

I love you mother
You weren't perfect
But hey neither am I
I love you none the less.

Lets Soul Dance
 

Coffee Shop Debate
 

We settle at the table
Sipping our coffee
Ready for a good conversation
With agreements and disagreements alike

I am perched on the edge of my seat
Listening to your every word
Watching you lips move
Wondering how they might feel upon mine

It is not that your words are meaningless
But your intelligence rocks me
The more you talk
The more I want you in ways that aren't verbal

If I could I would make love to your brain
But that is rather impossible
So neither here nor there
So please just kiss my lips first

Let me feel your hand drift down my arm
So I might feel shivers and bumps
Oh hell lets leave the coffee shop
Mayhaps go somewhere more private

I am sure our conversation can get much more lively
Without interruptions it might get very pleasurable indeed
So do you agree my friend?
Shall adjourn to a more private place to conclude this debate?

To a very special friend

Forever Loves
 

Dream Haunting
 

Night is coming
Time to lay down
Time to dream
Which I am so hesitant to do

Dreams of people who have passed to the other side
Dreams of people of the long past some possibly forgotten
Dreams of fears that don't fit in my life
Dreams of discontent spilling over into the waking world

Why do I feel so haunted by these images?
I feel as if these souls are trying to give me a message
But I am not getting it
And until I do the dreams will continue

Sooner or later insanity will ensue
Can these spirits of the past be more plain?
Couldn't they just send a text or perhaps an email?
Apparently my brain doesn't work well in dreams.

Get The Hell Over It and Move On
 

Life happens
Shit happens
Crap happens
Get the hell over it
And move on

Sometimes bad things happen
Sometimes crappy things happen
Sometimes shitty things happen
In the end you cannot change the past
So accept it, suck it up and move the fuck on

It might not be your fault
Or her fault
Or my fault
Or even his fault
But fault doesn't matter, deal with it

I don't mean to sound like a bitch
But does it truly matter whose fault it is?
Can it be taken back? Or does it change the outcome?
Does it matter why in the long run?
It happened, with or without your approval, so deal

Deal with what you have
Try to make tomorrow better
For you and everyone else around you
That is all you can do
Unless you like misery, then stew in the mess by yourself

The Bed
 

The bed
A sacred place
Of comfort
Of love
Of safety

While we sleep
We battle for the covers
Elbows in the ears
Me sawing logs so loud
That the neighbors complain

You poke me to shut me up
I steal the covers because I am freezing
I hit you with a pillow for the offending elbow
But as I whimper and cry
You wrap your arms around me to comfort me from my nightmare

In the wee hours of the morning
You shower me with kisses
Whispering sweet nothings in my ear
As I snuggle closer to you
Sharing the blankets as I share my love

Even though there might be a battle
In this very bed at night
When the morning comes
Our love will shine through
For you and for me.

Between Light and Dark
 

Help Forthcoming
 

Game of Life
 

One step forward
Two steps to the left
Three steps back
Four steps to the right

Are we dancing?
Are we playing a game?
I feel as if I am spinning
Spinning out of control

Is this a game we play?
A dance move we do to get through it?
The complicated game of life
That we have no control of

Lets waltz across the floor
Lets dance as if we know
As if we know what we are doing
When we really don't

As long as you are at my side
This game, this dance
It isn't so bad as all that
You are my love and you make it all worthwhile

So lets waltz, lets dance
Through this game of life
Always together forever
Me holding you and you holding me.

I wait
 

Dream Mundane
 

What is real
What is a dream
I can no longer tell

My brain is failing me
In telling me the difference
Between dream and reality

You would think it would be easy
When I dream of famous people
Like Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson

But when I am in the midst of the dream
I cannot differentiate
Because it is literally so realistic

No they aren't dreams of sex
They aren't dreams of chasing bad guys with him
Or him chasing me

Just a dream of the terribly mundane
As if my life isn't mundane enough
Yay here we are in Mundania!

Going to lay back down now
Maybe I will wake in some exciting life
I didn't know I had, that explains why I dream mundane.

Counting Down The Days
 

Snow is falling
This isn't a winter wonderland
The holidays are over
And so is my fascination with sparkly snow

Counting down the days
Til Spring is here
Counting down the days
To dress and flip flop weather

Negative degree weather
So isn't my thing
When it takes a half hour
To get dressed to just go outside for 5 minutes

Counting down the days
Til Spring rains wash away the snow
Counting down the days
To t-shirt and short weather

Yes Global Warming is here
It's a bitch and most likely it is just going to get worse
But Goddess please
Bless us with a early Spring

Counting down the days
Til the earth and trees Spring forth life
Counting down the days
To warmer weather

Training Day
 

Forever My Love
 

Cold
Alone
On an island
Of ice and snow

I wonder
And wander
Looking
For warmth

Why am I alone?
Where has everyone gone?
So cold
So alone

I lay down
In the ice and snow
So very tired
No heart to go on

As I close my eyes
Your name passes from my lips
A bare whisper on the wind
One last quiet cry for help

A burst of light
And warmth
Surrounding me
Warming me

You are my sun
My heart
My blood
My life

The ice and snow melts
Life bursts forth all around
The whole world warms
As you wrap your arms around me

Forever my Sun
Forever my Other Half
Forever my Protector
Forever my Love

Old Man Winter
 

Neverending white
Cold in your bones
Feeling as if nothing
Can warm your soul

Old Man Winter has stayed way too long
Father Sun warm Mother
Mother wake from your slumber
So spring might come forth

The longer Old Man Winter stays
The colder and darker our souls become
This is not our natural state
Mother wake up and shower us with love

Mother and Father
Kindle the fire deep within us
Warm the earth and inspire growth
Not just for us humans, but every living creature

Time to send Old Man Winter
To the southern hemisphere for a time
For this is the cycle of life
Come on Grandfather.. time to move on

Take A Walk
 

It is cold and clear
The sun shining so bright
Almost blinding in the morning light
I think we will need shades to face the day

Lets take a walk
Enjoy the crisp air
Come take a walk with me
This beautiful morning won't last forever

Yes it is true
I would prefer warmer weather
Sundresses and flip flop type of weather
But that is still a bit of time away

So lets make due with what we have
Enjoy the little gifts that the Mother gives
Thank the Father for the warmth of the rays of the sun
And take a walk in the crisp sunny morning

Not Enough
 

Never enough
Nothing I say
Nothing I do
Seems to be enough

Why do I feel as if I don't measure up
To some unseen limit
Some invisible level
That I reach for but it is always out of reach

I just want to make everyone happy
But I am so lacking
But I don't know why
I try so hard

I'm just not enough
For you
For them
For everyone

A Blessing and A Curse
 

Caterpillar Brain
 

Every night as I lay myself down to sleep
I wrap my mind in a cocoon
As I snooze the night away
I go over everything I learned that day
Like a caterpillar transforming in that cocoon
My brain is changing and growing and expanding
You can almost compare it to a computer
Defragging to make the best of the space it has
My caterpillar brain is becoming a beautiful butterfly
With everything I learn
Day in and day out
Opening my third eye too all the possibilities
I am truly blessed by the Gods and Goddesses
Thank you Lord and Lady
For giving me the capability to learn
Thank you Lord and Lady
For my caterpillar brain

Remember Us As We Remember You
 

As I sit here
Listening to the music
Roll over me
Moving me up
Moving me down

I miss you both so
The house is too quiet
Without you
But I know this is for the best
For you two and for us

You will find better families
Who can take care of you
In sickness and in health
Who are more than willing
To play and walk, night and day

Please don't think
We didn't love you
Because we do
More than you will ever know
This is why we want better for you

We had to give you up
So you could have what you truly deserved
Because we couldn't do right by you
Please remember us kindly
Because we will always remember you two.

Pill for this, Pill for that
 

Our society in all its glory
Our society in all its wisdom
Our society in all its assumed intelligence
Has created a monster it cannot fight

Sick?
Don't worry we got a pill for that
In pain?
We got a pill for that too

That pain pill is putting you to sleep?
Here is a pill to keep you awake
Oh that one is upsetting your stomach
Another pill for that

Pill for this
Pill for that
Everything can be fixed by a pill or two or three or four
No these aren't addictive at all

Doctor! Doctor!
It hurts when I do this!
Well don't do that!
Take two pills and call me in the morning

I see the future
Pharmaceutical Companies own the world
Controlling the masses with their little pills
And we just smile and nod

Poem by me
 

It's Time
 

The earth is still frozen
Piles of snow all around
Freezing temperatures still haunt us
Even though it is the end of March

Mother may I ask?
Mother may I plead?
Mother may I beg?
For warmer weather?

I am not asking to be boiled
Nor to be baked
Or even grilled
Just lightly toasted would be lovely

My bones a cold
All the way down to my toes
Mother help me warm them
Before I freeze into living statue

I heard the birds flying over head
They were flying north
I know Spring is coming
But just not fast enough

I see the animals out and about
Their winter cache of food is gone
So they are hunting for the Spring growth
But the ground is still frozen

Trees haven't budded
The grass hasn't sprouted
The ground is brown
Nothing green that I can see

Mother bless us
With Spring Growth
Mother bless us
With Spring Warmth

Time for the cycle of life to move on to the next phase
Time for the tree of life to bloom once again
Time for the season to change
It's Time

Hey